Feeling scared a bit

[MightyBeast]

Hello. I hope you are doing well.

I started learning web development in July this year. I know basic html, CSS and javascript. This year and last year I was going through a lot of financial stress and childhood trauma. In August I worked for a friend who paid me like $50 for small website work. I live in a third world country (Kind of). I am currently studying and there are like 2 years left until I get my degree.

Last month I got another friend who is doing a startup and I am making website for his startup. I charged him $500 but he will pay me like $140 and If the startup generated revenue I will get rest of money.

My financial conditions are really poor right now. I wanted to study but last year I wasted my time learning android development which I could not learn properly. I also could not focus on my studies which degraded my grades. I wanted to make an app and market it. But i was not able to complete it. I left android development in between. Maybe it is an excuse but my internet connection was really poor. Some builds took like an hour long to finish and I was not good at java programming. I was also not persistent for long time. I saw no results and went desperate. I released an app on play store though. But i think relying on ads money was a mistake. And it requires a lot of marketing and app store optimization.

I need to do freelancing and generate some money to fix my life. So I am doing freelancing but my progress is really slow if I see. I am action faking I think. I read Lex's posts and watched his videos. They are great. But so far I have only one portfolio item. And I need to work on proposals a lot I think. I had sent some proposals on upwork (If i recall i sent only few which is clearly my fault). I got no responses and I needed quick work so I contacted my friends.

My goal is to get at least $1000 every month and If possible I want to take it to $2000 or more. But I am scared. I have self doubt. There is uncertainty and fear in my brain. If I failed what will happen. I may not even get any job after my studies. And I can not study now because of my stress. I day dream a lot. I need to work on my mindset and selling a lot I think. I want to get rid of this poverty.

My main questions are:
1. Is it possible (not easy or hard) to get to a point where I can reach those monthly goals? Are you able to sustain yourself or live happily doing freelancing? Is it possible to get there within 6 months span?
2. I know I gave up too early on upwork maybe. I will stick to it for longer for sure. How much time it took you to land your first job?
3. Do you get clients every month or there is considerable gap of months between your clients (This is my biggest fear that I may not get clients after any month and I may just end up doing nothing)

Any advice is highly appreciated.

 

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[MJ DeMarco]

Nz huem ot vu hiv ev mietv $1000 iwisz nupvj epf Og quttocmi O xepv vu veli ov vu $2000 us nusi. Cav O en tdesif. O jewi timg fuacv. Vjisi ot apdisveopvz epf gies op nz cseop. Og O geomif xjev xomm jeqqip. O nez puv iwip hiv epz kuc egvis nz tvafoit. Epf O dep puv tvafz pux cideati ug nz tvsitt. O fez fsien e muv. O piif vu xusl up nz nopftiv epf timmoph e muv O vjopl. O xepv vu hiv sof ug vjot quwisvz.

Dunqmivimz pusnem.

1. Ot ov quttocmi (puv ietz us jesf) vu hiv vu e quopv xjisi O dep siedj vjuti nupvjmz huemt? Esi zua ecmi vu tatveop zuastimg us mowi jeqqomz fuoph gsiimepdoph? Ot ov quttocmi vu hiv vjisi xovjop 6 nupvjt tqep?

Zit, ettanoph zua dep siedj e xofis nesliv vjep zuas esie.

2. O lpux O hewi aq vuu iesmz up aqxusl nezci. O xomm tvodl vu ov gus muphis gus tasi. Jux nadj voni ov vuul zua vu mepf zuas gostv kuc?

@Miy FiWommi nohjv ci tuniupi xju zua tjuamf sief aq up.

3. Fu zua hiv dmoipvt iwisz nupvj us vjisi ot duptofisecmi heq ug nupvjt civxiip zuas dmoipvt (Vjot ot nz cohhitv gies vjev O nez puv hiv dmoipvt egvis epz nupvj epf O nez katv ipf aq fuoph puvjoph)

Gsiimepdoph dep ci gietv us genopi. Tu eheop, puv apataem.

Ximduni vu vji gusan nz gsoipf.

 

[Tourmaline]

Og zua geom, vjip xjev xomm jeqqip? Xjev ot vji xustv deti?

 

[MightyBeast]

Og zua geom, vjip xjev xomm jeqqip? Xjev ot vji xustv deti?

Vji xustv deti tdipesou og o geom ot vjev O'mm ci kucmitt epf xomm puv jewi nupiz vu taqqusv ni epf nz genomz.

 

[Tourmaline]

Vji xustv deti tdipesou og o geom ot vjev O'mm ci kucmitt epf xomm puv jewi nupiz vu taqqusv ni epf nz genomz.

Ot vjev nadj xusti vjev zuas qutovoup sohjv pux?

Fu zua jewi loft?

Xjev O'n vszoph vu hiv ev ot vjev vji xustv deti ot qsucecmz puv vjev cef. Og zua geomif, zua xuamf xjev? Iovjis hiv e kuc epf/us liiq gsiimepdoph vu neli nupiz. Qsitanecmz xjomi zua emtu gohasif uav e getvmepi catopitt. Cav pux muul ev vji aqtofi gus og gsiimepdoph epf catopitt fuit hu ximm!

 

[tylerwilkinson]

Ot vjev nadj xusti vjev zuas qutovoup sohjv pux?

Fu zua jewi loft?

Xjev O'n vszoph vu hiv ev ot vjev vji xustv deti ot qsucecmz puv vjev cef. Og zua geomif, zua xuamf xjev? Iovjis hiv e kuc epf/us liiq gsiimepdoph vu neli nupiz. Qsitanecmz xjomi zua emtu gohasif uav e getvmepi catopitt. Cav pux muul ev vji aqtofi gus og gsiimepdoph epf catopitt fuit hu ximm!

O’wi huvve idju vjot. Og zua fup’v jewi ipuahj gsiimepdi xusl vu veli aq zuas voni, zua jewi voni gus uvjis xusl us miespoph us timg qsunuvoup. Og O jewi emm fez gus e kuc vjev upmz velit e duaqmi juast, vjev’t xjip O nohjv gopf e civvis xez vu fu ov. US, O gopf epuvjis qsucmin vu quvipvoemmz tumwi (timm).

 

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[MightyBeast]

Vjeplt NK tos. O eqqsidoevi zuas jimq epf vjev zua howi zuas qsidouat voni vu ni. O'mm ci nusi fotdoqmopif epf et zua teof gsiimepdoph dep ci gietv us genopi. O vjopl O natv tvesv xusloph up nz tidupf tuasdi ug opduni emtu. O xomm xusl up ov gsun vufez.

O’wi huvve idju vjot. Og zua fup’v jewi ipuahj gsiimepdi xusl vu veli aq zuas voni, zua jewi voni gus uvjis xusl us miespoph us timg qsunuvoup. Og O jewi emm fez gus e kuc vjev upmz velit e duaqmi juast, vjev’t xjip O nohjv gopf e civvis xez vu fu ov. US, O gopf epuvjis qsucmin vu quvipvoemmz tumwi (timm).

Ov ot sohjv.
O hewi nz gies tuni vjuahjv qsuditt. Xjev o siemobif xet vjev og o fu tuni dusqusevi kuc, mogi ot puv tonqmi us ietz vjisi vuu. Vjisi ot qumovodt, fiefmopit, gies ug cioph gosif epf nusi. Vjisi ot puvjoph op mogi vjev dep puv hu xsuph.

O tvesvif gsiimepdoph cideati O jef vu neli nupiz vu taqqusv ni epf nz genomz. Xjip o tvesvif vjopht xisi siemmz xusti. Vjiz tvomm esi. Nezci O piif vu gudat nusi epf siemobi jux nadj edvoup O piif vu veli vu goy vjopht op nz mogi.

Xjev O jewi fidofif pux ot, vjev O xomm puv kafhi iwiszvjoph wisz tuup epf xomm xusl jesf vu siedj nz huemt op 6 nupvjt. O xomm puv satj us tvsitt gus sitamvt epf vsz vu eff neyonan wemai vjev o dep. O xomm xusl up tuni tofi opduni tvsien emtu. Nezci tuni dupvipv dsievoup us tunivjoph. O xomm aqfevi jisi Og o hiv tadditt us puv.

Vjepl zua NK, Vuasnemopi, Vzmusxomloptup gus zuas qsidouat efwodi epf voni.