Why are there so many things in life that distract you from your end goal?
Why everytime i say i need some money from my slowlane job to put in my projects something happens and i have to wait?
Why is life made this way?Having lots of things that f....ing break all the time and need fixing?
Who decided that consumerism is the next best thing for people? it simply destroys you! F*ck!
i don't want to put my self on the sidewalk and i try a lot to avoid it. but whyyyyyyy?
i am really angry right now. with me first of all.
THE PROBLEM:
i have 200 euro in my pocket and i cannot invest them because i have to think that maybe my first car will need something new in the next service appointment.
my second car is a car that helps me moves beehives, an old 4x4 ,part of my fastlane project.
THE REASON I WRITE THIS HERE:
why is life this way? why? i have a 21 euro cellphone, no fancy things. i buy 4-5 cheap pieces of clothing per year, i have a goodpaying slowlane job. i m waiting for the heating expenses to start in a month(200 per month), i am waiting for the second daughter to arrive in this world.not going out. not doing any hobbies. no nothing. go to the job and go for a walk with the family. 800 euro in the bank as we speak.personal expenses 3-4 euro a day.
BUT I get really angry (maybe it is the way my parents grew me up) with other people having nicer things than me. i get jealous when i see the houses their parents built for them. i get frustrated when i see people throwing money away.recently i learned a friend of mine has 50000 euro in his bank account. it made me stop working and i told i was sick and left.
WHY IS THIS WORLD LIKE THIS?
ONE thing i have in mind is that this is my struggle. this is what i must endure to continue and to find wealth as defined by MJ . I will keep going! i will make it happen! I am not here for the fancy talk and then go hide in my corner.
THIS IS ME. maybe i will be described as a jealous mf. ok i am . i try to stop it but as stated above it is the way i grew up that made me like this.
also i really feel the need to make things better for my family and then i really really need to make the people that think i am a lesser person because of my cellphone or my clothes feel sorry for that.
i will become unreachable to them
first the struggle to start,then the continuous fighting for real success and when the numbers will be right i will become the unreachable one, the "lucky" one, the crazy one that has projects run by employees and not by himself...
i had some days to post and this came out of my mind..lots of thoughts...feel free to judge!feel free to like!
Why everytime i say i need some money from my slowlane job to put in my projects something happens and i have to wait?
Why is life made this way?Having lots of things that f....ing break all the time and need fixing?
Who decided that consumerism is the next best thing for people? it simply destroys you! F*ck!
i don't want to put my self on the sidewalk and i try a lot to avoid it. but whyyyyyyy?
i am really angry right now. with me first of all.
THE PROBLEM:
i have 200 euro in my pocket and i cannot invest them because i have to think that maybe my first car will need something new in the next service appointment.
my second car is a car that helps me moves beehives, an old 4x4 ,part of my fastlane project.
THE REASON I WRITE THIS HERE:
why is life this way? why? i have a 21 euro cellphone, no fancy things. i buy 4-5 cheap pieces of clothing per year, i have a goodpaying slowlane job. i m waiting for the heating expenses to start in a month(200 per month), i am waiting for the second daughter to arrive in this world.not going out. not doing any hobbies. no nothing. go to the job and go for a walk with the family. 800 euro in the bank as we speak.personal expenses 3-4 euro a day.
BUT I get really angry (maybe it is the way my parents grew me up) with other people having nicer things than me. i get jealous when i see the houses their parents built for them. i get frustrated when i see people throwing money away.recently i learned a friend of mine has 50000 euro in his bank account. it made me stop working and i told i was sick and left.
WHY IS THIS WORLD LIKE THIS?
ONE thing i have in mind is that this is my struggle. this is what i must endure to continue and to find wealth as defined by MJ . I will keep going! i will make it happen! I am not here for the fancy talk and then go hide in my corner.
THIS IS ME. maybe i will be described as a jealous mf. ok i am . i try to stop it but as stated above it is the way i grew up that made me like this.
also i really feel the need to make things better for my family and then i really really need to make the people that think i am a lesser person because of my cellphone or my clothes feel sorry for that.
i will become unreachable to them
first the struggle to start,then the continuous fighting for real success and when the numbers will be right i will become the unreachable one, the "lucky" one, the crazy one that has projects run by employees and not by himself...
i had some days to post and this came out of my mind..lots of thoughts...feel free to judge!feel free to like!
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