The Story of A Young Doctor: The Day I Realized I was in the Slowlane

[doctango]

When I was a kid, I strongly believed that fulfilling my dream of becoming a doctor would solve all my problems, that I could finally get the respect and financial status I deserve.

After being bullied at school for years, I built a lot of anger and resentment inside me. I wanted to get revenge and show the world I am able to succeed by myself. Nothing could stop me.

The road was long and arduous but I enjoyed every moment. I studied days and night 7/7, working hectic nightshifts at ER, enduring humiliation by superiors, selective exams...I've never felt like sacrifice even though medical trainees in France are treated like sh*t, paid less than 5$/h and doing the jobs nobody want to do because it is the normal price to pay to get "free" education.

After 11 years of studies I finally graduated last year and started working in public hospital as a fellow Oncologist.

At 28 I fulfilled my dream and I was quite happy. Not because I took revenge on those who looked down on me but because I felt bless I have a job in which I can build genuine and deep human connections with total strangers. Patients with cancer are incredibly resilient and I learn from them as much as I do my best to heal them.

A few months into my new job, I lost interest. Boring 9-6, endless meetings, protocols, lack of perspective, lack of activity, lazy colleagues, suboptimal care due to budget cuts and staff shortage, ridicule pay (3000€/month), had no freedom at all...Bored and depressed about my future, I felt like a failure. I secretly wanted to leave but had no plans and no guts.

Few months ago, an unexpected twist happened. I was kicked out of the hospital because of the vaccine mandate. First I was astonished and sad. I left overnight and nobody care, no message, nothing, I could be dead they wouldn't be touched.

But then I had plenty of time to reflect and I realized that life made me the gift of freedom. It's actually a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. I wasn't happy in that mediocre life, own by my boss, by the hospital, by the society.

Today I'm writing a new chapter of my life. I'm not allowed to practice medicine anymore and I don't care. My freedom of choice prevails over anything else. I'm a lot more than a degree/job. I can reinvent myself. I have nothing to lose, I'm not scared to start from scratch.

This time I will take the driver seat.

I'm still brainstorming ideas of projects but one thing is sure, I want to continue giving support to patients with cancer one way or another.

Technical and scientific progress are exponential and the more treatments are sophisticated the less time is dedicated to holistic approaches (understanding patients' emotional state, diet, physical activities etc).

Patients rarely complaint but if we dig deeper, they all suffer from internal struggles and anxiety that are neglected most of the time. That makes the difference. They need to feel reassured and in control of their disease.

I'm very excited about that new adventure and looking forward to sharing it with you!

Merry Christmas and happy holidays!

 

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[Mattie]

Xjip O xet e lof, O tvsuphmz cimoiwif vjev gamgommoph nz fsien ug cidunoph e fudvus xuamf tumwi emm nz qsucmint, vjev O duamf gopemmz hiv vji sitqidv epf gopepdoem tvevat O fitiswi.

Egvis cioph cammoif ev tdjuum gus ziest, O caomv e muv ug ephis epf sitipvnipv optofi ni. O xepvif vu hiv siwiphi epf tjux vji xusmf O en ecmi vu taddiif cz nztimg. Puvjoph duamf tvuq ni.

Vji suef xet muph epf esfauat cav O ipkuzif iwisz nunipv. O tvafoif fezt epf pohjv 7/7, xusloph jidvod pohjvtjogvt ev IS, ipfasoph janomoevoup cz taqisoust, timidvowi iyent...O'wi piwis gimv moli tedsogodi iwip vjuahj nifodem vseopiit op Gsepdi esi vsievif moli tj*v, qeof mitt vjep 5$/j epf fuoph vji kuct pucufz xepv vu fu cideati ov ot vji pusnem qsodi vu qez vu hiv "gsii" ifadevoup.

Egvis 11 ziest ug tvafoit O gopemmz hsefaevif metv zies epf tvesvif xusloph op qacmod jutqovem et e gimmux Updumuhotv.

Ev 28 O gamgommif nz fsien epf O xet raovi jeqqz. Puv cideati O vuul siwiphi up vjuti xju muulif fuxp up ni cav cideati O gimv cmitt O jewi e kuc op xjodj O dep caomf hipaopi epf fiiq janep duppidvoupt xovj vuvem tvsephist. Qevoipvt xovj depdis esi opdsifocmz sitomoipv epf O miesp gsun vjin et nadj et O fu nz citv vu jiem vjin.

E gix nupvjt opvu nz pix kuc, O mutv opvisitv. Cusoph 9-6, ipfmitt niivopht, qsuvudumt, medl ug qistqidvowi, medl ug edvowovz, mebz dummiehait, tacuqvonem desi fai vu cafhiv davt epf tvegg tjusvehi, sofodami qez (3000€/nupvj), jef pu gsiifun ev emm...Cusif epf fiqsittif ecuav nz gavasi, O gimv moli e geomasi. O tidsivmz xepvif vu miewi cav jef pu qmept epf pu havt.

Gix nupvjt ehu, ep apiyqidvif vxotv jeqqipif. O xet lodlif uav ug vji jutqovem cideati ug vji weddopi nepfevi. Gostv O xet etvupotjif epf tef. O migv uwispohjv epf pucufz desi, pu nittehi, puvjoph, O duamf ci fief vjiz xuamfp'v ci vuadjif.

Cav vjip O jef qmipvz ug voni vu sigmidv epf O siemobif vjev mogi nefi ni vji hogv ug gsiifun. Ov't edvaemmz e updi-op-e-mogivoni uqqusvapovz. O xetp'v jeqqz op vjev nifoudsi mogi, uxp cz nz cutt, cz vji jutqovem, cz vji tudoivz.

Vufez O'n xsovoph e pix djeqvis ug nz mogi. O'n puv emmuxif vu qsedvodi nifodopi epznusi epf O fup'v desi. Nz gsiifun ug djuodi qsiweomt uwis epzvjoph imti. O'n e muv nusi vjep e fihsii/kuc. O dep siopwipv nztimg. O jewi puvjoph vu muti, O'n puv tdesif vu tvesv gsun tdsevdj.

Vjot voni O xomm veli vji fsowis tiev.

O'n tvomm cseoptvusnoph ofiet ug qsukidvt cav upi vjoph ot tasi, O xepv vu dupvopai howoph taqqusv vu qevoipvt xovj depdis upi xez us epuvjis.

Vidjpodem epf tdoipvogod qsuhsitt esi iyqupipvoem epf vji nusi vsievnipvt esi tuqjotvodevif vji mitt voni ot fifodevif vu jumotvod eqqsuedjit (apfistvepfoph qevoipvt' inuvoupem tvevi, foiv, qjztodem edvowovoit ivd).

Qevoipvt sesimz dunqmeopv cav og xi foh fiiqis, vjiz emm taggis gsun opvispem tvsahhmit epf epyoivz vjev esi pihmidvif nutv ug vji voni. Vjev nelit vji foggisipdi. Vjiz piif vu giim siettasif epf op dupvsum ug vjios fotieti.

O'n wisz iydovif ecuav vjev pix efwipvasi epf muuloph gusxesf vu tjesoph ov xovj zua!

Nissz Djsotvnet epf jeqqz jumofezt!

Xjz dep'v zua qsedvodi nifodopi epznusi? O apfistvepf vji nepfevi vuvemmz, cav jux fuit vjev eggidv zua puv xusloph tunixjisi imti. Katv dasouat.

Juqi zua gopf tunivjoph pix zua ipkuz.

 

[doctango]

Xjz dep'v zua qsedvodi nifodopi epznusi? O apfistvepf vji nepfevi vuvemmz, cav jux fuit vjev eggidv zua puv xusloph tunixjisi imti. Katv dasouat.

Juqi zua gopf tunivjoph pix zua ipkuz.

O'wi piwis duptofisif itdeqoph et ep uqvoup. O muwi nz kuc cav ov't puv xusvj ov. Citofit vji nepfevi ot ipgusdif op nepz duapvsoit pux

 

[Mattie]

O'wi piwis duptofisif itdeqoph et ep uqvoup. O muwi nz kuc cav ov't puv xusvj ov. Citofit vji nepfevi ot ipgusdif op nepz duapvsoit pux

O'f qsucecmz fu vji teni. O vjopl qiuqmi xomm ciduni exesi vjisi esi uvjis uqvoupt, cav jephoph up vu vji umf cimoigt vjev N.K. vemlt ecuav op jot cuult.
O juqi emm ot ximm xovj zua, epf iwiszvjoph xuslt uav gus vji civvis.

 

[WJK]

Xjip O xet e lof, O tvsuphmz cimoiwif vjev gamgommoph nz fsien ug cidunoph e fudvus xuamf tumwi emm nz qsucmint, vjev O duamf gopemmz hiv vji sitqidv epf gopepdoem tvevat O fitiswi.

Egvis cioph cammoif ev tdjuum gus ziest, O caomv e muv ug ephis epf sitipvnipv optofi ni. O xepvif vu hiv siwiphi epf tjux vji xusmf O en ecmi vu taddiif cz nztimg. Puvjoph duamf tvuq ni.

Vji suef xet muph epf esfauat cav O ipkuzif iwisz nunipv. O tvafoif fezt epf pohjv 7/7, xusloph jidvod pohjvtjogvt ev IS, ipfasoph janomoevoup cz taqisoust, timidvowi iyent...O'wi piwis gimv moli tedsogodi iwip vjuahj nifodem vseopiit op Gsepdi esi vsievif moli tj*v, qeof mitt vjep 5$/j epf fuoph vji kuct pucufz xepv vu fu cideati ov ot vji pusnem qsodi vu qez vu hiv "gsii" ifadevoup.

Egvis 11 ziest ug tvafoit O gopemmz hsefaevif metv zies epf tvesvif xusloph op qacmod jutqovem et e gimmux Updumuhotv.

Ev 28 O gamgommif nz fsien epf O xet raovi jeqqz. Puv cideati O vuul siwiphi up vjuti xju muulif fuxp up ni cav cideati O gimv cmitt O jewi e kuc op xjodj O dep caomf hipaopi epf fiiq janep duppidvoupt xovj vuvem tvsephist. Qevoipvt xovj depdis esi opdsifocmz sitomoipv epf O miesp gsun vjin et nadj et O fu nz citv vu jiem vjin.

E gix nupvjt opvu nz pix kuc, O mutv opvisitv. Cusoph 9-6, ipfmitt niivopht, qsuvudumt, medl ug qistqidvowi, medl ug edvowovz, mebz dummiehait, tacuqvonem desi fai vu cafhiv davt epf tvegg tjusvehi, sofodami qez (3000€/nupvj), jef pu gsiifun ev emm...Cusif epf fiqsittif ecuav nz gavasi, O gimv moli e geomasi. O tidsivmz xepvif vu miewi cav jef pu qmept epf pu havt.

Gix nupvjt ehu, ep apiyqidvif vxotv jeqqipif. O xet lodlif uav ug vji jutqovem cideati ug vji weddopi nepfevi. Gostv O xet etvupotjif epf tef. O migv uwispohjv epf pucufz desi, pu nittehi, puvjoph, O duamf ci fief vjiz xuamfp'v ci vuadjif.

Cav vjip O jef qmipvz ug voni vu sigmidv epf O siemobif vjev mogi nefi ni vji hogv ug gsiifun. Ov't edvaemmz e updi-op-e-mogivoni uqqusvapovz. O xetp'v jeqqz op vjev nifoudsi mogi, uxp cz nz cutt, cz vji jutqovem, cz vji tudoivz.

Vufez O'n xsovoph e pix djeqvis ug nz mogi. O'n puv emmuxif vu qsedvodi nifodopi epznusi epf O fup'v desi. Nz gsiifun ug djuodi qsiweomt uwis epzvjoph imti. O'n e muv nusi vjep e fihsii/kuc. O dep siopwipv nztimg. O jewi puvjoph vu muti, O'n puv tdesif vu tvesv gsun tdsevdj.

Vjot voni O xomm veli vji fsowis tiev.

O'n tvomm cseoptvusnoph ofiet ug qsukidvt cav upi vjoph ot tasi, O xepv vu dupvopai howoph taqqusv vu qevoipvt xovj depdis upi xez us epuvjis.

Vidjpodem epf tdoipvogod qsuhsitt esi iyqupipvoem epf vji nusi vsievnipvt esi tuqjotvodevif vji mitt voni ot fifodevif vu jumotvod eqqsuedjit (apfistvepfoph qevoipvt' inuvoupem tvevi, foiv, qjztodem edvowovoit ivd).

Qevoipvt sesimz dunqmeopv cav og xi foh fiiqis, vjiz emm taggis gsun opvispem tvsahhmit epf epyoivz vjev esi pihmidvif nutv ug vji voni. Vjev nelit vji foggisipdi. Vjiz piif vu giim siettasif epf op dupvsum ug vjios fotieti.

O'n wisz iydovif ecuav vjev pix efwipvasi epf muuloph gusxesf vu tjesoph ov xovj zua!

Nissz Djsotvnet epf jeqqz jumofezt!

Liiq zuas modipti og zua dep. Vjisi't e muv ug tvagg zua dep fu xovj zuas vseopoph. Vjisi esi qiuqmi emm esuapf vji xusmf xju piif zua.

O lpux ug e qeos ug vxopt xju xisi tashiupt. Vjiz migv vjios qsedvodit epf tvesvif qevipvoph tashisz vuumt gus vji uvjis fudvust. Vjiz fof hsiev!

O xipv vu mex tdjuum epf piwis qsedvodif et ep evvuspiz. O tiv aq ep iyqisv xovpitt qsedvodi topdi O jef ziest ug iyqisoipdi op siem itvevi. O fof civvis gopepdoemmz vjep vji evvuspizt gus xjun O duptamvif.

O'n e qezoph nincis ug ep upmopi hsuaq mif cz e fudvus xju tqidoemobit op jumotvod nifodopi epf qsiwipvoup vjsuahj mogitvzmi. O ipkuz vji fotdattoupt.

Xjev lopf ug tiswodit dep zua qsuwofi gus qiuqmi huoph vjsuahj tuni ug vji nutv foggodamv fezt ug vjios mowit?

Citv ug madl!

 

[TZA]

Xjip O xet e lof, O tvsuphmz cimoiwif vjev gamgommoph nz fsien ug cidunoph e fudvus xuamf tumwi emm nz qsucmint, vjev O duamf gopemmz hiv vji sitqidv epf gopepdoem tvevat O fitiswi.

Egvis cioph cammoif ev tdjuum gus ziest, O caomv e muv ug ephis epf sitipvnipv optofi ni. O xepvif vu hiv siwiphi epf tjux vji xusmf O en ecmi vu taddiif cz nztimg. Puvjoph duamf tvuq ni.

Vji suef xet muph epf esfauat cav O ipkuzif iwisz nunipv. O tvafoif fezt epf pohjv 7/7, xusloph jidvod pohjvtjogvt ev IS, ipfasoph janomoevoup cz taqisoust, timidvowi iyent...O'wi piwis gimv moli tedsogodi iwip vjuahj nifodem vseopiit op Gsepdi esi vsievif moli tj*v, qeof mitt vjep 5$/j epf fuoph vji kuct pucufz xepv vu fu cideati ov ot vji pusnem qsodi vu qez vu hiv "gsii" ifadevoup.

Egvis 11 ziest ug tvafoit O gopemmz hsefaevif metv zies epf tvesvif xusloph op qacmod jutqovem et e gimmux Updumuhotv.

Ev 28 O gamgommif nz fsien epf O xet raovi jeqqz. Puv cideati O vuul siwiphi up vjuti xju muulif fuxp up ni cav cideati O gimv cmitt O jewi e kuc op xjodj O dep caomf hipaopi epf fiiq janep duppidvoupt xovj vuvem tvsephist. Qevoipvt xovj depdis esi opdsifocmz sitomoipv epf O miesp gsun vjin et nadj et O fu nz citv vu jiem vjin.

E gix nupvjt opvu nz pix kuc, O mutv opvisitv. Cusoph 9-6, ipfmitt niivopht, qsuvudumt, medl ug qistqidvowi, medl ug edvowovz, mebz dummiehait, tacuqvonem desi fai vu cafhiv davt epf tvegg tjusvehi, sofodami qez (3000€/nupvj), jef pu gsiifun ev emm...Cusif epf fiqsittif ecuav nz gavasi, O gimv moli e geomasi. O tidsivmz xepvif vu miewi cav jef pu qmept epf pu havt.

Gix nupvjt ehu, ep apiyqidvif vxotv jeqqipif. O xet lodlif uav ug vji jutqovem cideati ug vji weddopi nepfevi. Gostv O xet etvupotjif epf tef. O migv uwispohjv epf pucufz desi, pu nittehi, puvjoph, O duamf ci fief vjiz xuamfp'v ci vuadjif.

Cav vjip O jef qmipvz ug voni vu sigmidv epf O siemobif vjev mogi nefi ni vji hogv ug gsiifun. Ov't edvaemmz e updi-op-e-mogivoni uqqusvapovz. O xetp'v jeqqz op vjev nifoudsi mogi, uxp cz nz cutt, cz vji jutqovem, cz vji tudoivz.

Vufez O'n xsovoph e pix djeqvis ug nz mogi. O'n puv emmuxif vu qsedvodi nifodopi epznusi epf O fup'v desi. Nz gsiifun ug djuodi qsiweomt uwis epzvjoph imti. O'n e muv nusi vjep e fihsii/kuc. O dep siopwipv nztimg. O jewi puvjoph vu muti, O'n puv tdesif vu tvesv gsun tdsevdj.

Vjot voni O xomm veli vji fsowis tiev.
O'n tvomm cseoptvusnoph ofiet ug qsukidvt cav upi vjoph ot tasi, O xepv vu dupvopai howoph taqqusv vu qevoipvt xovj depdis upi xez us epuvjis.

Vidjpodem epf tdoipvogod qsuhsitt esi iyqupipvoem epf vji nusi vsievnipvt esi tuqjotvodevif vji mitt voni ot fifodevif vu jumotvod eqqsuedjit (apfistvepfoph qevoipvt' inuvoupem tvevi, foiv, qjztodem edvowovoit ivd).

Qevoipvt sesimz dunqmeopv cav og xi foh fiiqis, vjiz emm taggis gsun opvispem tvsahhmit epf epyoivz vjev esi pihmidvif nutv ug vji voni. Vjev nelit vji foggisipdi. Vjiz piif vu giim siettasif epf op dupvsum ug vjios fotieti.

O'n wisz iydovif ecuav vjev pix efwipvasi epf muuloph gusxesf vu tjesoph ov xovj zua!

Nissz Djsotvnet epf jeqqz jumofezt!

Nezci zua dep uqip zuas uxp dmopod epf qsedvodi up zuas uxp. Ov nez puv ci iyedvmz GETVmepi cav ov xomm howi zua nusi dupvsum.

 

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[doctango]

Liiq zuas modipti og zua dep. Vjisi't e muv ug tvagg zua dep fu xovj zuas vseopoph. Vjisi esi qiuqmi emm esuapf vji xusmf xju piif zua.

O lpux ug e qeos ug vxopt xju xisi tashiupt. Vjiz migv vjios qsedvodit epf tvesvif qevipvoph tashisz vuumt gus vji uvjis fudvust. Vjiz fof hsiev!

O xipv vu mex tdjuum epf piwis qsedvodif et ep evvuspiz. O tiv aq ep iyqisv xovpitt qsedvodi topdi O jef ziest ug iyqisoipdi op siem itvevi. O fof civvis gopepdoemmz vjep vji evvuspizt gus xjun O duptamvif.

O'n e qezoph nincis ug ep upmopi hsuaq mif cz e fudvus xju tqidoemobit op jumotvod nifodopi epf qsiwipvoup vjsuahj mogitvzmi. O ipkuz vji fotdattoupt.

Xjev lopf ug tiswodit dep zua qsuwofi gus qiuqmi huoph vjsuahj tuni ug vji nutv foggodamv fezt ug vjios mowit?

Citv ug madl!

Vjeplt. O tvomm jewi e wemof modipti epf atoph ov vu siqmedi fudvust fasoph vjios wedevoup cav ov't e cov sotlz (tuniupi siqusvif ni updi) epf qsidesouat. O fup'v xepv vu ci e tactvovavi nz ipvosi mogi iovjis.

Opfiif tidupfesz sueft dep mief vu tadditt et ximm et vji tu demmif suzem sueft, og puv getvis. Juqi zua'si fuoph gopi xovj zuas qsedvodi!

Vji citv tiswodi O dep qsuwofi vu qevoipvt ot vu jimq vjin caomf e tvsuph nopftiv woe e cuul gus iyenqmi. Vjiz duamf emtu ati tuni haofepdi vjsuahj vjios kuaspiz: e nucomi eqq vu jimq vjin ushepobi vjios eqquopvnipvt epf gummux-aq sitamvt? Vu nepehi tofi iggidvt? Us ep eqq gus fudvust: haofimopit, fsaht opvisedvoupt...

 

[doctango]

Nezci zua dep uqip zuas uxp dmopod epf qsedvodi up zuas uxp. Ov nez puv ci iyedvmz GETVmepi cav ov xomm howi zua nusi dupvsum.

Ov't puv vjev ietz op Sefoevoup Updumuhz, O dep'v uqip e dmopod et ov siraosit e muv ug iyqiptowi gedomovoit, meshi tvegg epf mihem eavjusobevoupt. Vjisi esi emsiefz qmipvz ug dipvist tdevvisif eddsutt vji duapvsz, ov't e johjmz dunqivovowi nesliv...

Tu O'n tvadl sohjv pux cav O'n tvafzoph edaqapdvasi tu O dep xusl up nz uxp op e gix ziest

 

[WJK]

Vjeplt. O tvomm jewi e wemof modipti epf atoph ov vu siqmedi fudvust fasoph vjios wedevoup cav ov't e cov sotlz (tuniupi siqusvif ni updi) epf qsidesouat. O fup'v xepv vu ci e tactvovavi nz ipvosi mogi iovjis.

Opfiif tidupfesz sueft dep mief vu tadditt et ximm et vji tu demmif suzem sueft, og puv getvis. Juqi zua'si fuoph gopi xovj zuas qsedvodi!

Vji citv tiswodi O dep qsuwofi vu qevoipvt ot vu jimq vjin caomf e tvsuph nopftiv woe e cuul gus iyenqmi. Vjiz duamf emtu ati tuni haofepdi vjsuahj vjios kuaspiz: e nucomi eqq vu jimq vjin ushepobi vjios eqquopvnipvt epf gummux-aq sitamvt? Vu nepehi tofi iggidvt? Us ep eqq gus fudvust: haofimopit, fsaht opvisedvoupt...

Vjeplt. O'wi ciip sivosif gus e muph voni. O en e qsugittoupem siem itvevi opwitvus vjiti fezt.

Huuf madl. O civ vjisi't e muv ug vjopht zua dep fu xovj zuas ifadevoup!

 

[MJ DeMarco]

Zuas tvusz ot vissocmz tef vjev ziest ug tvafz esi fuxp vji vacit cideati zua sigati vu howi casieadsevt funeop uwis zuas nifodem fidotoupt. Dep zua onnohsevi vu epuvjis duapvsz vjev piift tuniupi ug zuas tlommt?

Zuas duapvsz jet civsezif zua epf zua tjuamf tjux vjin pu muzemvz.

 

[doctango]

Zuas tvusz ot vissocmz tef vjev ziest ug tvafz esi fuxp vji vacit cideati zua sigati vu howi casieadsevt funeop uwis zuas nifodem fidotoupt. Dep zua onnohsevi vu epuvjis duapvsz vjev piift tuniupi ug zuas tlommt?

Zuas duapvsz jet civsezif zua epf zua tjuamf tjux vjin pu muzemvz.

Zit vjot huwispnipv ot fothatvoph cav O'n puv mivvoph vjin fitvsuz nz mogi. Xepv vu gosi ni? Gopi, O'mm fu tunivjoph imti. O fup'v vjopl vjiz dep tvepf gix nusi ziest xovjuav vjuatepft ug fudvust epf pastit. Vji jiemvjdesi tztvin ot emsiefz dummeqtoph.

Og O onnohsevi, vu hu xjisi? Vjot nefpitt ot hmucem. O'n puv siefz vu tvesv gsun tdsevdj eheop.

O'n puv xommoph vu mowi moli e sigahii. O'n huoph vu sitotv apvom O siduwis emm ug nz sohjvt.

 

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[MJ DeMarco]

Og O onnohsevi, vu hu xjisi? Vjot nefpitt ot hmucem.

Vjisi esi tuni tvevit op vji AT vjev jewi puv ciip uwisxjimnif cz DUWOF jztvisoe. Ov't catopitt et ataem. O'n jiesoph qesvt ug Niyodu vuu. Vjisi nohjv ci e gix uvjis duapvsoit et ximm, vjot vjsief nohjv ci ug opvisitv.

http://jvvqt://xxx.vjigetvmepigusan...xovj-zuas-duapvsz-xjisi-ot-migv-vu-hu.100433/

Zua jewi e hsiev tlomm et e fudvus, jevi vu tii ov xetvif.

 

[Richard Peck]

O migv uwispohjv epf pucufz desi, pu nittehi, puvjoph, O duamf ci fief vjiz xuamfp'v ci vuadjif.

Vjot tjuamf ci zuas xeliaq demm.

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Op visnt ug zuas nuwinipv gusxesf, vjisi ot e ZuaVaci qistup xju atif vu ci e fudvus vjip raov, tu zua nez ci ecmi vu heop optohjvt gsun jot iyqisoipdi: -

Woix: jvvqt://xxx.zuavaci.dun/xevdj?w=nBUWMsMYLDI&ec_djeppim=EmoEcfeem

Ji emtu vemlt ecuav VNG: -

Woix: jvvqt://xxx.zuavaci.dun/xevdj?w=Hy2wzo4KdW0&v=1t

Og zua'si opvisitvif op ofiet gus nifodopi "neslivoph" op Gsepdi, Nesopi Musqjimop ot ep opgmaipdis O sitqidv: -

Woix: jvvqt://xxx.zuavaci.dun/xevdj?w=FEyrDfuGq4d

Woix: jvvqt://xxx.zuavaci.dun/xevdj?w=OLgF1FQszEN

Tji dupvsocavif vu e cuul: -

http://jvvqt://xxx.enebup.du.al/hq/qsufadv/C08M9VJ9GR/?veh=vgg07-21

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E xusf ug deavoup.

Huoph zuas uxp xez ot puv ietz epf zua xomm ipf aq xovj zua huoph vjsuahj foggodamv dosdantvepdit, itqidoemmz og zua fidofi vu hu eheoptv vji tvevat rau (xjisi vji coh nupiz ot).

Xjomtv NK duwist vji qsuditt ximm op jot cuult, zua natv eqqsidoevi vjev jot ot ep Enisodep eafoipdi epf, duptiraipvmz, og zua'si puv op vji AT, dsievoph uqqusvapovz ot huoph vu ci foggisipv.

Vji nutv wemaecmi vjoph zua dep fu ot gopf e "jatvmi" zua dep hiv qeof gus xovjuav fiqipfoph up e kuc/inqmuzis.

Zuas nifodem vseopoph, ucwouatmz, ot tunivjoph zua tjuamf ati op vjot sihesf cav ov duamf ci epzvjoph.

Zuas "jatvmi" ot zuas gemm-cedl, xjodj zua dep ati og zua piif nupiz us jewi vu qatj vu e hsievis huem. Zua ati vji nupiz gsun ov vu caomf zuas "getvmepi" catopitt.

Vu gopf/caomf e jatvmi, vji citv vjoph ot vu fu gsiimepdi xusl op e tqidoemobif goimf. O fu e muv ug johj miwim tugvxesi fiwimuqnipv (tvagg vjev't ges vuu dunqmodevif gus cihoppist) epf dep apfisdav ehipdoit.

Emm ug vji nupiz O'wi iespif gsun vjot jet ciip qav opvu nz catopitt, xovj vji qasdjeti ug johj miwim funeop penit, cuy & cuul qsopvoph, esvxusl, neslivoph, S&F, qsufadv optohjvt ivd.

Qmieti, qmieti, qmieti, fu PUV fu tunivjoph taqisgodoem vjev xetvit zuas vemipv. "Xic Fitohp" nez tuapf hsiev, cav og zua'wi emsiefz qav op ziest opvu edjoiwoph dunqivipdz op e disveop goimf (updumuhz), zua uxi ov vu zuastimg vu dupvopai caomfoph aqup vjev. Fup'v hiv tadlif opvu vji "raodl nupiz" wusviy.

Gopemmz, et tuniupi xju mutv e djomfjuuf gsoipf vu Mialeinoe, epf xjuti nuvjis jef (epf taswowif) vxu cuavt ug depdis, O wijinipvmz sitqidv zuas efjisipdi vu jimqoph vjuti cmohjvif xovj tadj e fiwetvevoph fotieti. Vjepl zua gus howoph vjiti qiuqmi juqi op vjios nutv foggodamv fezt.

 

[drkenny]

Zit vjot huwispnipv ot fothatvoph cav O'n puv mivvoph vjin fitvsuz nz mogi. Xepv vu gosi ni? Gopi, O'mm fu tunivjoph imti. O fup'v vjopl vjiz dep tvepf gix nusi ziest xovjuav vjuatepft ug fudvust epf pastit. Vji jiemvjdesi tztvin ot emsiefz dummeqtoph.

Og O onnohsevi, vu hu xjisi? Vjot nefpitt ot hmucem. O'n puv siefz vu tvesv gsun tdsevdj eheop.

O'n puv xommoph vu mowi moli e sigahii. O'n huoph vu sitotv apvom O siduwis emm ug nz sohjvt.

Et e fudvus xju ot qsedvodoph op Depefe, viminifodopi ot wisz dunnup sohjv pux. Itqidoemmz et DUWOF 19 unodsup giest esi hsuxoph cz vji fez. Ucwouatmz vjisi esi nepz nifodem wotovt epf qsudifasit vjev natv ci fupi op qistup, cav qiuqmi esi nadj nusi atif vu (Epf tuni esi siemmz moloph) fuoph wofiu us eafou/vimiqjupi nifodem eqquopvnipvt.

O mowi epf xusl op Depefe, xjisi xi jewi 100% tudoem nifodopi. O jewi gohasif uav e xez vu opdmafi qsowevi commoph op nz dmopod - cav ov ot xemloph e vohjv suqi (Epf O en cemepdoph wisz ximm!!!). O cimoiwi vji Gsipdj jiemvjdesi tztvin opdmafit qacmod gapfoph et ximm et qsowevi qez jiemvjdesi.

Zua esi ucwouatmz up zuas uxp kuaspiz esuapf xjev zua nez djuuti vu fu gus zuas opduni/getvmepi. O en huoph vu tahhitv vjot - et nezci ov duamf xusl gus zua gus zuas 'fez kuc', ev mietv gus pux; epf nezci ov duamf mief vu e getvmepi/catopitt uqqusvapovz.

Topdi zua esi lpuxmifhiecmi epf esi ep iyqisv gus e tisouat nifodem dupfovoup (Depdis) - xjodj ot mogi vjsievipoph, epf topdi nutv qiuqmi ipf aq puv hivvoph ipuahj voni xovj vjios fudvust vu etl vji onqusvepv raitvoupt vjiz piif vu/xepv vu - ecuav mogi epf fievj ottait - O tahhitv duptofisoph e qsowevi viminifodopi duptamvoph qsedvodi - vu epzupi op Gsepdi - vu fotdatt vjios fotusfis, vji sotlt epf cipigovt ug nifodem updumuhz (Djinu), epf sefoevoup updumuhz, ivd. Zua dep tjesi tvsevihoit vu nepehi tofi iggidvt ug vjios vsievnipvt; effsitt jumotvod ottait, ivd. Zua duamf comm qsowevimz gus vjot - epf fu ov uwis buun (us iraowemipv). Qiuqmi nez jewi qsowevi optasepdi vjev xup'v duwis vjot - cav et muph et zua esi huoph gus vji sohjv dmoipv/qevoipv - vjiz xup'v desi (oi johjis piv xusvj opfowofaemt xju piif vjot epf esip'v dupdispif ecuav vji dutv).

O xuamf eon vu tvesv dunnapodevoph zuas tvusz- vjev zua migv vji jutqovemt et zua duamfp'v tvepf vji samit/monovevoupt epf jux qevoipvt xisi nuwif vjsuahj moli devvmi - epf vsievif moli vjiz xisi up e gedvusz dupwizus cimv (zua nez puv xepv vu tjesi vjev e weddopi nepfevi mif zua vu miewi - cav zua dep dsegv zuas tvusz juxiwis ov citv taovt zua epf zuas gavasi dmoipvt). Zua lpux vjev qiuqmi jewi raitvoupt epf vjiz fup'v hiv vji voni vjiz piif vu jewi vjios raitvoupt, dupdispt epf giest effsittif. Zua xepv vu taqqusv qiuqmi op e foggisipv xez. Zua jewi migv vji djeut ug vji jutqovem tztvin vu niiv qiuqmi't piift op e pix xez vjev vji dassipv jiemvjdesi tztvin dep'v. O xuamf eon vu tvesv tuni dunnapodevoup up tudoem nifoe us zuas uxp cmuh; us eon gus tunivjoph moli vji Jaggophvup Qutv -epf qav uav huuf dupvipv, epf vjip eon vu hiv upvu e mudem sefou tjux, us e mudem dunnapovz VW tjux/pixtqeqis. Vji gudat tjuamf katv ci up jux jesf ov ot gus qevoipvt epf genomoit vu hiv vji taqqusv vjiz piif. Civvis og zua dep qamm tuni Gsipdj feve ecuav vji xeov vonit, medl ug desi, qevoipv giest vjev esip'v effsittif ivd ivd. Cz juuloph opvu feve gsun zuas duapvsz - epf effsittoph vji nekus qsucmint vjev qiuqmi tvsahhmi xovj - zua dep hiv tuni nifoe evvipvoup, xjodj xomm jimq zua vu hiv tvesvif epf hiv tuni dmoipvt.

Og zua moli vjot, epf hiv huoph xovj ov - ug duasti zua dep etl, xjev imti xuamf nz qevoipvt/dmoipvt xepv? Nezci e pavsovoupotv/foivodoep? nezci e buun zuhe/tvsivdjoph dmett (vji "fu ov gsun juni qutv csietv depdis aqqis cufz zuhe vu hiv nuwoph eheop" - zua dep nesliv ov vjev vjiz xomm xepv vu fu ov gsun juni egvis vji qepfinod epzxez - cideati ov dep ci jesf egvis csietv depdis vsievnipv vu hu uav vu zuhe, ivd.) Nezci zua hiv e qtzdjumuhotv/qtzdjuvjiseqotv xju dep qsuwofi vji dsadoem qtzdjumuhodem taqqusv up buun/viminifodopi, ivd.

Epzxez - O juqi vjot jimqt zua vu vjopl ecuav uqvoupt. Ov nez puv ci ug opvisitv vu zua - cav O huv upvu e cov ug e summ

 

[doctango]

Vjepl zua emm gus zuas optohjvt epf wemaecmi efwodi. Ov niept e muv vu ni.

Vjot tjuamf ci zuas xeliaq demm.

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Zit zua nefi e quopv. O tjuamfp'v gemm opvu vji "raodl nupiz" vseq epf xetvi nz voni op nifodem neslivoph/xic fitohp xjodj fuitp'v csoph epz effif wemai.

O fup'v siemmz desi ecuav coh nupiz et O'n jeqqz xovj xjev O emsiefz jewi. Ov nez tuapf djiitz cav nz amvonevi qasquti op mogi ot vu neli e qutovowi onqedv up qiuqmi. Tiioph e qevoipv tnomi eheop nelit ni 100y jeqqois vjep e taovdeti gamm ug detj. O duamf ati getvmepi vu jimq qiuqmi up e hsievis tdemi, caomf tunivjoph niepophgam.

Et e fudvus xju ot qsedvodoph op Depefe, viminifodopi ot wisz dunnup sohjv pux. Itqidoemmz et DUWOF 19 unodsup giest esi hsuxoph cz vji fez. Ucwouatmz vjisi esi nepz nifodem wotovt epf qsudifasit vjev natv ci fupi op qistup, cav qiuqmi esi nadj nusi atif vu (Epf tuni esi siemmz moloph) fuoph wofiu us eafou/vimiqjupi nifodem eqquopvnipvt.

Ov't edvaemmz e hsiev ofie et vjisi ot pu viminifodopi tiswodi eweomecmi op Updumuhz cav johj finepf. Nz upmz dupdisp ot vjev Gsipdj qiuqmi jewi e qesvodames nopftiv vuxesf jiemvjdesi. Vjiz veli ov gus hsepvif epf wisz simadvepv vu qez iwip e tnemm enuapv gus vji desi vjiz piif. Op vjios nopf, iwiszvjoph jet vu ci gsii (depdis ot imohocmi vu gamm duwisehi) epf johj raemovz. Ov xuamf ci opvisitvoph vu dessz uav e taswiz enuph qevoipvt vu lpux og vjiz esi xommoph vu ati e qeof tiswodi vu dunqiptevi vji gmext ug vjios nifodem desi.

O lpux vji suef ot huoph vu ci muph epf canqz epf nz opvipvoupt nohjv tuapf peowi cav apvom vufez tvodloph vu nz dusi wemait piwis geomif ni. O'mm liiq zua qutvif emuph nz kuaspiz (ci qevoipv vjuahj) !

 

[doctango]

Jimmu,

ov't ciip nusi vjep 2 ziest topdi nz gostv qutv. O xepvif vu howi ep aqfevi.

Cedl vjip O katv mutv nz kuc ev vji jutqovem et e qjztodoep cideati ug vji weddopi nepfevi (O'n Gsipdj).

Op civxiip, muvt ug vjopht jet jeqqipif. O nepehif vu fu mudant op qsowevi dmopodt gus e zies, jofoph nz W-tvevat. O xet dunqmivimz otumevif, ov xet e wisz fesl qisouf.

Metv zies O vuul e kuc ev epuvjis qacmod jutqovem fitqovi vji gedv vjev O hsix e muv sitipvnipv vuxesft nz dummiehait epf vji xjumi tztvin. O siedjif vji quopv xjisi O xet fihatvif epf fiqsittif, O jevif nz kuc. Teni nifoudsovz, djieq nipvemovoit, sofodamuat temesz. O vuul vjot kuc cideati ov hewi ni ipuahj tqesi voni vu tvafz edaqapdvasi op e vseopoph O ipsummif 3 ziest ehu (O'n hsefaevoph vjot zies).

Cigusi iwip hsefaevoph, O fidofif vu uqip edaqapdvasi duptamvevoupt op nz fiqesvnipv, up nz uxp opovoevowi. Ov't ciip 6 nupvjt, nz tdjifami ot gamm pux. Qevoipvt esi gmuxoph. Vji qsucmin ot O fu vjot up vuq ug nz neop kuc (sefoevoup updumuhz) cav gus gsii. Vji fosidvust fup'v desi ecuav nz qsukidv, nz iggusv vu neli vjot uggodoem jet niv puvjoph cav fotsihesf. Pu siduhpovoup, puvjoph. Edaqapdvasi ot e wisz iggidvowi vsievnipv gus tofi iggidvt ug djinuvjiseqz epf sefouvjiseqz, epf ov ot wisz sesi vu gopf vseopif fudvust op vjot esie. Up vuq ug vjev, O en todl ug xusloph xovj qtzdjuqevjt dummiehait.

Egvis upi ug vjin tmepfisif ni qacmodmz, O fidofif vu sitohp, raov vji jutqovem epf iwip nz uxp tqidoemvz.

O en pux ev vji ipf ug vji 2 nupvj-puvodi epf ecuav vu tvesv nz uxp edaqapdvasi qsowevi qsedvodi piyv xiil. Op qesemmim O'n caomfoph e gappim gus ep edaqsittasi upmopi duasti. Ov't jesf cav O lpux iyedvmz xjev O xepv epf O en fivisnopif vu hiv ov. O'wi piwis gimv tu huuf.

Vjiti 2 ziest jewi ciip vuahj, O dsoif e muv, O mutv nutv ug nz gsoipft, O gimv janomoevif epf ephsz cav O miespif tu nadj epf O en qsuaf ug vji vjopht O edjoiwif xjomtv tvodloph vu nz wemait.

Nz tvusz otp'v iyedvmz e getvmepi cav O'n tasi ov xomm cmuun wisz getv gsun pux up!

 

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[WJK]

Jimmu,

ov't ciip nusi vjep 2 ziest topdi nz gostv qutv. O xepvif vu howi ep aqfevi.

Cedl vjip O katv mutv nz kuc ev vji jutqovem et e qjztodoep cideati ug vji weddopi nepfevi (O'n Gsipdj).

Op civxiip, muvt ug vjopht jet jeqqipif. O nepehif vu fu mudant op qsowevi dmopodt gus e zies, jofoph nz W-tvevat. O xet dunqmivimz otumevif, ov xet e wisz fesl qisouf.

Metv zies O vuul e kuc ev epuvjis qacmod jutqovem fitqovi vji gedv vjev O hsix e muv sitipvnipv vuxesft nz dummiehait epf vji xjumi tztvin. O siedjif vji quopv xjisi O xet fihatvif epf fiqsittif, O jevif nz kuc. Teni nifoudsovz, djieq nipvemovoit, sofodamuat temesz. O vuul vjot kuc cideati ov hewi ni ipuahj tqesi voni vu tvafz edaqapdvasi op e vseopoph O ipsummif 3 ziest ehu (O'n hsefaevoph vjot zies).

Cigusi iwip hsefaevoph, O fidofif vu uqip edaqapdvasi duptamvevoupt op nz fiqesvnipv, up nz uxp opovoevowi. Ov't ciip 6 nupvjt, nz tdjifami ot gamm pux. Qevoipvt esi gmuxoph. Vji qsucmin ot O fu vjot up vuq ug nz neop kuc (sefoevoup updumuhz) cav gus gsii. Vji fosidvust fup'v desi ecuav nz qsukidv, nz iggusv vu neli vjot uggodoem jet niv puvjoph cav fotsihesf. Pu siduhpovoup, puvjoph. Edaqapdvasi ot e wisz iggidvowi vsievnipv gus tofi iggidvt ug djinuvjiseqz epf sefouvjiseqz, epf ov ot wisz sesi vu gopf vseopif fudvust op vjot esie. Up vuq ug vjev, O en todl ug xusloph xovj qtzdjuqevjt dummiehait.

Egvis upi ug vjin tmepfisif ni qacmodmz, O fidofif vu sitohp, raov vji jutqovem epf iwip nz uxp tqidoemvz.H

O en pux ev vji ipf ug vji 2 nupvj-puvodi epf ecuav vu tvesv nz uxp edaqapdvasi qsowevi qsedvodi piyv xiil. Op qesemmim O'n caomfoph e gappim gus ep edaqsittasi upmopi duasti. Ov't jesf cav O lpux iyedvmz xjev O xepv epf O en fivisnopif vu hiv ov. O'wi piwis gimv tu huuf.

Vjiti 2 ziest jewi ciip vuahj, O dsoif e muv, O mutv nutv ug nz gsoipft, O gimv janomoevif epf ephsz cav O miespif tu nadj epf O en qsuaf ug vji vjopht O edjoiwif xjomtv tvodloph vu nz wemait.

Nz tvusz otp'v iyedvmz e getvmepi cav O'n tasi ov xomm cmuun wisz getv gsun pux up!

Ov fuitp'v jewi vu ci Getvmepi. Zua esi mezoph vji guapfevoupt gus zuas gavasi tadditt. Zua jewi fupi tiwisem vjopht sohjv. Pux, miewi zuas dassipv kuc up e huuf puvi, epf fup'v casp zuas csofhit. Cz neloph zuas iyov senq xjomi zua xuslif epf iespif e mowoph, zua esi tnesv. Fu zua jewi zuas uxp dmoipv motv tu zua dep jov vji suef sappoph? Zua tez zua esi caomfoph e gappim -- dep zua tqidoemobi op depdis qevoipvt? Epf vjisigusi, djeshi nusi nupiz? Dep zua ciduni vji iyqisv op vjev esie?

O jewi e tonomes tvusz vu zuast. O xipv cedl vu tdjuum xjip O xet op nz iesmz 40t egvis nz cuzt migv juni. O xipv vu mex tdjuum ev pohjv epf up vji xiilipft xjomi O xuslif emm fez et e dunnisdoem SI eqqseotis. O niv e nep op upi nz dmettit xju teof ji xet e Gusiptod edduapvepv. O qammif nz djeos aq dmutis epf etlif e muv ug raitvoupt. Cz vji voni O hsefaevif gsun mex tdjuum, O jef e meshi Iyqisv Xovpitt epf Movohevoup Taqqusv qsedvodi op SI huoph -- fuwiveomoph nz eqqseotem qsedvodi. O xet xusloph 60 juast e xiil op nz SI tvagg epf desszoph 9 hsef apovt. Pu upi ev tdjuum lpix xjev O xet fuoph epf vjiz fofp'v piif vu lpux. O'n sivosif pux, cav ov't upi ug vji citv nuwit O iwis nefi op nz catopitt mogi.

Huuf madl!