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Ok, Fastlaners
I am dealing with strong lower-back pain since this morning and I know it is because of what I encountered lately. Please share your stories, I need support right now. It is very hard.
I left my abusive family half a year ago. I am a 23, woman. I had to clear up most of my toxic friends' circle. I am after years of therapy, I am a psychotherapist myself now. At the same time, I started working on a big project of mine. Networking, reaching out to a ton of strangers. Meeting a lot of assholes of course. Starting from 0 is exciting, but I have hit a very low point. Last week a psychotherapist tried to stretch me and I feel it started a spiral for me.
Anyone who endured emotional abuse for many years, after leaving is like a superhero when it comes to emotional intelligence and endurance. But anyone who did it also knows the costs of it. Lately, I wake up in the night crying.
And then I go out on the streets and I face all the people wearing black and gray and just vicious and defeated (I am in Poland now, I plan to move out).
I fight very hard, I focus on gratitude, meditate, keep myself straight and well-mannered to others... But this back pain today got the best out of me. It really hurts. And I know it is a clear sign from my body - our bodies are built to survive - and it is a natural body mechanism. I know it. It is all the emotions I need to process. I have books about it to read. I know what to do, but I would just curl up in bed and cry. I feel so powerless. And I know I shouldn't expose myself like this online to strangers, but honestly - I don't care at this point. Please tell me something I need to hear... And don't hit me up with the - what did you expect, that it is going to be easy? Shut up, Dave. I did not! But it doesn't mean I shouldn't reach out for help. Strength is in knowing when to ask for help. And for me, this is the moment. So, if you have nothing positive to say, go troll somewhere else.
I am dealing with strong lower-back pain since this morning and I know it is because of what I encountered lately. Please share your stories, I need support right now. It is very hard.
I left my abusive family half a year ago. I am a 23, woman. I had to clear up most of my toxic friends' circle. I am after years of therapy, I am a psychotherapist myself now. At the same time, I started working on a big project of mine. Networking, reaching out to a ton of strangers. Meeting a lot of assholes of course. Starting from 0 is exciting, but I have hit a very low point. Last week a psychotherapist tried to stretch me and I feel it started a spiral for me.
Anyone who endured emotional abuse for many years, after leaving is like a superhero when it comes to emotional intelligence and endurance. But anyone who did it also knows the costs of it. Lately, I wake up in the night crying.
And then I go out on the streets and I face all the people wearing black and gray and just vicious and defeated (I am in Poland now, I plan to move out).
I fight very hard, I focus on gratitude, meditate, keep myself straight and well-mannered to others... But this back pain today got the best out of me. It really hurts. And I know it is a clear sign from my body - our bodies are built to survive - and it is a natural body mechanism. I know it. It is all the emotions I need to process. I have books about it to read. I know what to do, but I would just curl up in bed and cry. I feel so powerless. And I know I shouldn't expose myself like this online to strangers, but honestly - I don't care at this point. Please tell me something I need to hear... And don't hit me up with the - what did you expect, that it is going to be easy? Shut up, Dave. I did not! But it doesn't mean I shouldn't reach out for help. Strength is in knowing when to ask for help. And for me, this is the moment. So, if you have nothing positive to say, go troll somewhere else.
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