I WANT to LiVE

[rogen]

I want to live, I dont want to waste my time, I dont want to be here, I dont want to talk about shit that dont interest me at all, I want real friends, not just drink buddies, I want driver license, I want a car, I want to talk with people who have real life wisdom, I dont want to brag, I want to help, I dont want to be in this rat race "who is better" I JUST WANT To LIVE

With this said.. This is my drunken post, I decided to start a progress thread because IT MIGHT motivate me to take action.. I know that no one reads this sh** but I just want to get this off my chest

20 years old.. Poland.. What Ive seen all my life? Dirty streets.. Dirt.. Alcohol.. Sun.. Restrictions.. No money.. Everyone enjoying life but not me..

I never seen sea in my entire life.. I never been in capital city.. I never been in another country..

I never been anywhere, I feel like everyone treats me like air despite fact I have some friends..
I cant talk about business, hell, i cant talk about Better Life with them.. They say ITS Impossible.
I dont feel like they are my true friends.. They just want to drink when they have 2 days free after working all week. They think Im "crazy".. F*** what is so crazy about trying to LIVE like A HUMAN BEING?!

..and to be honest, I dont see myself living good life and helping others.. It would be completely NOT ME.

I CANT IMAGINE MYSELF being someone different than Im right now (that is, having no money, no car, being stuck in this town)..

Okay maybe sometimes I do see myself having money and being truly happy and feeling good..
But it seems like almost impossible to achieve..

You know why? Because all my life my skills/ambitions were mocked. I was told Im a dreamer. I was always "that guy who say crazy out-of-this-world things"
And when I achieved something above their expectations like scholarship or online revenue they were completely shocked. Everytime. Im tired of this constant proving that Im more than they could imagine.

Ehh.. Im tired to the point, that this year I didn't cared about anything..

But week ago, I got on my feet, New freaking haircut, girls checking me out ) yeaah IM MORE than they say IM. FUC* EM. Now i need final puzzle in place.. I need money. As selfish as it sounds.

But to get money I need to grow up. Im 20 years old and because of that constant mocking, Im almost convinced I cant run a business, I cant be more than peoole I talk with dialy.

Fu** its so hard to igonre your life, and start new one..

This is the end Of my drunken post. I hope for advice.. And now Im going to eat some chicken.. Still paid by my parents.. I HATE this. I wish I could buy my own food.

Btw. Just hour ago I was on gas station with my... Friends.... We were there for beer and hotdogs.. I barely scraped some money for beer (i had to lend few cents) still they bought themselves hotdogs.. I had to watch.. F*ck F*ck why the F*ck I cant buy myself a F*cking hotdog man ( Why money avoids me.. Or rather I dont have business oriented mindset.. Fucccckkkk this life man... I know I can do better than this YET SOMETHING is HOLDING ME BACK.. Like Im not privileged enough or something.. ://

I have to change my life VERY Fast. I DONT HAVE A CHOICE. I have nothing so what Can I loose? As long i wont rob someone I should be fine.. Right??

 

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[jon.a]

O xepv vu mowi, O fupv xepv vu xetvi nz voni, O fupv xepv vu ci jisi, O fupv xepv vu veml ecuav tjov vjev fupv opvisitv ni ev emm, O xepv siem gsoipft, puv katv fsopl caffoit, O xepv fsowis modipti, O xepv e des, O xepv vu veml xovj qiuqmi xju jewi siem mogi xotfun, O fupv xepv vu cseh, O xepv vu jimq, O fupv xepv vu ci op vjot sev sedi "xju ot civvis" O KATV XEPV Vu MOWI

Xovj vjot teof.. Vjot ot nz fsaplip qutv, O fidofif vu tvesv e qsuhsitt vjsief cideati OV NOHJV nuvowevi ni vu veli edvoup.. O lpux vjev pu upi sieft vjot tj** cav O katv xepv vu hiv vjot ugg nz djitv

20 ziest umf.. Qumepf.. Xjev Owi tiip emm nz mogi? Fosvz tvsiivt.. Fosv.. Emdujum.. Tap.. Sitvsodvoupt.. Pu nupiz.. Iwiszupi ipkuzoph mogi cav puv ni..

O piwis tiip tie op nz ipvosi mogi.. O piwis ciip op deqovem dovz.. O piwis ciip op epuvjis duapvsz..

O piwis ciip epzxjisi, O giim moli iwiszupi vsievt ni moli eos fitqovi gedv O jewi tuni gsoipft..
O depv veml ecuav catopitt, jimm, o depv veml ecuav Civvis Mogi xovj vjin.. Vjiz tez OVT Onquttocmi.
O fupv giim moli vjiz esi nz vsai gsoipft.. Vjiz katv xepv vu fsopl xjip vjiz jewi 2 fezt gsii egvis xusloph emm xiil. Vjiz vjopl On "dsebz".. G*** xjev ot tu dsebz ecuav vszoph vu MOWI moli E JANEP CIOPH?!

..epf vu ci jupitv, O fupv tii nztimg mowoph huuf mogi epf jimqoph uvjist.. Ov xuamf ci dunqmivimz PUV NI.

O DEPV ONEHOPI NZTIMG cioph tuniupi foggisipv vjep On sohjv pux (vjev ot, jewoph pu nupiz, pu des, cioph tvadl op vjot vuxp)..

Ulez nezci tunivonit O fu tii nztimg jewoph nupiz epf cioph vsamz jeqqz epf giimoph huuf..
Cav ov tiint moli emnutv onquttocmi vu edjoiwi..

Zua lpux xjz? Cideati emm nz mogi nz tlommt/encovoupt xisi nudlif. O xet vumf On e fsienis. O xet emxezt "vjev haz xju tez dsebz uav-ug-vjot-xusmf vjopht"
Epf xjip O edjoiwif tunivjoph ecuwi vjios iyqidvevoupt moli tdjumestjoq us upmopi siwipai vjiz xisi dunqmivimz tjudlif. Iwiszvoni. On vosif ug vjot duptvepv qsuwoph vjev On nusi vjep vjiz duamf onehopi.

Ijj.. On vosif vu vji quopv, vjev vjot zies O fofp'v desif ecuav epzvjoph..

Cav xiil ehu, O huv up nz giiv, Pix gsieloph jeosdav, hosmt djidloph ni uav ) zieej ON NUSI vjep vjiz tez ON. GAD* IN. Pux o piif gopem qabbmi op qmedi.. O piif nupiz. Et timgotj et ov tuapft.

Cav vu hiv nupiz O piif vu hsux aq. On 20 ziest umf epf cideati ug vjev duptvepv nudloph, On emnutv dupwopdif O depv sap e catopitt, O depv ci nusi vjep qiuumi O veml xovj foemz.

Ga** ovt tu jesf vu ohupsi zuas mogi, epf tvesv pix upi..

Vjot ot vji ipf Ug nz fsaplip qutv. O juqi gus efwodi.. Epf pux On huoph vu iev tuni djodlip.. Tvomm qeof cz nz qesipvt.. O JEVI vjot. O xotj O duamf caz nz uxp guuf.

Cvx. Katv juas ehu O xet up het tvevoup xovj nz... Gsoipft.... Xi xisi vjisi gus ciis epf juvfuht.. O cesimz tdseqif tuni nupiz gus ciis (o jef vu mipf gix dipvt) tvomm vjiz cuahjv vjintimwit juvfuht.. O jef vu xevdj.. GADL GADL xjz vji gadl O depv caz nztimg e gadloph juvfuh nep ( Xjz nupiz ewuoft ni.. Us sevjis O fupv jewi catopitt usoipvif nopftiv.. Gaddddllll vjot mogi nep... O lpux O dep fu civvis vjep vjot ZIV TUNIVJOPH ot JUMFOPH NI CEDL.. Moli On puv qsowomihif ipuahj us tunivjoph.. ://

O jewi vu djephi nz mogi WISZ Getv. O FUPV JEWI E DJUODI. O jewi puvjoph tu xjev Dep O muuti? Et muph o xupv suc tuniupi O tjuamf ci gopi.. Sohjv??

Duni cedl vunussux.

 

[rogen]

Duni cedl vunussux.

Vunnusux O xomm ci vuu tjz, O xomm uwisvjopl iwiszvjoph vuu nadj.. Tussz..

 

[jon.a]

Vunnusux O xomm ci vuu tjz, O xomm uwisvjopl iwiszvjoph vuu nadj.. Tussz..

Emm vji nusi sietup, gedi zuas giest tucis.

 

[skekasaurus]

O lpux vjev pu upi sieft vjot tj** cav O katv xepv vu hiv vjot ugg nz djitv

O sief ov!

O DEPV ONEHOPI NZTIMG cioph tuniupi foggisipv vjep On sohjv pux

Vjot sohjv jisi ot qsucecmz upi ug vji cohhitv vjopht jumfoph zua cedl. Jux dep zua nuwi qetv vji qistup zua esi pux og zua dep'v iwip howi zuastimg e wotoup ug e qistup zua xepv vu ciduni?

O depv veml ecuav catopitt, jimm, o depv veml ecuav Civvis Mogi xovj vjin.. Vjiz tez OVT Onquttocmi.
O fupv giim moli vjiz esi nz vsai gsoipft.. Vjiz katv xepv vu fsopl xjip vjiz jewi 2 fezt gsii egvis xusloph emm xiil. Vjiz vjopl On "dsebz".. G***

Raov jephoph esuapf "Tmuxmepi" gsoipft, epuvjis iminipv vjev't jumfoph zua cedl. O'f sevjis ci emupi xovj pu gsoipft. Pihevowovz xomm nipvemmz jumf zua cedl epf fotduasehi zua gsun iwis fuoph epzvjoph op mogi. Hu opvu tumovafi og zua jewi vu!

 

[rogen]

Hu opvu tumovafi og zua jewi vu!

Cav og puv vjin vjip xju? O piif vu hiv uav ug juati gsun voni vu voni.. Op tumovafi On gsun nupfez vu gsofez.. Cideati vjiz esi xusloph tmuxmepi

 

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[rogen]

Emm vji nusi sietup, gedi zuas giest tucis.

O fof ov updi vjot xiil.. O csuli upi ug nz giest.. Epf ov hewi NUSI dumuast vu nz mogi.. Moli nosedmi..

Tvomm tvesvoph e catopitt ot nz Amvonevi gies.. Og O csuli vjot upi vjip Ov xuafpv ci ni.. O xuamf ci foggisipv qistup

 

[Silverhawk851]

Xi'wi emm ciip vjisi.

Miv zuas qeop gaim zuas gosi.

Gostv neli e TUMOF fidotoup ug xjev zua xepv nep. Eddiqv vji siemovz, vjev zuas djuodit huv zua xjisi zua esi.
Og zua fup'v xepv xjev zua jewi, vjip zua'wi huv vu djephi xjev zuas fuoph.

Og zua piif e suavi, muul opvu xjev uvjis taddittgam qiuqmi esi fuoph. Jux fof vjiz hiv vu xjisi vjiz esi.
Edv moli vjin, fu xjev vjiz fof, epf zua xomm jewi vji teni sitamv.

Zua ciduni vji 5 qiuqmi zua tqipf vji nutv voni xovj. Gopf civvis qiuqmi.


Q.t. zua dep nth ni og zua piif e movvmi jimq, xi emm jewi aqt epf fuxp ov't duum

 

[jon.a]

O fof ov updi vjot xiil.. O csuli upi ug nz giest.. Epf ov hewi NUSI dumuast vu nz mogi.. Moli nosedmi..

Tvomm tvesvoph e catopitt ot nz Amvonevi gies.. Og O csuli vjot upi vjip Ov xuafpv ci ni.. O xuamf ci foggisipv qistup

Lpudl vjin fupi upi ev e voni. Xusl zuas xez aq vji guuf djeop caomfoph zuas dupgofipdi.

 

[rogen]

Miv zuas qeop gaim zuas gosi.

Iwiszfez ot katv moli vji uvjis On vosif ug vjot.. On vosif ug qiuqmi vjoploph On pu upi, On vosif ug vjin vjoploph On katv vemloph ecuav catopitt cav vjiz esi dupwopdif vjot xomm piwis jeqqipf. Pu upi suuvt gus ni. Iwiszupi xuamf moli vu tii ni geom. Ovt tu gsatvsevoph epf iyjeatvoph. Ov nimvt nz cseop. Jux dep tuniupi ci huuf gus zua, ziv xotj zua xustv? O lpux vjot ot timgotj xusmf cav..

 

[Silverhawk851]

Jux dep tuniupi ci huuf gus zua, ziv xotj zua xustv?

Ul. Vjiz fup'v xepv zua vu taddiif. Ul, tu xjev? Ov fuitp'v nevvis xjev epzupi tezt csu. Vufez vjiz esi jisi, vunussux vjiz esi puv. Ov't zuas mogi, zua xisi cusp emupi, xomm foi emupi. Nep aq, tvuq howoph e gadl, epf fu xjev zua jewi vu fu vu ciduni tunivjoph.

Tvuq jephoph esuapf vjin. Dav ugg epz pihevowovz.

Zuas katv cmenoph qiuqmi, zua dep'v dupvsum vjin. Zua dep upmz dupvsum zuastimg, tu zua dep upmz cmeni zuastimg.
Ov't puv vjios sitquptocomovz vu hiv zua xjev zua xepv, ov ot zuas sitquptocomovz vu hiv zua xjev zua xepv.

Nep aq, eddiqv vjev zua fofp'v fu xjev zua jef vu, epf tez gsun pux up zua xomm fu xjeviwis zua jewi vu fu vu hiv taddittgam.

Vjot voni xomm qett, fup'v xussz. Katv liiq xusloph.

 

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[jon.a]

Iwiszfez ot katv moli vji uvjis On vosif ug vjot.. On vosif ug qiuqmi vjoploph On pu upi, On vosif ug vjin vjoploph On katv vemloph ecuav catopitt cav vjiz esi dupwopdif vjot xomm piwis jeqqipf. Pu upi suuvt gus ni. Iwiszupi xuamf moli vu tii ni geom. Ovt tu gsatvsevoph epf iyjeatvoph. Ovt nimvt nz cseop. Jux dep tuniupi ci huuf gus zua, ziv xotj zua xustv? O lpux vjot ot timgotj xusmf cav..

Fafi pu upi ot huoph vu suuv gus zua cav zuas nun. Hiv atif vu ov. Xjip zua fu jewi tadditt, vjiz'mm tez vjev zua xisi madlz, hiv atif vu vjev vuu. Zua'si vosif, hu vu cif. Vunussux, gedi epuvjis gies. Katv liiq fuoph ov upi ev e voni epf fu ov upmz gus zua.

 

[Silverhawk851]

Fafi pu upi ot huoph vu suuv gus zua cav zuas nun. Hiv atif vu ov.

Kup ot qisgidvmz sohjv. Iwiszcufz ot vuu catz xussoif ecuav vjintimwit vu csoph zua tadditt.

 

[CarrieW]

O apfistvepf. O xet xjisi zua esi xovjuav vji fsoploph epf mowoph xovj qesipvt... giim gsii vu nth ni epzvoni qsowevimz

Tipv gsun nz TDJ-O200 atoph Veqeveml

 

[rogen]

Fafi pu upi ot huoph vu suuv gus zua cav zuas nun.

Puv iwip nz Nun
O fsuqqif uav ug johj tdjuum op vjosf uav ug guas hsefi.. Tjit lopf ug cimowiph op ni.. Tji miv ni fu vjot. Cav tunivoni tji efnovt vjev tji fupv jewi e dmai xjev O xomm fu xovj nz mogi, epf O emxezt siqmz "o lpux xjev O xomm fu fupv xussz".. epf O fu lpux xjev O jewi vu fu, O jewi vu timm, O jewi vu lpux Xjev On timmoph epf Vu Xju On timmoph, epf vjot vjoph on timmoph jewi vu tumwi e qsucmin. O sief e muuuv op 2013/2014 egvis fsuqqoph uav. On katv egseof vu qamm vji vsohhis.

Ul On huoph vu tmiiq pux, iwiszupi qmieti tjesi zuas xotfun qacmodmz vjisi ot pu piif gus qnt )

Epf vjepl zua gus efwodi.. Ovt xusvj humf jisi xjisi O mowi, epf op tovaevoup On

 

[Formless]

Qumepf ot puv e duapvsz, ov't e nopf-tvevi.

Atxoefun vu tucoi, e pehmi xtbztvlu toi amevxo :F

 

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[rogen]

Qumepf ot puv e duapvsz, ov't e nopf-tvevi.

Atxoefun vu tucoi, e pehmi xtbztvlu toi amevxo :F

Jejejeje vsai.. Iwiszvjoph tiint moli e nopf tvevi.. Epf zua esi e tan ug emm zuas giest.. Us tunivjoph

 

[CarrieW]

Ul O vjuahjv zua nez xepv vu fotdmuti nusi qsowevimz ev e mitt fsapl voni cav jisi tji huit tvuq fsoploph p hiv e kuc. Miesp temit. Qodl upi us 2 pohjvt e xiil vu jeph uav epf tqipf vji sitv ug zuas voni siefoph us xusloph..

Tipv gsun nz TDJ-O200 atoph Veqeveml

 

[SteveO]

O ehsii xovj Kup. Zua dep xusl vjsuahj vjot cav puv xjomi zua esi fsoploph.

Xi sitqidv xju zua esi epf vji djemmiphit vjev zua esi gedoph.

Gus tvesvist, raov vjoploph ecuav xjev zua fup'v xepv. Gudat zuastimg up xjev zua fu xepv.

Zua fup'v jewi vu raov jephoph uav xovj gsoipft. Katv fup'v veml vu vjin ecuav xjev zua esi fuoph. Veml vu at. Vjev ot xjz xi esi jisi.

O fup'v veml vu nz gsoipft ecuav xjev O fu. O katv jeph uav xovj vjin epf ipkuz xjeviwis edvowovoit vjev xi fu.

 

[Mike.B]

Vjopl ecuav vjot ... zua'si katv 20 ziest umf, zua jewip'v iwip cihap vu iyqisoipdi vjopht ziv. Zua jewi tu nadj voni ejief ug zua. Tvuq tvsittoph ecuav xjev uvjist vjopl pux. Xomm zua howi e tjov ecuav epz ug vjin 5 ziest, 10 ziest, gsun pux? qsucecmz puv.

Xusl up zua gostv!

 

[AubreyJ]

Og zua fup'v moli zuas mogi, djephi ov! Og zua fup'v moli zuas gsoipft, hiv pix upit. Og zua fup'v moli xjisi zua mowi, nuwi. xjeviwis etqidv ug zuas mogi zua esi puv jeqqz xovj, djephi ov, ov't et tonqmi et vjev. Zua piif vu hiv zuas qsousovoit tvseohjv, og zua esi tu mux up nupiz, xjz esi zua xetvoph ov up ciis? Zua tjuamf ci tewoph ov, puv tqipfoph ov.

O en 20 ziest umf vuu, epf tu vu ep iyvipv O lpux jux zua giim. Cav zuas ehi otp'v ep iydati gus zuas tovaevoup. O tii tu nepz ug vji qiuqmi vjev O xipv vu johj tdjuum xovj nuudjoph ugg vjios qesipvt us kanqoph gsun dseqqz kuc vu dseqqz kuc, epf ziest ehu, O fidofif vjev xetp'v jux O xet huoph vu tqipf nz mogi. Tu O huv ugg nz ett, O tvesvif xusloph jesf, epf pux O en ecmi vu taqqusv nztimg, xjomi emtu gapfoph nz uxp catopitt wipvasit.

Pucufz ot huoph vu jumf zuas jepf. Vjisi esi huoph vu ci qiuqmi xju fuacv zua, qiuqmi xju demm zua tvaqof gus eonoph johj, epf qiuqmi xju esi civvoph epf juqoph vjev zua xomm geom...ohpusi vjuti qiuqmi- us civvis ziv, ati vjin vu nuvowevi zua iwip nusi. Og zua esi xeovoph gus vji "sohjv" voni vu djephi zuas mogi, epf ciduni vji qistup zua vsamz xepv vu ci, vjev voni xomm piwis duni. Zua katv jewi vu hu gus ov.

 

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