<div class="bbWrapper">Day 5 cont.<br />
Went straight to hospital after getting up so<br />
<img src="/community/imgs/emoticons/em-x.png" class="smilie" loading="lazy" alt=":xx:" title="X :xx:" data-shortname=":xx:" /> meditation<br />
<img src="/community/imgs/emoticons/em-x.png" class="smilie" loading="lazy" alt=":xx:" title="X :xx:" data-shortname=":xx:" /> gratitude journal<br />
<img src="/community/imgs/emoticons/em-x.png" class="smilie" loading="lazy" alt=":xx:" title="X :xx:" data-shortname=":xx:" /> rolfing<br />
BUT I turned a shit day into a good one. Starting working when I got back, I did 25m Pomodoro followed by a reward (positive self talk + victory pose + nuts and berries) I think 3 or 4 sessions, so 1.5 hours of FOCUSSED work. It worked really well. It was EASY.<br />
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Got my first website done following a guide.: <a href="http://www.shiftintosource.com" target="_blank" class="link link--external" rel="noopener">shiftintosource.com</a><br />
I now know my way around Elementor and am confident I can build a good website.<br />
Onto my first real project now.<br />
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Also sorted more logistics: I track work time with clockify, I use a pomodoro extension for focussed work. I have my laptop shut down at 1:30am. I started getting ready for bed at 2am, which I guess is still crazy late for most people here, but a huge improvement for me. And I love the night, the solitude, going for a late night walk listening to music. I get so introspective and inspired. I also get the appeal of early mornings, getting to work and getting shit done before anyone ekse, being finished early, its great too. But I dunno. Its a tradeoff. Im such a nightowl which isnt inherently bad, I think Ill stick with 1:30 which means at the latest after a walk, some music and meditation and this journal here, its lights out by 3am max.<br />
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Also proud of myself for getting to work and getting the most focussed work so far done with a freshly broken arm! Instead of watching a movie. Thats phenomenal for me. The old me would never have done that, I would have felt sorry for myself, got chips and movie binged. Boom. F*ck THAT. Honestly, I deserved some more hardship in my life again, so Ill take it and bear it.<br />
Man up and get the shit done, despite anything and everything.<br />
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From a socially anxious, bullied, videogame addicted teen, I systematically fixed every single area of my life one by one. Videogame addiction. Diet. Spirituality and mental health. Social skills. Sex life. Financials is the last unfixed domain left. Once I get this one fixed, I will have absolutely won. I'm aiming to be nothing less than the most holistically developed 22 year old on the planet, and money is the foundation. Once I have this sorted it will be free sailing.</div>
