BACKSTORY:
I'm 95% certain i'll be fired next month.
I've been at my job almost 4 years.
For awhile the job was worth staying in, it was office work with a lot of downtime so i could do personal fastlane business stuff on the computer while everyone else watched movies, youtube etc
manager changed around year 2.5, and things have gotten steadily less chill.
My strategy the whole time was to stay on junior level with low responsibilities, i'm probably getting paid the lowest salary in the whole country for my position.
33k as a litigation support analyst, 10k lower than the second lowest paid coworker in my department who's a junior analyst. I specifically avoided any raises and promotions so i could avoid higher responsibilities and focus on my business instead.
BUT it finally backfired
This less chill manager is trying to force me to have senior analyst responsibilities due to my 4 years experience, but of course is more than happy to ignore the salary im making.
Next month i will be tested on various technical stuff, 90% of which i know but the more complex 10% im simply not willing to learn and be responsible for doing. I've also been transferred to night shift permanently which sucks overall too. Also over the years, the combination of sitting at computer at work 8 hours + sitting at home computer for many hours is starting to feel really messed up mentally. Also the combination of technical critical thinking my job requires + my app development critical thinking is pretty unbearable.
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Basically im looking for new work, mentally simpler warehouse labor or something so i can be off the computer during my job and then be mentally fresh to do some app work, i've sort of PLANNED FOR THIS, 16 dollars an hour means im not losing out on much, there should be no stress or fear of losing some big time investment, its just a job.
And yet i feel great anxiety, fear, imagining negative things like not finding new work, dept piling up, that im making really foolish decision, that im LOSING SO MUCH by losing this job.
I think that's comfort, whether i wanted to or not, in 4 years my brain got comfortable. for just 16 dollars an hour, my brain still got comfortable, and its rebelling against my upcoming "drastic" life change.
just wanted to share my feelings.
thanks.
I'm 95% certain i'll be fired next month.
I've been at my job almost 4 years.
For awhile the job was worth staying in, it was office work with a lot of downtime so i could do personal fastlane business stuff on the computer while everyone else watched movies, youtube etc
manager changed around year 2.5, and things have gotten steadily less chill.
My strategy the whole time was to stay on junior level with low responsibilities, i'm probably getting paid the lowest salary in the whole country for my position.
33k as a litigation support analyst, 10k lower than the second lowest paid coworker in my department who's a junior analyst. I specifically avoided any raises and promotions so i could avoid higher responsibilities and focus on my business instead.
BUT it finally backfired
This less chill manager is trying to force me to have senior analyst responsibilities due to my 4 years experience, but of course is more than happy to ignore the salary im making.
Next month i will be tested on various technical stuff, 90% of which i know but the more complex 10% im simply not willing to learn and be responsible for doing. I've also been transferred to night shift permanently which sucks overall too. Also over the years, the combination of sitting at computer at work 8 hours + sitting at home computer for many hours is starting to feel really messed up mentally. Also the combination of technical critical thinking my job requires + my app development critical thinking is pretty unbearable.
______________________________________________________________________________
Basically im looking for new work, mentally simpler warehouse labor or something so i can be off the computer during my job and then be mentally fresh to do some app work, i've sort of PLANNED FOR THIS, 16 dollars an hour means im not losing out on much, there should be no stress or fear of losing some big time investment, its just a job.
And yet i feel great anxiety, fear, imagining negative things like not finding new work, dept piling up, that im making really foolish decision, that im LOSING SO MUCH by losing this job.
I think that's comfort, whether i wanted to or not, in 4 years my brain got comfortable. for just 16 dollars an hour, my brain still got comfortable, and its rebelling against my upcoming "drastic" life change.
just wanted to share my feelings.
thanks.
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