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This is the most vulnerable I've ever been.
I started reading MJs books in May/June this year, and I haven't gone really far:
I stopped posting my weekly updates (MINDSET - EXECUTION - FEEDBACK - 30-year old entrepreneur kicking off their fastlane journey) because I realized it's action faking.
I get super angry at myself because I feel like a failure. I am not reliable, I am not doing what I promise and it annoys me so much.
On the other hand, I try to show up every day while taking care of my parents and also I accompanied my aunt in her last moments (which was tough but also a blessing) and her loss is not easy on me. I am still working as a consultant and trying to maintain my business by showing up for my clients, holding workshops, and growing my Linkedin.
I hate how much I pity myself and how much of my current situation I blame on me being the care-taker of my family but I feel like everytime I am on a good path in terms of my habits, routines, etc. either my external environment needs me (making me feel overwhelmed and lack energy) OR I get sick.
I had COVID twice this year - every time before a big networking event or a workshop we've been booked for. And this pattern scares me.
I recently looked into Breathwork/Somatic Therapy because I think my mind knows what's off but my body wants to keep me in the loop of the old way. And I think caring for others is so deeply tied into my identity that I feel so guilty when focusing on my own life and my goals.
I am so desperate, that's why I am reaching out to you in the forum. I do not want to be in this position anymore. I don't want to read another book. I don't want to make another plan. I want action and change.
Have you experienced a similar situation? How did you get out of it? What is one small action I can take every day to learn to trust myself again and allow myself to be successful? How can I change my limiting beliefs and make my body supporty my journey?
Thank you so much for taking the time to read this!
I started reading MJs books in May/June this year, and I haven't gone really far:
I stopped posting my weekly updates (MINDSET - EXECUTION - FEEDBACK - 30-year old entrepreneur kicking off their fastlane journey) because I realized it's action faking.
I get super angry at myself because I feel like a failure. I am not reliable, I am not doing what I promise and it annoys me so much.
On the other hand, I try to show up every day while taking care of my parents and also I accompanied my aunt in her last moments (which was tough but also a blessing) and her loss is not easy on me. I am still working as a consultant and trying to maintain my business by showing up for my clients, holding workshops, and growing my Linkedin.
I hate how much I pity myself and how much of my current situation I blame on me being the care-taker of my family but I feel like everytime I am on a good path in terms of my habits, routines, etc. either my external environment needs me (making me feel overwhelmed and lack energy) OR I get sick.
I had COVID twice this year - every time before a big networking event or a workshop we've been booked for. And this pattern scares me.
I recently looked into Breathwork/Somatic Therapy because I think my mind knows what's off but my body wants to keep me in the loop of the old way. And I think caring for others is so deeply tied into my identity that I feel so guilty when focusing on my own life and my goals.
I am so desperate, that's why I am reaching out to you in the forum. I do not want to be in this position anymore. I don't want to read another book. I don't want to make another plan. I want action and change.
Have you experienced a similar situation? How did you get out of it? What is one small action I can take every day to learn to trust myself again and allow myself to be successful? How can I change my limiting beliefs and make my body supporty my journey?
Thank you so much for taking the time to read this!
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