Poker Professional in a hunt for Mad Lab. Lets start with title.
I am playing poker professionally for last 5.5 year.
Why Mad Lab? With wife we don't have big money needs. Here and there we travel to USA, Japan, Hong Kong or different places and usually it cost around 5k USD, once the trip was for 10k USD (of course to USA
) but beside travels we are more than fine with simple life. We enjoy good food and doing active stuff but since eating out got old for us and sauna, gym, squash, zoo, parks aren't that expensive we don't worry about anything.
While thinking about title I had a idea that made crazy smile on my face. I am gonna earn money to buy apartment from neighbors, destroy the wall, and do Mad Lab in one of the rooms inside. I am going to save 10% of earnings for equipment there, and 40% for apartment. I am gonna put there Cryo Chamber inside, infrared sauna, maybe some red lights and many other weird stuff that I'd like to test. Cryo chamber itself is going to motivate me to earn additional 750 000 usd.
I was thinking for more than two years about creating blog here. I was blogging from the begging of my poker journey. I was super lucky because, I've meet fantastic people and got motivated by keeping blog as a form of public journal. I set one rule: if readers in any way, are going to slows me down, from transforming into person that I want to be, I am going to stop doing it. Life is amazing because usually you have more choices than you realize. Like I did realize two years ago that poker forum helped me grow as the old me, new me needs different kind of readers to being challenged, understood and point out on BS'ing myself. I started to fell it two years ago, when I was in a happy relationship, long after meaningless sex and one night stands got old. Same was with money, I didn't want to post graphs where I was 2.5k$ up for day and missing posts where I was playing a week to earn 50 euro or even worse. Or graph where I was working 3 weeks to lose 4k usd. Saying that from 2013-2017 I did not have a losing 30 days straight for which I am very grateful and happy. In 2018 I did have losing months because I did work less and my life was turned upside down more than once. Anyway I saw that reaction to execution was bad, because for audience it was boring that I was posting excels with 100 days challenges and progress with them.
I am lucky enough that even though I am the person who started from underachiever in every area: relationships, strength, being attractive to other sex, education, health when I was 18 I achieved 100% of my 10 years goals before my 28th birthdays (though I failed 100% of my yearly goals along the way). After I read email about: A physicist's guide to learning hard things I've realize I did over-complicated everything and lost momentum I used to have.
My biggest daemons are my emotions, that I have to deal with. While fighting with my emotional problems, after trying many, many things, at the December of 2017 I went to Peru for Ayahuasca ceremony. Week before friend of mine told me he's not going and he can give me refund 100% of costs if I won't go. It was 24h flight, to do strongest psychedelics in the world, in the jungle, on my own, not knowing Spanish, while I never did anything beside weed and alcohol. How could I give up? I treat Ayahuasca more like brain surgery than anything else. It was next time when someone chicken out on the ceremony. I told myself "F*ck it, you gotta do, what you gotta do. You've been preparing for it for last two months" and I went. I expected fighting daemons and having bad trip. First and only time I did it I had very good trip with super strong visions. I've learned that my fiance is my soulmate and our goal is to be good parents and good husband / wife for each other. I've heard that I am gonna be father of 3 daughters, and that we are going to have good big impact on world, either by us or daughters and it doesn't matter who's going to do it because if not one person than the other will. I've also heard that I have to pack my shit and go back to home.
Next day I was fling home I gave up another 6 days of Ayahuasca ceremony, Machu Picchu and everything else that was planed and prepaid. I've got way more than I wanted from that trip so I didn't mind paying 2k euro more for going back home at the very next day (my Aya trip ended at 00:30 local time and there were no transport before). I came back home to learn that first pregnancy test failed and we are gonna be a parents. At the same time I had visions about having daughters my fiance, did 2nd test where she saw that it's positive this time. Weird? Creepy? You bet! Especially that for some reason she told no one about it because she was waiting for something - me going back home 10 days earlier as a surprise for her.
Not only I had spiritual revolution (even though I went there for other reasons and I was expecting bad trips) we also move out, got married, bought apartament, got daughter (3 months old now). I also almost died at 30ties of October when car hit me while riding a bike. I didn't see my whole life between my eyes I just felt soo bad for leaving my wife and daughter on their own, no flashbacks no nothing. When I was bouncing from window to the asphalt I've heard voice, same way like I've heard on Aya trip - "Your time is not done yet, you have mission to do". As creepy as it sounds and as lucky as I was. I had less than coin flip for surviving, car was quite fast and I was on a bike, I could been paralyzed, dead or other bad things could happen. Yet I was perfect, doing pushups next day and improving my record on handstand 10 days after that. (In the meantime had some nosebleeds, spliting blood, spend tons of time on emergency hospital but everything seemed fine). Friends making fun of me because I used to be very pragmatic person, if something didn't impact my life I did not touch it, read about it, think about it. All of the sudden I receive spiritual fulfillment (even though I wasn't looking for one, could be because I was meditating for more than 660 days straight or something).
This year is really challenging for me. I was ill like three times this year (even though in last 5 years I was ill 2 times) Yet it's the most lucky year of all years. I did survive. I am fine. I am healthy. I've realized how much I've achieved and how much further I can go.
I've order once again "awake the gigant within" by Tony Robins because of him I did made this 10 year plan, even though I am not thrilled about thinking 10 years ahead I am gonna do that because it worked, even though sample is 1. I got tiered of my poker format, heads up, it's the dirtiest of all formats, most cheaters, most ego wars, etc. I am learning new format, 6max. This year it all went very messy, I am finding out myself in new circumstances and I am getting lost more often than not. I am being very challenged and it's a perfect time for starting writing and going deeper into myself.
I am playing poker professionally for last 5.5 year.
Why Mad Lab? With wife we don't have big money needs. Here and there we travel to USA, Japan, Hong Kong or different places and usually it cost around 5k USD, once the trip was for 10k USD (of course to USA
) but beside travels we are more than fine with simple life. We enjoy good food and doing active stuff but since eating out got old for us and sauna, gym, squash, zoo, parks aren't that expensive we don't worry about anything. While thinking about title I had a idea that made crazy smile on my face. I am gonna earn money to buy apartment from neighbors, destroy the wall, and do Mad Lab in one of the rooms inside. I am going to save 10% of earnings for equipment there, and 40% for apartment. I am gonna put there Cryo Chamber inside, infrared sauna, maybe some red lights and many other weird stuff that I'd like to test. Cryo chamber itself is going to motivate me to earn additional 750 000 usd.
I was thinking for more than two years about creating blog here. I was blogging from the begging of my poker journey. I was super lucky because, I've meet fantastic people and got motivated by keeping blog as a form of public journal. I set one rule: if readers in any way, are going to slows me down, from transforming into person that I want to be, I am going to stop doing it. Life is amazing because usually you have more choices than you realize. Like I did realize two years ago that poker forum helped me grow as the old me, new me needs different kind of readers to being challenged, understood and point out on BS'ing myself. I started to fell it two years ago, when I was in a happy relationship, long after meaningless sex and one night stands got old. Same was with money, I didn't want to post graphs where I was 2.5k$ up for day and missing posts where I was playing a week to earn 50 euro or even worse. Or graph where I was working 3 weeks to lose 4k usd. Saying that from 2013-2017 I did not have a losing 30 days straight for which I am very grateful and happy. In 2018 I did have losing months because I did work less and my life was turned upside down more than once. Anyway I saw that reaction to execution was bad, because for audience it was boring that I was posting excels with 100 days challenges and progress with them.
I am lucky enough that even though I am the person who started from underachiever in every area: relationships, strength, being attractive to other sex, education, health when I was 18 I achieved 100% of my 10 years goals before my 28th birthdays (though I failed 100% of my yearly goals along the way). After I read email about: A physicist's guide to learning hard things I've realize I did over-complicated everything and lost momentum I used to have.
My biggest daemons are my emotions, that I have to deal with. While fighting with my emotional problems, after trying many, many things, at the December of 2017 I went to Peru for Ayahuasca ceremony. Week before friend of mine told me he's not going and he can give me refund 100% of costs if I won't go. It was 24h flight, to do strongest psychedelics in the world, in the jungle, on my own, not knowing Spanish, while I never did anything beside weed and alcohol. How could I give up? I treat Ayahuasca more like brain surgery than anything else. It was next time when someone chicken out on the ceremony. I told myself "F*ck it, you gotta do, what you gotta do. You've been preparing for it for last two months" and I went. I expected fighting daemons and having bad trip. First and only time I did it I had very good trip with super strong visions. I've learned that my fiance is my soulmate and our goal is to be good parents and good husband / wife for each other. I've heard that I am gonna be father of 3 daughters, and that we are going to have good big impact on world, either by us or daughters and it doesn't matter who's going to do it because if not one person than the other will. I've also heard that I have to pack my shit and go back to home.
Next day I was fling home I gave up another 6 days of Ayahuasca ceremony, Machu Picchu and everything else that was planed and prepaid. I've got way more than I wanted from that trip so I didn't mind paying 2k euro more for going back home at the very next day (my Aya trip ended at 00:30 local time and there were no transport before). I came back home to learn that first pregnancy test failed and we are gonna be a parents. At the same time I had visions about having daughters my fiance, did 2nd test where she saw that it's positive this time. Weird? Creepy? You bet! Especially that for some reason she told no one about it because she was waiting for something - me going back home 10 days earlier as a surprise for her.
Not only I had spiritual revolution (even though I went there for other reasons and I was expecting bad trips) we also move out, got married, bought apartament, got daughter (3 months old now). I also almost died at 30ties of October when car hit me while riding a bike. I didn't see my whole life between my eyes I just felt soo bad for leaving my wife and daughter on their own, no flashbacks no nothing. When I was bouncing from window to the asphalt I've heard voice, same way like I've heard on Aya trip - "Your time is not done yet, you have mission to do". As creepy as it sounds and as lucky as I was. I had less than coin flip for surviving, car was quite fast and I was on a bike, I could been paralyzed, dead or other bad things could happen. Yet I was perfect, doing pushups next day and improving my record on handstand 10 days after that. (In the meantime had some nosebleeds, spliting blood, spend tons of time on emergency hospital but everything seemed fine). Friends making fun of me because I used to be very pragmatic person, if something didn't impact my life I did not touch it, read about it, think about it. All of the sudden I receive spiritual fulfillment (even though I wasn't looking for one, could be because I was meditating for more than 660 days straight or something).
This year is really challenging for me. I was ill like three times this year (even though in last 5 years I was ill 2 times) Yet it's the most lucky year of all years. I did survive. I am fine. I am healthy. I've realized how much I've achieved and how much further I can go.
I've order once again "awake the gigant within" by Tony Robins because of him I did made this 10 year plan, even though I am not thrilled about thinking 10 years ahead I am gonna do that because it worked, even though sample is 1. I got tiered of my poker format, heads up, it's the dirtiest of all formats, most cheaters, most ego wars, etc. I am learning new format, 6max. This year it all went very messy, I am finding out myself in new circumstances and I am getting lost more often than not. I am being very challenged and it's a perfect time for starting writing and going deeper into myself.
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