Hello everyone, thanks for reading this. I've edited this for the past few hours, not sure if it is too long, or if it fits within the "Introductions" thread or not. Anyway here it is.
I'm not really sure what to do with the rest of my life. I suppose that's why I began reading "Millionaire Fastlane ". I'm currently 33 and live with my parents. I hate for this to be a sob story, but I consider myself a total F*cking loser. I'm very depressed. I was an officer in the US military for 4 years than left, (honorable discharge), to pursue medical school with the Post-9/11 GI Bill. This was a very bad decision, mainly because medical school is fiercely competitive and I had a terrible undergrad GPA, (2.89).
I thought because I was older, more mature, and knew what I wanted, that pursuing medical school would not be a problem. I enrolled in a post-baccalaureate program to fulfill the science prerequisites, (I was an English major), and did OK, earning two A's and two B's. I quit because the pressure to perform well was getting to me. Because of my low GPA, I would have to do VERY well on the MCAT and my post-bacc. I would do nothing all day but study for chemistry and I just barely earned a "B-". I have super bad test anxiety, and would "freeze up" on exams, forgetting most of the things I learned. Med school is unfortunately, all about how you perform on exams.
I quit my post-bacc program in 2017. For the past two years, I've basically done nothing with my life besides work as a lifeguard at a local pool. The management there hate me because they know I don't want to be there. I do whatever they ask me to do with no attitude, I'm just not a very fun person to be around right now. I'm in a really bad place. I'll admit it: I'm lazy, unfocused and very depressed.
"Millionaire Fastlane " is one of the best self help books I've ever read. I think one of the reasons why I haven't been more active in looking for a real, full time job/career was illustrated in MJ's book: the feeling of being a total slave to a job you hate, working only for a paycheck. I very much felt that way in the military, and I hated the day to day "grind", constantly looking up at the clock, wondering if I could leave, having all your free time sucked up by this job that you could honestly care less about, working with people who don't really care for you. I'm sure everyone on this forums experienced these feelings.
Ideally, I'd like to follow the principles illustrated by MJ in "Millionaire Fastlane ", however, I have the Post-9/11 GI Bill, which is 3 years of tuition assistance from the US federal government. Currently, I'm applying for a second bachelors degree in computer science. Honestly, deep down, I have no idea if this is really for me. I've taken online computer science classes through Udacity, but I'm just not sure if computer science is really the field I'd like to work in. I thought about getting an MBA, but my resume and grades are shit, so none of the top programs would accept me.
What are my passions? I honestly don't have any! I'm passionate about not spending 60+ hours at a job I don't care for, not spending hours stuck in traffic getting to my shit job, not working for a boss who I'd rather see roll over dead, eating clean, healthy, non contaminated food, staying out of debt, living in a safe community, and staying off prescription drugs that ironically deteriorate your health, rather than make it better.
I don't have any business ideas, and to be honest I'm not sure entrepreneurship is for me either. So why am I here? Because I love the idea of someday being free from the slavery of a 9-5 job, a boss breathing down your neck, and working with annoying coworkers. I'm not really interested too much in being rich, but more so, being free. I understand entrepreneurship is not easy, and that at times the 9 to 5 could look better.
Wow this is too long. I'm not sure what to do at this point. As you can tell, I'm quite lost and confused, and VERY jaded when it comes to the "working world". Can anyone identify at all with what I'm going through?
Sorry for the sob story.
I'm not really sure what to do with the rest of my life. I suppose that's why I began reading "Millionaire Fastlane ". I'm currently 33 and live with my parents. I hate for this to be a sob story, but I consider myself a total F*cking loser. I'm very depressed. I was an officer in the US military for 4 years than left, (honorable discharge), to pursue medical school with the Post-9/11 GI Bill. This was a very bad decision, mainly because medical school is fiercely competitive and I had a terrible undergrad GPA, (2.89).
I thought because I was older, more mature, and knew what I wanted, that pursuing medical school would not be a problem. I enrolled in a post-baccalaureate program to fulfill the science prerequisites, (I was an English major), and did OK, earning two A's and two B's. I quit because the pressure to perform well was getting to me. Because of my low GPA, I would have to do VERY well on the MCAT and my post-bacc. I would do nothing all day but study for chemistry and I just barely earned a "B-". I have super bad test anxiety, and would "freeze up" on exams, forgetting most of the things I learned. Med school is unfortunately, all about how you perform on exams.
I quit my post-bacc program in 2017. For the past two years, I've basically done nothing with my life besides work as a lifeguard at a local pool. The management there hate me because they know I don't want to be there. I do whatever they ask me to do with no attitude, I'm just not a very fun person to be around right now. I'm in a really bad place. I'll admit it: I'm lazy, unfocused and very depressed.
"Millionaire Fastlane " is one of the best self help books I've ever read. I think one of the reasons why I haven't been more active in looking for a real, full time job/career was illustrated in MJ's book: the feeling of being a total slave to a job you hate, working only for a paycheck. I very much felt that way in the military, and I hated the day to day "grind", constantly looking up at the clock, wondering if I could leave, having all your free time sucked up by this job that you could honestly care less about, working with people who don't really care for you. I'm sure everyone on this forums experienced these feelings.
Ideally, I'd like to follow the principles illustrated by MJ in "Millionaire Fastlane ", however, I have the Post-9/11 GI Bill, which is 3 years of tuition assistance from the US federal government. Currently, I'm applying for a second bachelors degree in computer science. Honestly, deep down, I have no idea if this is really for me. I've taken online computer science classes through Udacity, but I'm just not sure if computer science is really the field I'd like to work in. I thought about getting an MBA, but my resume and grades are shit, so none of the top programs would accept me.
What are my passions? I honestly don't have any! I'm passionate about not spending 60+ hours at a job I don't care for, not spending hours stuck in traffic getting to my shit job, not working for a boss who I'd rather see roll over dead, eating clean, healthy, non contaminated food, staying out of debt, living in a safe community, and staying off prescription drugs that ironically deteriorate your health, rather than make it better.
I don't have any business ideas, and to be honest I'm not sure entrepreneurship is for me either. So why am I here? Because I love the idea of someday being free from the slavery of a 9-5 job, a boss breathing down your neck, and working with annoying coworkers. I'm not really interested too much in being rich, but more so, being free. I understand entrepreneurship is not easy, and that at times the 9 to 5 could look better.
Wow this is too long. I'm not sure what to do at this point. As you can tell, I'm quite lost and confused, and VERY jaded when it comes to the "working world". Can anyone identify at all with what I'm going through?
Sorry for the sob story.
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