Dr. Venkman
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- Oct 24, 2019
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Hey,
in my opinion, I have a weak work ethic. Since I am working alone all the time, and since I don’t know anybody who is self-employed, I can’t talk to anyone about this problem.
Let me just explain my situation a bit.
Around seven years ago I lost all my friends. I felt that I needed a goal so I decided to become a millionaire. Besides that, I absolutely hated my job.
My boss was a good friend of the family but he kind of exploited me which brought me to the conclusion that it was best to not work for other people anymore.
I started a blog and wanted to make money with affiliate marketing. So I worked at my 9 to 5 job and after that, I worked on the blog.
I was so sure that I would make it and that I could escape my 9 to 5 within six months if I would just work hard enough. So I did. On Fridays, I came home from my 9 to 5 and worked until 1 pm without even noticing that I was working and learning the whole day.
Things didn’t go as planned and that kind of slowed my willingness to work. It took me 5 years to be able to quit my job.
During those 5 years, I only worked a few hours per day on my blog. Sometimes I would even take breaks for several months. After those breaks, I felt terrible and couldn’t understand why I did that. Then I worked a bit more. Then I fell off the wagon again. This happened over and over.
It felt like I was working in sprints.
Still, I made it and now I make more than twice what I made at my 9 to 5.
Since 2020, I am trying to hit 10K per month but I just can’t do it and I feel that my work ethic is the problem. I am not taking huge breaks anymore but I still work only a few hours per day.
I work around 2 to 4 hours 7 days a week. I noticed that if I take breaks on the weekend, it’s too hard for me to get into working again, so I just don’t take breaks.
I want to work more but I feel like I have no energy and oftentimes there is something in me that tells me that I am too tired, that I don’t want to concentrate anymore, that I am not able to work for another hour because it is too much.
And that is not just because I am not motivated, even if I am motivated, I still don’t work longer than that.
I have a picture of my ideal self inside my head but I don’t make it happen and that is killing me and draining my energy even more. I know that, but I still don’t push through.
I am just wondering if other people are feeling the same? Sometimes I am just wondering if I am just stupid, lazy, or genetically not made for this since I am feeling so weak.
Another thing that might be interesting to know about me is that my father told me my whole life that I was lazy, had no ambition, was weak, etc.
To this day, I always think about that and every day I am wondering if he is right. With my behavior, I am kind of agreeing with what he said and still says about me.
Just so you know, he said that about me because I never joined a sports team, and didn’t really have good grades in school.
My grades were okay, but I just winged it and could have been way better.
It seems that I am always at my best when I am suffering and scared as hell. For example, I never really studied, but when I was close to failing, I got scared and stressed (because my father would have killed me) so I just made sure that I knew a few things so that I could barely pass my exams.
School was boring and doing it like that always worked for me.
What are your thoughts on that? Do you guys feel the same?
Regards,
Venkman
P.S.
-I lift weights almost every day just to stay healthy. 5 sets of one compound movement a day.
-I ride a stationary bycicle for around 5-6 km per day.
-I try to eat healthy, I only drink water, no coffee, but I still eat a bit too much sugar per day for my liking.
-I already saw a therapist because of the things above and I was able to confront my father about those things. It didn't help with my work ethic.
in my opinion, I have a weak work ethic. Since I am working alone all the time, and since I don’t know anybody who is self-employed, I can’t talk to anyone about this problem.
Let me just explain my situation a bit.
Around seven years ago I lost all my friends. I felt that I needed a goal so I decided to become a millionaire. Besides that, I absolutely hated my job.
My boss was a good friend of the family but he kind of exploited me which brought me to the conclusion that it was best to not work for other people anymore.
I started a blog and wanted to make money with affiliate marketing. So I worked at my 9 to 5 job and after that, I worked on the blog.
I was so sure that I would make it and that I could escape my 9 to 5 within six months if I would just work hard enough. So I did. On Fridays, I came home from my 9 to 5 and worked until 1 pm without even noticing that I was working and learning the whole day.
Things didn’t go as planned and that kind of slowed my willingness to work. It took me 5 years to be able to quit my job.
During those 5 years, I only worked a few hours per day on my blog. Sometimes I would even take breaks for several months. After those breaks, I felt terrible and couldn’t understand why I did that. Then I worked a bit more. Then I fell off the wagon again. This happened over and over.
It felt like I was working in sprints.
Still, I made it and now I make more than twice what I made at my 9 to 5.
Since 2020, I am trying to hit 10K per month but I just can’t do it and I feel that my work ethic is the problem. I am not taking huge breaks anymore but I still work only a few hours per day.
I work around 2 to 4 hours 7 days a week. I noticed that if I take breaks on the weekend, it’s too hard for me to get into working again, so I just don’t take breaks.
I want to work more but I feel like I have no energy and oftentimes there is something in me that tells me that I am too tired, that I don’t want to concentrate anymore, that I am not able to work for another hour because it is too much.
And that is not just because I am not motivated, even if I am motivated, I still don’t work longer than that.
I have a picture of my ideal self inside my head but I don’t make it happen and that is killing me and draining my energy even more. I know that, but I still don’t push through.
I am just wondering if other people are feeling the same? Sometimes I am just wondering if I am just stupid, lazy, or genetically not made for this since I am feeling so weak.
Another thing that might be interesting to know about me is that my father told me my whole life that I was lazy, had no ambition, was weak, etc.
To this day, I always think about that and every day I am wondering if he is right. With my behavior, I am kind of agreeing with what he said and still says about me.
Just so you know, he said that about me because I never joined a sports team, and didn’t really have good grades in school.
My grades were okay, but I just winged it and could have been way better.
It seems that I am always at my best when I am suffering and scared as hell. For example, I never really studied, but when I was close to failing, I got scared and stressed (because my father would have killed me) so I just made sure that I knew a few things so that I could barely pass my exams.
School was boring and doing it like that always worked for me.
What are your thoughts on that? Do you guys feel the same?
Regards,
Venkman
P.S.
-I lift weights almost every day just to stay healthy. 5 sets of one compound movement a day.
-I ride a stationary bycicle for around 5-6 km per day.
-I try to eat healthy, I only drink water, no coffee, but I still eat a bit too much sugar per day for my liking.
-I already saw a therapist because of the things above and I was able to confront my father about those things. It didn't help with my work ethic.
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