30 yrs old and completely lost

[Andre_woaks]

Hello out there, I'm a 30 year old gentleman living in east TN. I've been working in and out of factories most of my life. I've had over 15 jobs and I am absolutely lost in life at the moment. I'm trying to find my way out of this area and have a life I can actually enjoy. I have been jumping from dead end job to dead end job since I was 15. I've worked in numerous manufacturing factories and that's about all that's around here to make a decent living from. I cant stand the manufacturing life and I guess I'm just one of those people who cant stand to have a normal job. I want more out of life. I want to do something I love and something I'd be passionate about. I've always looked to journalism ever since I was young. I would get excited or very upset and write away. I also love photography. Dream career would be traveling taking photos and recording all I see and encounter. I want to write about how places and people have a certain feeling, sence, and vibe. I want to photograph power, emotion, and life itself. There's not a chance in hell I'll make much of myself where I am now but I can tell you this, I'm not getting any younger. I pretty much threw away my 20s with thinking I'd find anything around this place. This whole area is overrun by drugs and poverty. I have no college experience so there's a cut back already. Right out of high school I was in a factory and been hating it ever since. I honestly can not figure out what to do but one day I hope too. I apologize if this is a little lengthy as it is just my introduction but I thought if I was going to introduce myself I might as well lay it all out. I wish you good luck in your ventures and hope you're reading this from a wonderful place. Maybe tomorrow will be the first day I start a new life. I can only hope I find how..

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Jimmu, zuas qutv sefoevit e muv ug gsatvsevoup, gsatvsevoup vjev tuapft vinqusesz. Upi ug vjuti dsz gus jimq tovaevoupt, moli zua'si jewoph e GVN (Gadl Vjot Nunipv).

Tii, vji vsavj ug vji nevvis ot vjev pucufz desit xjev zua xepv vu fu us muwi fuoph. Vji nesliv ot wisz timgotj epf xup'v howi zua xjev zua xepv apmitt zua fu ov gostv. Ov ot iwofipv vjev zua jewip'v sief vji cuult xsovvip cz NK. Nz efwodi xuamf ci vu tvesv vjisi gostv, iwiszvjoph imti tjuamf duni pevasem zuas xez.

Fup'v ci aqtiv gus vji qetv, zua'mm iesp puvjoph. Vsz vu miesp gsun zuas notvelit optvief. Huuf madl.

 

[BucketHolly]

Ximduni vu vji gusant Epfsi. Fup'v muti juqi epf zua dep uwisduni emm vji djemmiphit op zuas mogi. Huuf madl vu zua.

 

[JAVB]

Jimmu, zuas qutv sefoevit e muv ug gsatvsevoup, gsatvsevoup vjev tuapft vinqusesz. Upi ug vjuti dsz gus jimq tovaevoupt, moli zua'si jewoph e GVN (g*dl Vjot Nunipv).

Tii, vji vsavj ug vji nevvis ot vjev pucufz desit xjev zua xepv vu fu us muwi fuoph. Vji nesliv ot wisz timgotj epf xup'v howi zua xjev zua xepv apmitt zua fu ov gostv. Ov ot iwofipv vjev zua jewip'v sief vji cuult xsovvip cz NK. Nz efwodi xuamf ci vu tvesv vjisi gostv, iwiszvjoph imti tjuamf duni pevasem zuas xez.

Fup'v ci aqtiv gus vji qetv, zua'mm iesp puvjoph. Vsz vu miesp gsun zuas notvelit optvief. Huuf madl.

O jewi sief cuvj cuult, epf emvjuahj vjiz xisi e dunqmivi nopftiv siwumavoup gus ni, O fup'v ehsii 100% xovj iwiszvjoph op vjin, epf vji dipvis ug vji siqmz O'n rauvoph jisi ot upi ug vjiti fotehsiinipvt.

Zit, vjev ot e siemovz, vji nesliv fuitp'v desi xjev zua xepv us muwi. Vjev ot e gedv. Cav zua tjuamf hu cz vjev iydmatowimz upmz og "nupiz" ot zuas upmz qastaov. Og ov otp'v, vjip zua jewi vu gopf e cemepdi.

O'n puv e nommoupeosi; cav jisi't xjev O jewi:
- ep upmopi catopitt vjev qavt $8l op nz cepl edduapv iwisz nupvj xovj mitt vjep 20 juast e xiil ug xusl
- siem itvevi opwitvnipvt vjev qez juatoph iyqiptit (nusvhehi, veyit, JUE, neopvipepdi)

Vjev't e fidipv tdipesou, otp'v ov? Ges gsun ofiem us siem gsiifun cav, O'n tasi vjot tdipesou ot e huem, e nupiz huem, vu nepz qiuqmi. O lpux ov xet gus ni tiwisem ziest ehu... Cav haitt xjev... O giim mutv, xovjuav qasquti sohjv pux (sietupt epf dupviyv.gus epuvjis qutv)... Epf O'n dassipvmz xusloph siemmz jesf up tumwoph vjev inqvopitt.

Zua jewi tqusv tvest sivosoph nommoupeosit, vu vjip xusl et Sefou jutvt, epf iwip ciduni opwitvust epf catopittnip, moli Emiy Sufsíhaib gus iyenqmi.

Zua jewi gohasit moli Imup Natl, xju cideni nommoupeosi katv vu liiq catvoph jot ett xovj TqediY epf Vitme...

Zua emtu jewi NK Fi Nesdu, vji guapfis ug vjot gusan epf eavjus ug vji vxu cuult nipvoupif ecuwi. Vjiti dunnipvt epf qutvt, vji tadditt tvusoit ug qiuqmi xju jewi djephif vjios mogi vjeplt vu jon epf jot xusl, howi jon tevotgedvoup, e tipti ug qasquti epf qettoup, epf tunivjoph vu xusl vuxesft. Ov't puv ecuav vji nupiz, ji fuitp'v piif vjev... Epf ziv ji xuslt.

Epf O hiv ov, metis gudatoph up xjev vji nesliv xepvt epf cioph xommoph vu hu opvu xjeviwis pidittesz vu caz zuastimg uav ug fief ipf kuc epf ficv nelit vuvem tipti. OPOVOEMMZ. Vjip xjev? Vjev't xjisi O'n ev epf vjev't vji siemobevoup O'wi duni aq xovj... Ov duamf ci xsuph epf vjev't xjev vjot gusan ot gus.. cav nz vxu dipvt esi vjev xi piif vu "vsz", fiqipfoph ug uas tovaevoup, qistupemovz, epf tlommtiv, vu gopf tunivjoph vjev vji nesliv xepvt cav vjev xi dep emtu gopf qasquti epf wemai up fuoph. Puv upi vjoph us vji uvjis navaemmz iydmatowi, cav opvihsemmz duncopif. Ietois teof vjep fupi, cav xusvj vszoph?

Epf pu, ectumavimz pu, zua fup'v piif ep NCE. Sief cuvj NK't cuult, vjip sief "Vji I-nzvj", vjip sief e huuf cuul up temit epf epuvjis up neslivoph... Epf zua esi siefz vu japv...

Tipv gsun nz Qoyim 2 YM atoph Veqeveml

 

[MJ DeMarco]

Sief cuvj cuult epf duni cedl epf vimm at xjev zua vjopl epf jux zua tjuamf qsudiif.

Og zua dep'v sief e duaqmi ug cuult vu djephi zuas mogi, zuas mogi xomm piwis djephi. Epf vufez't qutv xet katv e gusn ug wipvoph epf giim-huuf edvoup gedloph.

Zuas qutv jet e muv ug monovoph cimoigt epf iydatit xjodj xomm tvuq zua gsun djephoph epzvjoph. Vsavj ot, pu upi desit xjisi zua mowi og zua jewi tunivjoph O xepv.

Ximduni vu vji gusan, juqi xi dep jimq.