SturdySteel
Contributor
Time to get this off my chest.
I'm losing the will to live - don't worry I won't commit suicide, but it certainly seems extremely appealing looking at my situation right now. Firstly, my mental health has taken the equivalent of 9/11 (the attacks): I've got to deal with abusive parents who'll try to circumcise me against my will, yet again, this summer - but I shall resist with all I have got. On top of that, I have to worry about being disowned, kicked out onto the streets or some daft state care home where gangs roam freely and where safety is a luxury if my parents aren't too pleased with my opposition to their plans. Then, I must toss in countless hours of homework and exam revision for my second batch of school exams in December/January time, whilst keeping this fragile order/situation afloat long enough for me to bail out of the nest at age 18. Now, this seems bad enough, being an A* student means there's heaps of expectations and work placed upon me, only for me to return 'home' - I view it as a prison to be honest - to deal with a collapsing situation regarding 'family' or my parents - whenever I utter those words, disgust and anguish fill my stomach to the brink, I view the local librarian far more favourably than these 'parents' of mine. However, that's not the end of my seemingly torrential downpour of woes. My physical health has taken a brutal beating - I'm 14 as many of you know - and I'd rather like to get fit and actually consume good nutritional foods, issue is my 'parents' cook meagre carbohydrate filled foods like pasta, rice and lasagnes, which I have no choice but to consume or go to bed hungry, and they place a huge batch in the fridge and don't even cook anything else. I've tried cooking for myself as well, issue is, the ingredients are not present whatsoever, and my 'mother' would pile on useless bullsh*t about how "Great and nutritional my food is, I am the best cook!", so I don't have cash to buy the ingredients, and I certainly won't get any aid from my parents. Obviously, due to a shitty diet, my immune system has taken a toll, I've gotten 3 bad colds or viruses in the past 3 months alone - plus, I've felt my strength just sapped from me. I'm skinny and weak now, brittle compared to what I was a few years back, it truly is painful to see. Combine these 2 major issues, and with no solution to be readily implemented which I can think of, I am quickly losing hope and the will to live, I am turning into a ghost, or a dead man walking - and I've been shattered to the point where I cry in secret, alone, whenever I look at my situation. I envy those who have luxuries of having a loving family, good mental health and no cares or worries in the world - where they can freely focus on education alone. I need help, and I need it before something worse happens. I have no clue on what to do regarding my diet, and I certainly am preparing for Armageddon in relation to my 'parents' and my relationship with them. If you have any advice, and I mean anything - especially regarding dieting and any dishes or foods I should eat, please, please, please state it below, you shall have my eternal gratitude. Thank you, and see you soon...
I'm losing the will to live - don't worry I won't commit suicide, but it certainly seems extremely appealing looking at my situation right now. Firstly, my mental health has taken the equivalent of 9/11 (the attacks): I've got to deal with abusive parents who'll try to circumcise me against my will, yet again, this summer - but I shall resist with all I have got. On top of that, I have to worry about being disowned, kicked out onto the streets or some daft state care home where gangs roam freely and where safety is a luxury if my parents aren't too pleased with my opposition to their plans. Then, I must toss in countless hours of homework and exam revision for my second batch of school exams in December/January time, whilst keeping this fragile order/situation afloat long enough for me to bail out of the nest at age 18. Now, this seems bad enough, being an A* student means there's heaps of expectations and work placed upon me, only for me to return 'home' - I view it as a prison to be honest - to deal with a collapsing situation regarding 'family' or my parents - whenever I utter those words, disgust and anguish fill my stomach to the brink, I view the local librarian far more favourably than these 'parents' of mine. However, that's not the end of my seemingly torrential downpour of woes. My physical health has taken a brutal beating - I'm 14 as many of you know - and I'd rather like to get fit and actually consume good nutritional foods, issue is my 'parents' cook meagre carbohydrate filled foods like pasta, rice and lasagnes, which I have no choice but to consume or go to bed hungry, and they place a huge batch in the fridge and don't even cook anything else. I've tried cooking for myself as well, issue is, the ingredients are not present whatsoever, and my 'mother' would pile on useless bullsh*t about how "Great and nutritional my food is, I am the best cook!", so I don't have cash to buy the ingredients, and I certainly won't get any aid from my parents. Obviously, due to a shitty diet, my immune system has taken a toll, I've gotten 3 bad colds or viruses in the past 3 months alone - plus, I've felt my strength just sapped from me. I'm skinny and weak now, brittle compared to what I was a few years back, it truly is painful to see. Combine these 2 major issues, and with no solution to be readily implemented which I can think of, I am quickly losing hope and the will to live, I am turning into a ghost, or a dead man walking - and I've been shattered to the point where I cry in secret, alone, whenever I look at my situation. I envy those who have luxuries of having a loving family, good mental health and no cares or worries in the world - where they can freely focus on education alone. I need help, and I need it before something worse happens. I have no clue on what to do regarding my diet, and I certainly am preparing for Armageddon in relation to my 'parents' and my relationship with them. If you have any advice, and I mean anything - especially regarding dieting and any dishes or foods I should eat, please, please, please state it below, you shall have my eternal gratitude. Thank you, and see you soon...
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