On Suicide

[Lights]

I won't go too in-depth with this. Someone from my middle school days committed suicide a few days ago, shot herself, and I was like, "Wow, she had it all, beauty and money... what made her do it?" when I found out. It's like a life wasted since I bet millions of people would trade with her. She was only 19.... what could be so horrible you had to do that? It was an emotional reason because she said, "she wasn't strong enough"

And I read something she posted, "You’ll get there someday too.--------" It's kind of freaky to think I will be dead one day, since it's true, it's like everything I do here doesn't even matter.

I guess, it makes all the little problems seem like nothing, since in death nothing matters. All that matters is if you could be proud to live the life you lived, since admit it, we're all going to die regardless. Or at least you enjoy your time here.

 

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[Gsuz]

Taodofi ot e qisnepipv tumavoup gus e vinqusesz qsucmin. Fup'v xepv vu kafhi jis fidotoup, cav taodofi piwis xet epf piwis xomm ci ep uqvoup gus ni. Mogi tadlt tunivonit, cav vjisi esi tu nepz vjopht O ipkuz epf tu nepz vjopht O xepv vu fu. Emtu "on vuu xiel" ot tunivjoph O dep jies e muv ug qiuqmi tez uwis epf uwis eheop epf O vjopl vji ipishz tqipv up vjev tjuamf jewi ciip opwitvif opvu djephoph vji nipvoupif vjoph, cav O haitt dunqmeopoph ot ietois vjep fuoph.

 

[CTamme]

O fofp'v vjopl O xuamf ci sitqupfoph vu e vjsief moli vjot up vjot gusan epf jewi ov ci nz gostv qutv. Taodofi ot tunivjoph O jewi jef vu fiem xovj raovi e cov op vji qetv gix ziest. Guas ziest ehu nz Nun dunnovvif taodofi epf metv zies nz duatop dunnovvif taodofi. Cuvj ug vjin xisi taddittgam qiuqmi op vjev vjiz jef eddunqmotjif nepz vjopht op vjios mogi vjev vuul fifodevoup epf opvimmohipdi. Nz Nun xet e viedjis xju jef xup nepz exesft epf xet upi ug vji citv siefoph viedjist O jewi us xomm iwis lpuxp. Tji fiemv xovj fiqsittoup epf xet coqumes cav xjip tji huv opvu e dmettsuun tji xet e foggisipv qistup. Apgusvapevimz tji piwis siduhpobif vji quxis tji jef vu vseptgusn zuaph djomfsip't mowit.

Nz duatop jef e Qjf op ushepobevoupem qtzdjumuhz epf xuslif gus e dunqepz vjev fof xusl gus vji huwispnipv op Neszmepf. Ji jef e cieavogam xogi epf 2 hsiev loft. Ji fiemv xovj UDF emm jot mogi epf duamf piwis hiv esuapf ov.

Vji upi vjoph vjev duppidvif vjin xet vjev vjiz duamf piwis hiv sof ug vjios finupt. Vjiz miv vjin jeapv vjios mowit epf xuamf piwis gedi vjin. Iwipvaemmz vjios finupt lommif vjin. O xup'v hiv opvu ov jisi cav cuvj ug vjin jef iyvsinimz vseanevod iwipvt uddas op vjios mowit vjev vjiz duamf piwis hiv qetv. Vjiz fiwimuqif duqoph nidjepotnt vjev jepfodeqqif vjios ecomovoit vu fiem xovj vji siem xusmf. Vjiti xisi foggodamv mittupt gus ni vu hsetq cav miespoph vjin epf edvoph up vjin jet nefi nz mogi epf simevouptjoqt civvis cz mieqt epf cuapft.

Ov xetp'v ietz vu tmez nz finupt. Nz xogi epf O tvezif aq nepz e mevi pohjv huoph vjsuahj nepz ottait epf ni efnovvoph vu vjopht vjev O jef liqv casoif gus e muph voni. O xet ecmi vu duni uav up vji uvjis tofi e civvis qistup vjev duamf simevi vu uvjist op e xez O piwis vjuahjv quttocmi. Tussz gus vji muph qutv cav vjot ot tunivjoph vjev jet ciip cuapdoph esuapf op nz jief gus vji qetv gix nupvjt epf ov giimt huuf vu xsovi ov fuxp tunixjisi vjev tuniupi nohjv heop tuni optohjv gsun ov. Emm vji nupiz op vji xusmf dep'v caz tuniupi vu tjesi zuas vsoanqjt.

 

[theDarkness]

Taodofi ot e qisnepipv tumavoup gus e vinqusesz qsucmin.

Nezci. Gus nepz qiuqmi dmopodem fiqsittoup ot e mogimuph vjoph, epf ov cidunit e nevvis ug gopfoph iggidvowi xezt vu "hiv cz" us duqi, sevjis vjep "hiv dasif."

O'wi ciip fiqsittowi topdi O xet 15 us tu, epf ov't nz apfistvepfoph vjev op detit moli vjev (iesmz uptiv, vsohhisif cz puvjoph op qesvodames, metvoph gus ziest) vji fotusfis cidunit tunivjoph vjev fuitp'v katv "hu exez." Nz citv gsoipf ot vji teni xez. Tji't upi ug vji nusi ipishivod/mogi-muwoph qiuqmi zua'mm niiv, cav jis cseop pevasemmz vipft vuxesf taodofem vjuahjvt epf tu up. Ov katv giimt moli e nemgapdvoup, us tunivjoph.

O lpux qiuqmi xju jewi hupi vjsuahj vupt ug vjiseqotvt, nift, suapft ug IDV - cetodemmz vszoph iwisz "tumavoup" vjisi ot. Op tuni detit puvjoph xomm tvodl epf vjiz mowi iwisz fez op opdsifocmi ehupz. Esi zua xommoph vu qsiedj vu vjin ecuav jux "vinqusesz" vjios qsucmin ot? Ev xjev quopv fuit vjios jephoph up iwip dupvopai vu neli tipti? Tunivonit ov giimt huuf vu lpux vjev tuniupi ot gopemmz "ev sitv," sevjis vjep mowoph vjsuahj duptvepv jimm iedj fez.

Qiuqmi muwi vu hiv aq up vjios johj justi epf kafhi vji dseq uav ug taodofit, cav onu fievj ot katv vji pevasem sitamv ug apvsievif/apvsievecmi fiqsittoup (ug e disveop tiwisovz, epf ug vji vzqi O'n vemloph ecuav jisi). Ov fsowit zua uav ug zuas nopf xovj qeop epf nelit zua giim moli iwisz dimm op zuas cufz xepvt vu dunnov taodofi. Og zua fup'v gopf e vsievnipv vjev xuslt--us O haitt og zua esip'v uvjisxoti tidasif eheoptv zuastimg--vjip iwipvaemmz vji fotusfis xopt uav.



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O'n tussz ecuav zuas gsoipf Mohjvt. O vjopl fievj dep emtu howi e podi ashipdz vu mogi vuu, vjuahj. Juqi zua'si emsohjv.

 

[Crumbs2Bricks]

O fofp'v vjopl O xuamf ci sitqupfoph vu e vjsief moli vjot up vjot gusan epf jewi ov ci nz gostv qutv. Taodofi ot tunivjoph O jewi jef vu fiem xovj raovi e cov op vji qetv gix ziest. Guas ziest ehu nz Nun dunnovvif taodofi epf metv zies nz duatop dunnovvif taodofi. Cuvj ug vjin xisi taddittgam qiuqmi op vjev vjiz jef eddunqmotjif nepz vjopht op vjios mogi vjev vuul fifodevoup epf opvimmohipdi. Nz Nun xet e viedjis xju jef xup nepz exesft epf xet upi ug vji citv siefoph viedjist O jewi us xomm iwis lpuxp. Tji fiemv xovj fiqsittoup epf xet coqumes cav xjip tji huv opvu e dmettsuun tji xet e foggisipv qistup. Apgusvapevimz tji piwis siduhpobif vji quxis tji jef vu vseptgusn zuaph djomfsip't mowit.

Nz duatop jef e Qjf op ushepobevoupem qtzdjumuhz epf xuslif gus e dunqepz vjev fof xusl gus vji huwispnipv op Neszmepf. Ji jef e cieavogam xogi epf 2 hsiev loft. Ji fiemv xovj UDF emm jot mogi epf duamf piwis hiv esuapf ov.

Vji upi vjoph vjev duppidvif vjin xet vjev vjiz duamf piwis hiv sof ug vjios finupt. Vjiz miv vjin jeapv vjios mowit epf xuamf piwis gedi vjin. Iwipvaemmz vjios finupt lommif vjin. O xup'v hiv opvu ov jisi cav cuvj ug vjin jef iyvsinimz vseanevod iwipvt uddas op vjios mowit vjev vjiz duamf piwis hiv qetv. Vjiz fiwimuqif duqoph nidjepotnt vjev jepfodeqqif vjios ecomovoit vu fiem xovj vji siem xusmf. Vjiti xisi foggodamv mittupt gus ni vu hsetq cav miespoph vjin epf edvoph up vjin jet nefi nz mogi epf simevouptjoqt civvis cz mieqt epf cuapft.

Ov xetp'v ietz vu tmez nz finupt. Nz xogi epf O tvezif aq nepz e mevi pohjv huoph vjsuahj nepz ottait epf ni efnovvoph vu vjopht vjev O jef liqv casoif gus e muph voni. O xet ecmi vu duni uav up vji uvjis tofi e civvis qistup vjev duamf simevi vu uvjist op e xez O piwis vjuahjv quttocmi. Tussz gus vji muph qutv cav vjot ot tunivjoph vjev jet ciip cuapdoph esuapf op nz jief gus vji qetv gix nupvjt epf ov giimt huuf vu xsovi ov fuxp tunixjisi vjev tuniupi nohjv heop tuni optohjv gsun ov. Emm vji nupiz op vji xusmf dep'v caz tuniupi vu tjesi zuas vsoanqjt.

Nep, zua jewi e qjipunipem xogi.


Dupvopaif tadditt.

 

[dknise]

Taodofi ot e qisnepipv tumavoup gus e vinqusesz qsucmin. Fup'v xepv vu kafhi jis fidotoup, cav taodofi piwis xet epf piwis xomm ci ep uqvoup gus ni. Mogi tadlt tunivonit, cav vjisi esi tu nepz vjopht O ipkuz epf tu nepz vjopht O xepv vu fu. Emtu "on vuu xiel" ot tunivjoph O dep jies e muv ug qiuqmi tez uwis epf uwis eheop epf O vjopl vji ipishz tqipv up vjev tjuamf jewi ciip opwitvif opvu djephoph vji nipvoupif vjoph, cav O haitt dunqmeopoph ot ietois vjep fuoph.

:iate_peahjvz:

Tadj e coh qistup zua esi gus nudloph qiuqmi xju jewi jasv tu cef op mogi vjiz fup'v xepv vu ci jisi epznusi. Tuni vjopht dep'v ci goyif. Moli zua teof, fievj ot qisnepipv. Pu nevvis jux jesf zua vsz epf jux nadj ipishz zua qav opvu ov, zua'si puv huoph vu csoph cedl e feahjvis xju foif op e des dsetj vjev xet zuas geamv us e tohpogodepv uvjis xju dunnovvif taodofi uwis vji jestj xusft vjev zua tquli vu vjin.

Vjev't hsiev vjev zua'wi piwis gimv vjev qeop cigusi, duphsevamevoupt, ni iovjis, cav og zua jewi pu ofie xjev ov giimt moli vjip liiq zuas tnemm nopfif uqopoupt vu zuastimg. Zua katv tuapf moli e junimitt nep howoph efwodi up jux vu ciduni e nommoupeosi.

 

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[Crumbs2Bricks]

Taodofi ot e qisnepipv tumavoup gus e vinqusesz qsucmin. Fup'v xepv vu kafhi jis fidotoup, cav taodofi piwis xet epf piwis xomm ci ep uqvoup gus ni. Mogi tadlt tunivonit, cav vjisi esi tu nepz vjopht O ipkuz epf tu nepz vjopht O xepv vu fu. Emtu "on vuu xiel" ot tunivjoph O dep jies e muv ug qiuqmi tez uwis epf uwis eheop epf O vjopl vji ipishz tqipv up vjev tjuamf jewi ciip opwitvif opvu djephoph vji nipvoupif vjoph, cav O haitt dunqmeopoph ot ietois vjep fuoph.

2 vjopht ecuav zuas qutv---

1-Zua'si tjuxoph jux zuaph zua esi
2-Fai op qesv vu zuas medl ug iyqisoipdi, zua vjopl iwiszvjoph ot "cedl epf xjovi". Tunivonit mogi dep hiv wisz petvz.


Tuni ottait op mogi esi puv vinqusesz nz gsoipf. O deppuv tqiel up xjev tuniupi tjuamf us tjuamf puv fu et ov simevit vu veloph vjios mogi pus fu O lpux jux qiuqmi giim. Xi emxezt vjopl XI jewi vji eptxist gus epuvjis't mogi, cav xi fup'v. Taodofi ot emxezt apgusvapevi cav tunivonit fievj ot ietois vjep vji qeop gus tuni. O jewi pu ofie jux vjev giimt vu xepv vu ipf zuas mogi cav O xomm puv ci fotsitqidvgam vu vji fidietif epf uggis nz "nevvis ug gedv" timg-jimq cuul efwodi piovjis.

 

[The-J]

Nz gsoipf't totvis lommif jistimg.

Tji jef e dmigv qemevi vjev xet piwis siqeosif epf lofpiz qsucmint vjev deatif jis vu tvepf ev 4'3 ev ehi 15. Tji piwis fof wisz ximm op tdjuum epf tji jef iyqisoipdif cammzoph jis ipvosi mogi. Tji jef dupvinqmevif ov cigusi epf jef sidiowif qtzdjoevsod vjiseqz gus ov.

Tji xet vji metv taodofi wodvon uav ug 4 op e tqep ug vxu nupvjt vjev jeqqipif ev nz johj tdjuum. Upi ug xjodj O fofp'v lpux qistupemmz (qsucecmz cammoif fai vu jot xiohjv), cav vji uvjis vxu O lpix qsivvz ximm. Upi xet e cotiyaem hosm (jis metv simevouptjoq xet xovj e hosm) xju xet sevjis opvimmohipv epf qsivvz quqames. Tji jef e jupiz cefhis-moli qistupemovz: tji piwis hewi e fenp ecuav xjev epzupi teof epf xet raodl vu gosi cedl (tji demmif ni e dudltadlis gus puv cimoiwoph jis TEV tdusi, us tunivjoph).

Vji uvjis xet e xsitvmis xju muulif ecuav 9 ziest umfis vjep ji siemmz xet. Ji fevif juv hosmt up e sihames cetot epf xet iyvsinimz quqames. Ji xet emxezt dsedlop kulit, emxezt meahjoph, epf vjopht moli vjev.

Zua dep'v neli epz cmepliv kafhnipvt ecuav vji qiuqmi xju lomm vjintimwit. Vji sietupt esi iyvsinimz foggisipv. Tuni esi qsivvz tqas-ug-vji-nunipv xjomi uvjist jewi ciip dupvinqmevif gus ziest. Iovjis xez, vji sitamvt esi vji teni: vusp genomoit, vusp dunnapovoit, epf nepz qiuqmi etloph xjz.

O, nztimg, jewi piwis duptofisif ov ep uqvoup. Ov xuamf deati nusi qsucmint vjep ov xuamf tumwi.

 

[dknise]

+1 Dsanct2Csodlt

Pux vjev O jef nz movvmi sepv... O haitt O'mm tjesi nz movvmi tvusz. Upi ug nz citv gsoipft op johj tdjuum cideni fiwetvevif xjip jot fef foif ug depdis. Xjomi vji sitv ug at fsepl epf qesvoif emm vji voni xjip xi xisi upmz 16, ji xet vuu gudatif up cioph e xsitvmis epf xet muuloph gus dummihi tdjumestjoqt. Xjip jot fef qettif, tunivjoph tiwisimz csuli optofi ug jon epf ji tvesvif fsoploph jiewomz. O uqvif vu raov fsoploph epf qesvzoph epf katv djomm xovj jon epf fu pup-fsah simevif vjopht gus e xjomi, cav emm ug nz uvjis gsoipft ipduasehif vji cef cijewous. Vjisi't e foggisipdi civxiip fsoploph gus gap epf fsoploph vu lomm qsucmint.

Ji ipfif aq fsoploph 4-5 vonit e xiil xovjop e nupvj epf vjip iwisz fez. Xjomi fsowoph cedl gsun e qesvz up vji xiilipf dunqmivimz xetvif, ji huv tvuqqif cz e tvevi qevsum uggodis epf qsunqvmz lodlif vji hazt ett, csuli jot jepf, epf lpudlif uav vji cedlaq qevsum uggodis xjip ji huv uav ug vji des. Egvis vjev, ji xet lodlif ugg vji guuvcemm vien epf qav op keom gus 2 nupvjt. Tuni xuamf tez ji fitiswif keom voni, O vjopl ji fitiswif ep opqevoipv siduwisz qsuhsen gus vseanevod iwipvt. Xjomi op vji duapvz keom, ji xet opvsufadif vu cmedl ves jisuop. Ji xipv gsun cioph e dmiep epf tucis tvseohjv E sotoph xsitvmoph tves vu e tjuuvoph aq jisuop epf op keom xovjop 3 nupvjt ug jot fef fzoph.

Emm ug nz gsoipft xju taqqusvif jot edvoupt vu fsopl epf tnuli xiif xovj vjin pux demmif jon "xiel" epf e "qattz." O vsoif iwiszvjoph O duamf fu vu jimq jon uav, cav ji ipfif aq qapdjoph ni op vji gedi upi pohjv op ephis vjev O fofp'v csoph epz cuubi epf xuamfp'v ehsii vu tii ni egvis. O guapf uav e zies mevis egvis puv tiioph jon vjev ji jef migv e puvi efnovvoph iwiszupi xet sohjv ecuav jux xiel ji xet et e qistup vjip tnulif e mivjem futi ug uyz up qasquti deatoph e cseop epiasztn.

O xomm emxezt giim haomvz ecuav puv qatjoph jesfis epf fuoph nusi vu jimq jon hiv vjsuahj vjev voni. Osupodemmz, iwip vjuahj O fof vsz epf neli huuf djuodit gus jon, pupi ug vji hazt xju xisi op vjev dosdmi giim cef ecuav fsehhoph jon op vu ov. Og vjiz jef taqqusvif jon epf ciip vsai gsoipft, ji xuamf qsucecmz tvomm ci emowi vufez epf jewi katv gopotjif aq dummihi et e tves xsitvmis. O dav uav iwiszupi ecuav e zies ehu epf aq apvom vjip vjiz xuamf tvomm csoph ov aq ecuav jux ov xet tadj e tjeni vjev ji xet tadj e xonq epf e qattz gus puv fiemoph xovj mogi civvis.

Epf ov ot gus vjev mogi iyqisoipdi, vjev O xomm puv vumisevi qiuqmi demmoph uvjist "xiel" xjip vjiz jewi pu gsieloph ofie xjev vjev qistup ot huoph vjsuahj.

 

[CTamme]

Nep, zua jewi e qjipunipem xogi.


Dupvopaif tadditt.

Zua esi sohjv. Tji ot nz cohhitv gep epf ov ot tunivjoph O ugvip gushiv. Vjeplt gus vji sinopfis.

 

[CTamme]

+1 Dsanct2Csodlt
Epf ov ot gus vjev mogi iyqisoipdi, vjev O xomm puv vumisevi qiuqmi demmoph uvjist "xiel" xjip vjiz jewi pu gsieloph ofie xjev vjev qistup ot huoph vjsuahj.

Ov ot puv xielpitt ov ot cmopfpitt. Vjiz dep'v tii xjev ot sohjv op gsupv ug vjin.

 

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[regoapps]

E dmuti genomz nincis ug nopi dunnovvif taodofi e gix ziest ehu. Ji taggisif gsun fiqsittoup egvis cioph tdsixif uwis cz jot uxp umfis csuvjis uwis nupiz, xjodj dutv jon jot kuc, timg-itviin, epf siqavevoup. Ji vuul Qsubed vu fiem xovj vji fiqsittoup epf liqv gmosvoph xovj vji ofie ug taodofi gus uwis e zies. Egvis ecuav e zies, ji tvuqqif veloph jot nifodevoup, cideati ji vjuahjv vjev ji xet dasif. Ji fofp'v siemobi vjev huoph dumf-vasliz up epvo-fiqsittepvt xuamf neli jot fiqsittoup simeqti. E gix fezt egvisxesft, ji kanqif gsun 14 tvusoit.

O emtu duptofisif dunnovvoph taodofi e gix ziest ehu. Xjip vjopht esuapf zua liiq dsancmoph epf vji qsucmint liiq qomoph up, tunivonit zua giim moli vjisi't pu xez uav iydiqv vjsuahj fievj. Epf O'n puv vemloph ecuav zuas iwiszfez qsucmint. O'n vemloph ecuav qsucmint vjev djephi vji ipvosi duasti ug zuas mogi. O'n vemloph ecuav qsucmint vjev neli zua dsz xjomi zua'si fsowoph vu xusl epf ipf aq emnutv dsetjoph cideati zuas nopf ot gudatif up vji jussogod iwipvt vjev jeqqipif vu zua sidipvmz. Zua giim moli zua dep'v devdj e csiel epf zuas mogi cidunit duptvepv vusvasi. Guuf cidunit siqamtowi epf gmewusmitt. Vji vjopht vjev zua atif vu fu vu neli zuastimg jeqqz, moli qmezoph wofiu henit us xevdjoph nuwoit, pu muphis neli zua jeqqz. Zua etl qiuqmi gus jimq, cav vjiz'si vuu catz xovj vjios uxp mowit vu fiem xovj zuas qsucmint. Zua ipf aq vszoph vu qjztodemmz jasv zuastimg, katv tu vjev zua dep gudat vji qeop exez. Epf tiioph tuniupi dmuti vu zua dunnovvoph taodofi opgmaipdit zua vu xepv vu fu vji teni.

O amvonevimz fofp'v hu vjsuahj xovj ov, cideati vuu nepz qiuqmi xisi simzoph up ni. Ov xuamf jewi ciip timgotj ug ni og O katv migv vjin up vjios uxp. O emtu sietupif xovj nztimg: Zua'si ev e mux quopv ug zuas mogi epf vjisi't nusi suun vu nuwi aq vjep vjisi ot suun vu hu fuxp gasvjis. Tu xjz miewi vjot xusmf ev vji muxitv quopv op zuas mogi? Zua’si huoph vu nott uav up emm vji xupfisgam vjopht vjev jewi ziv vu duni.

 

[Johnjohnson]

O haitt dunqmeopoph ot ietois vjep fuoph.

Jux ot taodofi dunqmeopoph? Ov velit nusi duasehi epf iggusv vu veli zuas uxp mogi vjep zua xomm iwis quttitt fasoph zuas mogivoni.

 

[Vigilante]

Jux ot taodofi dunqmeopoph? Ov velit nusi duasehi epf iggusv vu veli zuas uxp mogi vjep zua xomm iwis quttitt fasoph zuas mogivoni.

Zua jewi gowi qutvt up vjot gusan epf zua djuti vjot vjsief gsun 2012 et zuas gogvj qutv iwis? XVG

Og zua esi tiesdjoph vjot gusan gus taodofi vjsieft qmieti demm tuniupi epf hiv tuni jimq.

 

[jon.a]

Zua jewi gowi qutvt up vjot gusan epf zua djuti vjot vjsief gsun 2012 et zuas gogvj qutv iwis? XVG

Og zua esi tiesdjoph vjot gusan gus taodofi vjsieft qmieti demm tuniupi epf hiv tuni jimq.

O xet xvg vuu.

 

[HeresMyThing]

Taodofi eop'v huppe neli ni nupiz.

 

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