Ambi Dexter
New Contributor
Hello Everyone,
This is my first post and I'll try to share what matters. I started my agency in 2010 and used to provide WordPress development services to affiliate marketers during that time. Made some good money in the process and transitioned to provide SEO, AdWords and other marketing related services as it was growing fast in demand. My friend and the Co-Founder left for a secure and decent job in 2012 and I was left alone with the venture. I did not stop there and went ahead with the business as usual. The only mistake I made was not to take work seriously and never got my business registered. At one point of time I was managing multiple projects and a team of professionals who were working from their own places of convenience and flexible timings. For clients, I was still operating as a freelancer. Things were going good and then life happened.
I've been fighting with mental health issues for a long time and my work had become an escape from them. Now, I feel that it were the issues that did not let me think logically and I suffered from a mental breakdown in 2018. An acute case of schizophrenia made me lose all the trust and reputation I had with my friends, colleagues, clients and most of the relatives. I was admitted to a facility in 2019 and I spent around six months fighting several delusions and voices in my head. I had declined a good job with nice salary during the college placements because I didn't want to go down the 9 to 5 lane. I was able to achieve some success but could not balance my personal life and lost everything that I had earned. Sitting around other patients with different issues, I felt suicidal many times but didn't attempt it because something inside me was telling me that the story is yet to be written. It's not over yet. I was 32 years old, no clients, no work, no friends and I had to restart from the very basics.
The moment I realised what had actually happened to me, I went into severe depression. I was dis-illusioned now. Having wasted all my money, I'm now left with just my mac (I'm glad I still have it) and a will to bounce back. Although, I'm Stressed, Anxious and Depressed, I know I can do it. I have read the Fastlane book in 2017 and am not ready to give it up. I'm currently stay at my brother's and can be thrown out of the house anytime. But I am determined not to go down the slow lane and waste whatever years that are left in my life.
Last but not the least, I'm here because I need your help. Encourage me, motivate me, laugh at me, abuse me or say anything but please talk to me. I live in India and am currently looking for just one client to get started again. I'm ready to offer free audits, work on test projects or do anything that I either can do or can learn to do. I need to work and make money because that's the only way I can get out of this deep shit I'm in right now.
Thanks for your time.
This is my first post and I'll try to share what matters. I started my agency in 2010 and used to provide WordPress development services to affiliate marketers during that time. Made some good money in the process and transitioned to provide SEO, AdWords and other marketing related services as it was growing fast in demand. My friend and the Co-Founder left for a secure and decent job in 2012 and I was left alone with the venture. I did not stop there and went ahead with the business as usual. The only mistake I made was not to take work seriously and never got my business registered. At one point of time I was managing multiple projects and a team of professionals who were working from their own places of convenience and flexible timings. For clients, I was still operating as a freelancer. Things were going good and then life happened.
I've been fighting with mental health issues for a long time and my work had become an escape from them. Now, I feel that it were the issues that did not let me think logically and I suffered from a mental breakdown in 2018. An acute case of schizophrenia made me lose all the trust and reputation I had with my friends, colleagues, clients and most of the relatives. I was admitted to a facility in 2019 and I spent around six months fighting several delusions and voices in my head. I had declined a good job with nice salary during the college placements because I didn't want to go down the 9 to 5 lane. I was able to achieve some success but could not balance my personal life and lost everything that I had earned. Sitting around other patients with different issues, I felt suicidal many times but didn't attempt it because something inside me was telling me that the story is yet to be written. It's not over yet. I was 32 years old, no clients, no work, no friends and I had to restart from the very basics.
The moment I realised what had actually happened to me, I went into severe depression. I was dis-illusioned now. Having wasted all my money, I'm now left with just my mac (I'm glad I still have it) and a will to bounce back. Although, I'm Stressed, Anxious and Depressed, I know I can do it. I have read the Fastlane book in 2017 and am not ready to give it up. I'm currently stay at my brother's and can be thrown out of the house anytime. But I am determined not to go down the slow lane and waste whatever years that are left in my life.
Last but not the least, I'm here because I need your help. Encourage me, motivate me, laugh at me, abuse me or say anything but please talk to me. I live in India and am currently looking for just one client to get started again. I'm ready to offer free audits, work on test projects or do anything that I either can do or can learn to do. I need to work and make money because that's the only way I can get out of this deep shit I'm in right now.
Thanks for your time.
Dislike ads? Remove them and support the forum:
Subscribe to Fastlane Insiders.