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Recently I've provided as much value as I've been able to with this forum.
Today I would like to ask for some help myself.
I am living in an extremely toxic environment.
My entire family is toxic.
I accept responsibility and accountability for where and who I am in life today.
I made crappy decisions growing up and put myself in the situation of having to move back in with my family for now.
For that I accept responsibility and am making changes necessary to leave as soon as I am able to.
As it stands now though, I must endure some time here until I can move out.
I am extremely tough mentally and thus far have been able to avoid the mental strain that my family seeks to cause me on a daily basis.
In fact, the more successful I become they seem to target me more and more.
Just recently a family member of mine was high on drugs and almost killed me while I was on a jog (almost ran me over)
If I had not been paying attention and jumped out of the way, I would have been hit.
Not even 30 minutes later the same family member speeds past me again straight into a tree going about 50, I was the first responder on scene (was a medic in the military until I was honorably discharged)
The fact is I do not feel safe nor comfortable here and I have no where else to go for the moment.
I fill my time working to improve myself and learn new skills and also work at my job. But it's impossible to completely avoid them and the more I do avoid them, the more it seems to attract them to me in order to drag me down.
I'm drawing a loss as to what I should do to combat the situation.
It feels as if they try REALLY REALLY REALLY hard to drain my energy on a daily basis.
Today I would like to ask for some help myself.
I am living in an extremely toxic environment.
My entire family is toxic.
I accept responsibility and accountability for where and who I am in life today.
I made crappy decisions growing up and put myself in the situation of having to move back in with my family for now.
For that I accept responsibility and am making changes necessary to leave as soon as I am able to.
As it stands now though, I must endure some time here until I can move out.
I am extremely tough mentally and thus far have been able to avoid the mental strain that my family seeks to cause me on a daily basis.
In fact, the more successful I become they seem to target me more and more.
Just recently a family member of mine was high on drugs and almost killed me while I was on a jog (almost ran me over)
If I had not been paying attention and jumped out of the way, I would have been hit.
Not even 30 minutes later the same family member speeds past me again straight into a tree going about 50, I was the first responder on scene (was a medic in the military until I was honorably discharged)
The fact is I do not feel safe nor comfortable here and I have no where else to go for the moment.
I fill my time working to improve myself and learn new skills and also work at my job. But it's impossible to completely avoid them and the more I do avoid them, the more it seems to attract them to me in order to drag me down.
I'm drawing a loss as to what I should do to combat the situation.
It feels as if they try REALLY REALLY REALLY hard to drain my energy on a daily basis.
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