Deep Depression being stuck at a 9-5 job

[AFMKelvin]

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[babyballer]

Hi guys,

I am writing this after suffering for 7 months with depression related to my job. It started after reading TMF , in that moment, I realized how much I was wrong, how my life will get worse if I still continue my life like that.
I am 19 and nearly approaching 20, I have tried to implement a Fastlane project( an arbitrage bot which would work in the crypto space) but it failed, after 2 months of work, I swa that it was losing money rather than doing it.
I decided to become a blockchain developer because this was the field in which 1 year ago I made a good amount of money by arbitraging the market manually( at the peak, I was at 15000$ ), my journey of learning went good and made some nice open source project to back up my profile.
I went into vacation for 1 month and my anxiety/depression faded away like magic.
The fear of going back to entrepreneurhip is so high that everything I come up with, my ego says: "it will never work". It's getting hard to do anything, I want to work in the blockchain space but I don't think there is a Fastlane in this field.
I just fear of the weekend because I don't have anything to do and whenever I try to start working on my business, my ego won't cease to say that it won't work.
My background: I am an Abap developer working in the SAP space, teached myself how to make good websites, knew nothing about programming before getting into the job.
Sometimes I regret of reading TMF .

Good luck to y'all

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