All the ideas, but no focus or plan.

[YttriumV]

Greetings, everyone!
First of all, I'm greatly excited to join this community, and I hope to be able to learn from this forum and provide to others.
Now, for my story.
I'm a soon to be 21 years old ChemEng student with a specialisation in Analytical chemistry from a second world country. After reading TMF , I have felt this fire to change my life for the better. I was able to recognise my worries, fluctuations and hatred I felt during exam periods or "depressive episodes" as a sign of fearing the mediocrity of a strictly scheduled work that would probably last until my old age. It disgusted me and I couldn't understand how others were fine with things
being this way. Despite having some minor success in research field and being praised as smart student, I became resentful towards chemistry.
Thinking on my plan to get out however, I got struck with usual question of "the hell do I do now?". From young age, I have had this passion story project, but was never able to get it past daydreaming or few notes here 'n there. I'm decent at drawing, but I'm stuck at few small commissions a year at most, not enough to live off that, and the growth of that account has been painfully slow. I have recently had this idea of making a videogame, but being a complete zero in coding, it would take a long while before I would be able to do put out anything into the world. I was even struck by some ideas related to chemistry, but still, I recognise that ideas on their own are worthless. Being cursed with shy personality and having institutions praise such personality until it stuck is other thing. Overall, I just feel like I have a ton of potential energy with no way of turning that into kinetic energy. I can't choose that one thing to pour all my energy into until I "make it".
I would appreciate any advice, and would like to thank you for your time.

 

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[Andy Black]

Greetings, everyone!
First of all, I'm greatly excited to join this community, and I hope to be able to learn from this forum and provide to others.
Now, for my story.
I'm a soon to be 21 years old ChemEng student with a specialisation in Analytical chemistry from a second world country. After reading TMF , I have felt this fire to change my life for the better. I was able to recognise my worries, fluctuations and hatred I felt during exam periods or "depressive episodes" as a sign of fearing the mediocrity of a strictly scheduled work that would probably last until my old age. It disgusted me and I couldn't understand how others were fine with things
being this way. Despite having some minor success in research field and being praised as smart student, I became resentful towards chemistry.
Thinking on my plan to get out however, I got struck with usual question of "the hell do I do now?". From young age, I have had this passion story project, but was never able to get it past daydreaming or few notes here 'n there. I'm decent at drawing, but I'm stuck at few small commissions a year at most, not enough to live off that, and the growth of that account has been painfully slow. I have recently had this idea of making a videogame, but being a complete zero in coding, it would take a long while before I would be able to do put out anything into the world. I was even struck by some ideas related to chemistry, but still, I recognise that ideas on their own are worthless. Being cursed with shy personality and having institutions praise such personality until it stuck is other thing. Overall, I just feel like I have a ton of potential energy with no way of turning that into kinetic energy. I can't choose that one thing to pour all my energy into until I "make it".
I would appreciate any advice, and would like to thank you for your time.

The giveaway for me was the word "ideas" in the thread headline.

Focus on people instead?

"Money is proof you helped your fellow man. " (MJ DeMarco)

Who will you help this week, either free or paid?

 

[YttriumV]

The giveaway for me was the word "ideas" in the thread headline.

Focus on people instead?

"Money is proof you helped your fellow man. " (MJ DeMarco)

Who will you help this week, either free or paid?

After reading your post and mine (again), I see that I still use a lot of self centered language and thought processes. Thank you for pointing that out. My mindset still hesitates to consider helping people even when I recognise the value of it.
After thinking on it, I figured I would like to provide people with entertainment via art. But in a modern world full of overstimulation is it even worth pursuing such route?

 

[Andy Black]

I would like to provide people with entertainment via art.

Can you start this week? See how you get on and take it from there?

 

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[YttriumV]

Can you start this week? See how you get on and take it from there?

While I've been posting artworks on social media for a while already, this conversation has made me realise that most of them were forcing *my* passions and wants on other people by rarely considering interests of wider public - hence low engagement rate and lack of interest. On this weekend (exam this friday, have to prioritize that first) I will make something - even a simple artwork - targeted exclusively at other people's interests, and see how I succeed at doing that.
My past successes at selling my artwork were because I managed to do what helped and was of interest to others, but I've forgotten that important part... until now, at least.