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- Jun 18, 2019
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Hey everyone, this is Nikhil and I am currently going through my worst phase in life.
Taking complete responsibility for the position I am in right now at 18 where I have to skip meals due to unaffordability. I am still not able to change things around. My whys are super solid considering the amount of humility, pain, and shame I have felt for not being able to afford even the most basic of necessities. I have had enough of all this but still, end up binge-watching the 'best gangster movies' or just action-faking by reading threads and guides online every day. I have over 20 self-help books but nothing to show for it except a few blog writing gigs. That too I got fed up with as I got paid pennies due to being a non-native writer.
I don't expect anything from this forum right now as I have realized more gold threads are not going to solve the problems with my mindset. What I hope someone can make clear to me is why don't I want it strong enough when I loathe and despise the rock bottom I am in. TIA
Taking complete responsibility for the position I am in right now at 18 where I have to skip meals due to unaffordability. I am still not able to change things around. My whys are super solid considering the amount of humility, pain, and shame I have felt for not being able to afford even the most basic of necessities. I have had enough of all this but still, end up binge-watching the 'best gangster movies' or just action-faking by reading threads and guides online every day. I have over 20 self-help books but nothing to show for it except a few blog writing gigs. That too I got fed up with as I got paid pennies due to being a non-native writer.
I don't expect anything from this forum right now as I have realized more gold threads are not going to solve the problems with my mindset. What I hope someone can make clear to me is why don't I want it strong enough when I loathe and despise the rock bottom I am in. TIA
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