Seneca - On The Shortness of Life

[Raoul Duke]

This is Letter 49 from Seneca. Time is non-renewable, and “On The Shortness of Life” helps put this in practical context with real situational examples. Translated by John W. Basore (London: William Heinemann, 1932) and is in the public domain.


The majority of mortals, Paulinus, complain bitterly of the spitefulness of Nature, because we are born for a brief span of life, because even this space that has been granted to us rushes by so speedily and so swiftly that all save a very few find life at an end just when they are getting ready to live.


Nor is it merely the common herd and the unthinking crowd that bemoan what is, as men deem it, an universal ill; the same feeling has called forth complaint also from men who were famous…


It is not that we have a short space of time, but that we waste much of it. Life is long enough, and it has been given in sufficiently generous measure to allow the accomplishment of the very greatest things if the whole of it is well invested. But when it is squandered in luxury and carelessness, when it is devoted to no good end, forced at last by the ultimate necessity we perceive that it has passed away before we were aware that it was passing. So it is—the life we receive is not short, but we make it so, nor do we have any lack of it, but are wasteful of it. Just as great and princely wealth is scattered in a moment when it comes into the hands of a bad owner, while wealth however limited, if it is entrusted to a good guardian, increases by use, so our life is amply long for him who orders it properly.


Why do we complain of Nature? She has shown herself kindly; life, if you know how to use it, is long. But one man is possessed by greed that is insatiable, another by a toilsome devotion to tasks that are useless; one man is besotted with wine, another is paralyzed by sloth; one man is exhausted by an ambition that always hangs upon the decision of others, another, driven on by the greed of the trader, is led over all lands and all seas by the hope of gain; some are tormented by a passion for war and are always either bent upon inflicting danger upon others or concerned about their own; some there are who are worn out by voluntary servitude in a thankless attendance upon the great; many are kept busy either in the pursuit of other men’s fortune or in complaining of their own; many, following no fixed aim, shifting and inconstant and dissatisfied, are plunged by their fickleness into plans that are ever new; some have no fixed principle by which to direct their course, but Fate takes them unawares while they loll and yawn—so surely does it happen that I cannot doubt the truth of that utterance which the greatest of poets delivered with all the seeming of an oracle: “The part of life we really live is small.” For all the rest of existence is not life, but merely time.


Vices beset us and surround us on every side, and they do not permit us to rise anew and lift up our eyes for the discernment of truth, but they keep us down when once they have overwhelmed us and we are chained to lust. Their victims are never allowed to return to their true selves; if ever they chance to find some release, like the waters of the deep sea which continue to heave even after the storm is past, they are tossed about, and no rest from their lusts abides. Think you that I am speaking of the wretches whose evils are admitted? Look at those whose prosperity men flock to behold; they are smothered by their blessings. To how many are riches a burden! From how many do eloquence and the daily straining to display their powers draw forth blood! How many are pale from constant pleasures! To how many does the throng of clients that crowd about them leave no freedom! In short, run through the list of all these men from the lowest to the highest—this man desires an advocate, this one answers the call, that one is on trial, that one defends him, that one gives sentence; no one asserts his claim to himself, everyone is wasted for the sake of another. Ask about the men whose names are known by heart, and you will see that these are the marks that distinguish them: A cultivates B and B cultivates C; no one is his own master. And then certain men show the most senseless indignation—they complain of the insolence of their superiors, because they were too busy to see them when they wished an audience! But can anyone have the hardihood to complain of the pride of another when he himself has no time to attend to himself? After all, no matter who you are, the great man does sometimes look toward you even if his face is insolent, he does sometimes condescend to listen to your words, he permits you to appear at his side; but you never deign to look upon yourself, to give ear to yourself. There is no reason, therefore, to count anyone in debt for such services, seeing that, when you performed them, you had no wish for another’s company, but could not endure your own.


Though all the brilliant intellects of the ages were to concentrate upon this one theme, never could they adequately express their wonder at this dense darkness of the human mind. Men do not suffer anyone to seize their estates, and they rush to stones and arms if there is even the slightest dispute about the limit of their lands, yet they allow others to trespass upon their life—nay, they themselves even lead in those who will eventually possess it. No one is to be found who is willing to distribute his money, yet among how many does each one of us distribute his life! In guarding their fortune men are often closefisted, yet, when it comes to the matter of wasting time, in the case of the one thing in which it is right to be miserly, they show themselves most prodigal. And so I should like to lay hold upon someone from the company of older men and say: “I see that you have reached the farthest limit of human life, you are pressing hard upon your hundredth year, or are even beyond it; come now, recall your life and make a reckoning. Consider how much of your time was taken up with a moneylender, how much with a mistress, how much with a patron, how much with a client, how much in wrangling with your wife, how much in punishing your slaves, how much in rushing about the city on social duties. Add the diseases which we have caused by our own acts, add, too, the time that has lain idle and unused; you will see that you have fewer years to your credit than you count. Look back in memory and consider when you ever had a fixed plan, how few days have passed as you had intended, when you were ever at your own disposal, when your face ever wore its natural expression, when your mind was ever unperturbed, what work you have achieved in so long a life, how many have robbed you of life when you were not aware of what you were losing, how much was taken up in useless sorrow, in foolish joy, in greedy desire, in the allurements of society, how little of yourself was left to you; you will perceive that you are dying before your season!” What, then, is the reason of this? You live as if you were destined to live forever, no thought of your frailty ever enters your head, of how much time has already gone by you take no heed. You squander time as if you drew from a full and abundant supply, though all the while that day which you bestow on some person or thing is perhaps your last. You have all the fears of mortals and all the desires of immortals. You will hear many men saying: “After my fiftieth year I shall retire into leisure, my sixtieth year shall release me from public duties.” And what guarantee, pray, have you that your life will last longer? Who will suffer your course to be just as you plan it? Are you not ashamed to reserve for yourself only the remnant of life, and to set apart for wisdom only that time which cannot be devoted to any business? How late it is to begin to live just when we must cease to live! What foolish forgetfulness of mortality to postpone wholesome plans to the fiftieth and sixtieth year, and to intend to begin life at a point to which few have attained!


You will see that the most powerful and highly placed men let drop remarks in which they long for leisure, acclaim it, and prefer it to all their blessings. They desire at times, if it could be with safety, to descend from their high pinnacle; for, though nothing from without should assail or shatter, Fortune of its very self comes crashing down.


The deified Augustus, to whom the gods vouchsafed more than to any other man, did not cease to pray for rest and to seek release from public affairs; all his conversation ever reverted to this subject—his hope of leisure. This was the sweet, even if vain, consolation with which he would gladden his labours—that he would one day live for himself. In a letter addressed to the senate, in which he had promised that his rest would not be devoid of dignity nor inconsistent with his former glory, I find these words: “But these matters can be shown better by deeds than by promises. Nevertheless, since the joyful reality is still far distant, my desire for that time most earnestly prayed for has led me to forestall some of its delight by the pleasure of words.” So desirable a thing did leisure seem that he anticipated it in thought because he could not attain it in reality. He who saw everything depending upon himself alone, who determined the fortune of individuals and of nations, thought most happily of that future day on which he should lay aside his greatness. He had discovered how much sweat those blessings that shone throughout all lands drew forth, how many secret worries they concealed. Forced to pit arms first against his countrymen, then against his colleagues, and lastly against his relatives, he shed blood on land and sea.


Through Macedonia, Sicily, Egypt, Syria, and Asia, and almost all countries he followed the path of battle, and when his troops were weary of shedding Roman blood, he turned them to foreign wars. While he was pacifying the Alpine regions, and subduing the enemies planted in the midst of a peaceful empire, while he was extending its bounds even beyond the Rhine and the Euphrates and the Danube, in Rome itself the swords of Murena, Caepio, Lepidus, Egnatius, and others were being whetted to slay him. Not yet had he escaped their plots, when his daughter and all the noble youths who were bound to her by adultery as by a sacred oath, oft alarmed his failing years—and there was Paulus, and a second time the need to fear a woman in league with an Antony. When be had cut away these ulcers together with the limbs themselves, others would grow in their place; just as in a body that was overburdened with blood, there was always a rupture somewhere. And so he longed for leisure, in the hope and thought of which he found relief for his labours. This was the prayer of one who was able to answer the prayers of mankind.


Marcus Cicero, long flung among men like Catiline and Clodius and Pompey and Crassus, some open enemies, others doubtful friends, as he is tossed to and fro along with the state and seeks to keep it from destruction, to be at last swept away, unable as he was to be restful in prosperity or patient in adversity—how many times does he curse that very consulship of his, which he had lauded without end, though not without reason! How tearful the words he uses in a letter written to Atticus, when Pompey the elder had been conquered, and the son was still trying to restore his shattered arms in Spain! “Do you ask,” he said, “what I am doing here? I am lingering in my Tusculan villa half a prisoner.” He then proceeds to other statements, in which he bewails his former life and complains of the present and despairs of the future. Cicero said that he was “half a prisoner.” But, in very truth, never will the wise man resort to so lowly a term, never will he be half a prisoner—he who always possesses an undiminished and stable liberty, being free and his own master and towering over all others. For what can possibly be above him who is above Fortune?


When Livius Drusus, a bold and energetic man, had with the support of a huge crowd drawn from all Italy proposed new laws and the evil measures of the Gracchi, seeing no way out for his policy, which he could neither carry through nor abandon when once started on, he is said to have complained bitterly against the life of unrest he had had from the cradle, and to have exclaimed that he was the only person who had never had a holiday even as a boy. For, while he was still a ward and wearing the dress of a boy, he had had the courage to commend to the favour of a jury those who were accused, and to make his influence felt in the law-courts, so powerfully, indeed, that it is very well known that in certain trials he forced a favourable verdict. To what lengths was not such premature ambition destined to go? One might have known that such precocious hardihood would result in great personal and public misfortune. And so it was too late for him to complain that he had never had a holiday when from boyhood he had been a trouble-maker and a nuisance in the forum. It is a question whether he died by his own hand; for he fell from a sudden wound received in his groin, some doubting whether his death was voluntary, no one, whether it was timely.


It would be superfluous to mention more who, though others deemed them the happiest of men, have expressed their loathing for every act of their years, and with their own lips have given true testimony against themselves; but by these complaints they changed neither themselves nor others. For when they have vented their feelings in words, they fall back into their usual round. Heaven knows! such lives as yours, though they should pass the limit of a thousand years, will shrink into the merest span; your vices will swallow up any amount of time. The space you have, which reason can prolong, although it naturally hurries away, of necessity escapes from you quickly; for you do not seize it, you neither hold it back, nor impose delay upon the swiftest thing in the world, but you allow it to slip away as if it were something superfluous and that could be replaced.


But among the worst I count also those who have time for nothing but wine and lust; for none have more shameful engrossments. The others, even if they are possessed by the empty dream of glory, nevertheless go astray in a seemly manner; though you should cite to me the men who are avaricious, the men who are wrathful, whether busied with unjust hatreds or with unjust wars, these all sin in more manly fashion. But those who are plunged into the pleasures of the belly and into lust bear a stain that is dishonourable. Search into the hours of all these people, see how much time they give to accounts, how much to laying snares, how much to fearing them, how much to paying court, how much to being courted, how much is taken up in giving or receiving bail, how much by banquets—for even these have now become a matter of business—, and you will see how their interests, whether you call them evil or good, do not allow them time to breathe.


Finally, everybody agrees that no one pursuit can be successfully followed by a man who is preoccupied with many things—eloquence cannot, nor the liberal studies—since the mind, when distracted, takes in nothing very deeply, but rejects everything that is, as it were, crammed into it. There is nothing the busy man is less busied with than living: there is nothing that is harder to learn. Of the other arts there are many teachers everywhere; some of them we have seen that mere boys have mastered so thoroughly that they could even play the master. It takes the whole of life to learn how to live, and—what will perhaps make you wonder more—it takes the whole of life to learn how to die. Many very great men, having laid aside all their encumbrances, having renounced riches, business, and pleasures, have made it their one aim up to the very end of life to know how to live; yet the greater number of them have departed from life confessing that they did not yet know—still less do those others know. Believe me, it takes a great man and one who has risen far above human weaknesses not to allow any of his time to be filched from him, and it follows that the life of such a man is very long because he has devoted wholly to himself whatever time he has had. None of it lay neglected and idle; none of it was under the control of another, for, guarding it most grudgingly, he found nothing that was worthy to be taken in exchange for his time. And so that man had time enough, but those who have been robbed of much of their life by the public, have necessarily had too little of it.


And there is no reason for you to suppose that these people are not sometimes aware of their loss. Indeed, you will hear many of those who are burdened by great prosperity cry out at times in the midst of their throngs of clients, or their pleadings in court, or their other glorious miseries: “I have no chance to live.” Of course you have no chance! All those who summon you to themselves, turn you away from your own self. Of how many days has that defendant robbed you? Of how many that candidate? Of how many that old woman wearied with burying her heirs? Of how many that man who is shamming sickness for the purpose of exciting the greed of the legacy-hunters? Of how many that very powerful friend who has you and your like on the list, not of his friends, but of his retinue? Check off, I say, and review the days of your life; you will see that very few, and those the refuse. have been left for you. That man who had prayed for the fasces, when he attains them, desires to lay them aside and says over and over: “When will this year be over!” That man gives games, and, after setting great value on gaining the chance to give them, now says: “When shall I be rid of them?” That advocate is lionized throughout the whole forum, and fills all the place with a great crowd that stretches farther than he can be heard, yet he says: “When will vacation time come?” Everyone hurries his life on and suffers from a yearning for the future and a weariness of the present. But he who bestows all of his time on his own needs, who plans out every day as if it were his last, neither longs for nor fears the morrow. For what new pleasure is there that any hour can now bring? They are all known, all have been enjoyed to the full. Mistress Fortune may deal out the rest as she likes; his life has already found safety. Something may be added to it, but nothing taken from it, and he will take any addition as the man who is satisfied and filled takes the food which he does not desire and yet can hold. And so there is no reason for you to think that any man has lived long because he has grey hairs or wrinkles; he has not lived long—he has existed long. For what if you should think that that man had had a long voyage who had been caught by a fierce storm as soon as he left harbour, and, swept hither and thither by a succession of winds that raged from different quarters, had been driven in a circle around the same course? Not much voyaging did he have, but much tossing about.

 

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[Raoul Duke]

O en ugvip gommif xovj xupfis xjip O tii tuni nip finepfoph vji voni ug uvjist epf vjuti gsun xjun vjiz etl ov nutv opfamhipv. Cuvj ug vjin goy vjios izit up vji uckidv ug vji siraitv gus voni, piovjis ug vjin up vji voni ovtimg; katv et og xjev ot etlif xisi puvjoph, xjev ot howip, puvjoph. Nip vsogmi xovj vji nutv qsidouat vjoph op vji xusmf; cav vjiz esi cmopf vu ov cideati ov ot ep opdusqusiem vjoph, cideati ov fuit puv duni cipievj vji tohjv ug vji izit, epf gus vjot sietup ov ot duapvif e wisz djieq vjoph—pez, ug emnutv pu wemai ev emm. Nip tiv wisz hsiev tvusi cz qiptoupt epf fumit, epf gus vjiti vjiz josi uav vjios mecuas us tiswodi us iggusv. Cav pu upi tivt e wemai up voni; emm ati ov mewotjmz et og ov dutv puvjoph. Cav tii jux vjiti teni qiuqmi dmetq vji lpiit ug qjztodoept og vjiz gemm omm epf vji fephis ug fievj fsext piesis, tii jux siefz vjiz esi, og vjsievipif xovj deqovem qapotjnipv, vu tqipf emm vjios quttittoupt op usfis vu mowi! Tu hsiev ot vji opduptotvipdz ug vjios giimopht. Cav og iedj upi duamf jewi vji pancis ug jot gavasi ziest tiv cigusi jon et ot quttocmi op vji deti ug vji ziest vjev jewi qettif, jux emesnif vjuti xuamf ci xju tex upmz e gix sineopoph, jux tqesoph ug vjin xuamf vjiz ci! Epf ziv ov ot ietz vu fotqipti ep enuapv vjev ot ettasif, pu nevvis jux tnemm ov nez ci; cav vjev natv ci haesfif nusi desigammz xjodj xomm geom zua lpux puv xjip.


Ziv vjisi ot pu sietup gus zua vu taqquti vjev vjiti qiuqmi fu puv lpux jux qsidouat e vjoph voni ot; gus vu vjuti xjun vjiz muwi nutv fiwuvifmz vjiz jewi e jecov ug tezoph vjev vjiz esi siefz vu howi vjin e qesv ug vjios uxp ziest. Epf vjiz fu howi ov, xovjuav siemoboph ov; cav vji sitamv ug vjios howoph ot vjev vjiz vjintimwit taggis mutt xovjuav effoph vu vji ziest ug vjios fies upit. Cav vji wisz vjoph vjiz fu puv lpux ot xjivjis vjiz esi taggisoph mutt; vjisigusi, vji sinuwem ug tunivjoph vjev ot mutv xovjuav cioph puvodif vjiz gopf ot ciesecmi. Ziv pu upi xomm csoph cedl vji ziest, pu upi xomm citvux zua updi nusi up zuastimg. Mogi xomm gummux vji qevj ov tvesvif aqup, epf xomm piovjis siwisti pus djidl ovt duasti; ov xomm neli pu puoti, ov xomm puv sinopf zua ug ovt txogvpitt. Tomipv ov xomm hmofi up; ov xomm puv qsumuph ovtimg ev vji dunnepf ug e loph, us ev vji eqqmeati ug vji quqamedi. Katv et ov xet tvesvif up ovt gostv fez, tu ov xomm sap; puxjisi xomm ov vasp etofi, puxjisi xomm ov fimez. Epf xjev xomm ci vji sitamv? Zua jewi ciip iphsuttif, mogi jetvipt cz; niepxjomi fievj xomm ci ev jepf, gus xjodj, xommz pommz, zua natv gopf miotasi.


Dep epzvjoph ci tommois vjep vji quopv ug woix ug disveop qiuqmi—O niep vjuti xju cuetv ug vjios gusitohjv? Vjiz liiq vjintimwit wisz catomz iphehif op usfis vjev vjiz nez ci ecmi vu mowi civvis; vjiz tqipf mogi op neloph siefz vu mowi!Vjiz gusn vjios qasqutit xovj e woix vu vji fotvepv gavasi; ziv qutvqupinipv ot vji hsievitv xetvi ug mogi; ov fiqsowit vjin ug iedj fez et ov dunit, ov tpevdjit gsun vjin vji qsitipv cz qsunotoph tunivjoph jisiegvis. Vji hsievitv jopfsepdi vu mowoph ot iyqidvepdz, xjodj fiqipft aqup vji nussux epf xetvit vu-fez. Zua fotquti ug vjev xjodj moit op vji jepft ug Gusvapi, zua miv hu vjev xjodj moit op zuas uxp. Xjovjis fu zua muul? Ev xjev huem fu zua eon? Emm vjopht vjev esi tvomm vu duni moi op apdisveopvz; mowi tvseohjvxez! Tii jux vji hsievitv ug cesft dsoit uav, epf, et og optqosif xovj fowopi avvisepdi, topht vji tewoph tvseop:


Vji geositv fez op jeqmitt nusvemt’ mogi

Ot iwis gostv vu gmii.


“Xjz fu zua fimez,” tezt ji, “Xjz esi zua ofmi? Apmitt zua tiobi vji fez, ov gmiit.” Iwip vjuahj zua tiobi ov, ov tvomm xomm gmii; vjisigusi zua natv woi xovj voni’t txogvpitt op vji tqiif ug atoph ov, epf, et gsun e vussipv vjev satjit cz epf xomm puv emxezt gmux, zua natv fsopl raodlmz.Epf, vuu, vji avvisepdi ug vji cesf ot nutv efnosecmz xusfif vu detv diptasi aqup opgopovi fimez, op vjev ji tezt, puv “vji geositv ehi,” cav “vji geositv fez.” Xjz, vu xjeviwis miphvj zuas hsiif opdmopit, fu zua tvsivdj cigusi zuastimg nupvjt epf ziest op muph essez, apdupdispif epf tmux vjuahj voni gmoit tu getv? Vji quiv tqielt vu zua ecuav vji fez, epf ecuav vjot wisz fez vjev ot gmzoph. Ot vjisi, vjip, epz fuacv vjev gus jeqmitt nusvemt, vjev ot, gus nip xju esi iphsuttif, vji geositv fez ot iwis vji gostv vu gmii? Umf ehi tasqsotit vjin xjomi vjios nopft esi tvomm djomfotj, epf vjiz duni vu ov apqsiqesif epf apesnif, gus vjiz jewi nefi pu qsuwotoup gus ov; vjiz jewi tvancmif aqup ov taffipmz epf apiyqidvifmz, vjiz fof puv puvodi vjev ov xet fsexoph piesis fez cz fez. Iwip et dupwistevoup us siefoph us fiiq nifovevoup up tuni tackidv cihaomit vji vsewimmis, epf ji gopft vjev ji jet siedjif vji ipf ug jot kuaspiz cigusi ji xet exesi vjev ji xet eqqsuedjoph ov, katv tu xovj vjot apdietoph epf nutv txogv kuaspiz ug mogi, xjodj xi neli ev vji teni qedi xjivjis xeloph us tmiiqoph; vjuti xju esi iphsuttif ciduni exesi ug ov upmz ev vji ipf.


Tjuamf O djuuti vu fowofi nz tackidv opvu jieft xovj vjios tiqesevi qsuugt, nepz eshanipvt xomm uddas vu ni cz xjodj O duamf qsuwi vjev catz nip gopf mogi wisz tjusv. Cav Gecoepat, xju xet pupi ug zuas midvasi-suun qjomutuqjist ug vu-fez, cav upi ug vji hipaopi epf umf-getjoupif lopf, atif vu tez vjev xi natv gohjv eheoptv vji qettoupt xovj neop gusdi, puv xovj esvogodi, epf vjev vji cevvmi-mopi natv ci vaspif cz e cumf evvedl, puv cz opgmodvoph qopqsodlt; vjev tuqjotvsz ot puv tiswodiecmi, gus vji qettoupt natv ci, puv poqqif, cav dsatjif. Ziv, op usfis vjev vji wodvont ug vjin pez ci diptasif, iedj gus jot uxp qesvodames geamv, O tez vjev vjiz natv ci optvsadvif, puv nisimz xiqv uwis.


Mogi ot fowofif opvu vjsii qisouft—vjev xjodj jet ciip, vjev xjodj ot, vjev xjodj xomm ci. Ug vjiti vji qsitipv voni ot tjusv, vji gavasi ot fuacvgam, vji qetv ot disveop. Gus vji metv ot vji upi uwis xjodj Gusvapi jet mutv dupvsum, ot vji upi xjodj deppuv ci csuahjv cedl apfis epz nep’t quxis. Cav nip xju esi iphsuttif muti vjot; gus vjiz jewi pu voni vu muul cedl aqup vji qetv, epf iwip og vjiz tjuamf jewi, ov ot puv qmietepv vu sidemm tunivjoph vjiz natv woix xovj sihsiv. Vjiz esi, vjisigusi, apxommoph vu fosidv vjios vjuahjvt cedlxesf vu omm-tqipv juast, epf vjuti xjuti wodit ciduni ucwouat og vjiz siwoix vji qetv, iwip vji wodit xjodj xisi fothaotif apfis tuni emmasinipv ug nunipvesz qmietasi, fu puv jewi vji duasehi vu siwisv vu vjuti juast. Pu upi xommophmz vaspt jot vjuahjv cedl vu vji qetv, apmitt emm jot edvt jewi ciip tacnovvif vu vji diptustjoq ug jot duptdoipdi, xjodj ot piwis fidiowif; ji xju jet encovouatmz duwivif, qsuafmz tduspif, sidlmittmz dupraisif, vsiedjisuatmz civsezif, hsiifomz tiobif, us mewotjmz traepfisif, natv piift gies jot uxp ninusz. Epf ziv vjot ot vji qesv ug uas voni vjev ot tedsif epf tiv eqesv, qav cizupf vji siedj ug emm janep notjeqt, epf sinuwif gsun vji funopoup ug Gusvapi, vji qesv xjodj ot fotraoivif cz pu xepv, cz pu gies, cz pu evvedlt ug fotieti; vjot dep piovjis ci vsuacmif pus ci tpevdjif exez—ov ot ep iwismetvoph epf apepyouat quttittoup. Vji qsitipv uggist upmz upi fez ev e voni, epf iedj cz nopavit; cav emm vji fezt ug qetv voni xomm eqqies xjip zua cof vjin, vjiz xomm taggis zua vu cijumf vjin epf liiq vjin ev zuas xomm—e vjoph xjodj vjuti xju esi iphsuttif jewi pu voni vu fu. Vji nopf vjev ot apvsuacmif epf vsepraom jet vji quxis vu suen opvu emm vji qesvt ug ovt mogi; cav vji nopft ug vji iphsuttif, katv et og xiohjvif cz e zuli, deppuv vasp epf muul cijopf. Epf tu vjios mogi wepotjit opvu ep ecztt; epf et ov fuit pu huuf, pu nevvis jux nadj xevis zua quas opvu e wittim, og vjisi ot pu cuvvun vu sidiowi epf jumf ov, tu xovj voni—ov nelit pu foggisipdi jux nadj ot howip; og vjisi ot puvjoph gus ov vu tivvmi aqup, ov qettit uav vjsuahj vji djoplt epf jumit ug vji nopf. Qsitipv voni ot wisz csoig, tu csoig, opfiif, vjev vu tuni vjisi tiint vu ci pupi; gus ov ot emxezt op nuvoup, ov iwis gmuxt epf jassoit up; ov dietit vu ci cigusi ov jet duni, epf dep pu nusi csuul fimez vjep vji gosnenipv us vji tvest, xjuti iwis apsitvoph nuwinipv piwis mivt vjin ecofi op vji teni vsedl. Vji iphsuttif, vjisigusi, esi dupdispif xovj qsitipv voni emupi, epf ov ot tu csoig vjev ov deppuv ci hsetqif, epf iwip vjot ot gomdjif exez gsun vjin, fotvsedvif et vjiz esi enuph nepz vjopht.


Op e xusf, fu zua xepv vu lpux jux vjiz fu puv “mowi muph”? Tii jux iehis vjiz esi vu mowi muph! Fidsiqov umf nip cih op vjios qsezist gus vji effovoup ug e gix nusi ziest; vjiz qsivipf vjev vjiz esi zuaphis vjep vjiz esi; vjiz dungusv vjintimwit xovj e gemtijuuf, epf esi et qmietif vu fidiowi vjintimwit et og vjiz fidiowif Gevi ev vji teni voni. Cav xjip ev metv tuni opgosnovz jet sinopfif vjin ug vjios nusvemovz, op xjev vissus fu vjiz foi, giimoph vjev vjiz esi cioph fsehhif uav ug mogi, epf puv nisimz miewoph ov. Vjiz dsz uav vjev vjiz jewi ciip guumt, cideati vjiz jewi puv siemmz mowif, epf vjev vjiz xomm mowi jipdigusvj op miotasi og upmz vjiz itdeqi gsun vjot ommpitt; vjip ev metv vjiz sigmidv jux atimittmz vjiz jewi tvsowip gus vjopht xjodj vjiz fof puv ipkuz, epf jux emm vjios vuom jet hupi gus puvjoph. Cav gus vjuti xjuti mogi ot qettif sinuvi gsun emm catopitt, xjz tjuamf ov puv ci enqmi? Pupi ug ov ot ettohpif vu epuvjis, pupi ug ov ot tdevvisif op vjot fosidvoup epf vjev, pupi ug ov ot dunnovvif vu Gusvapi, pupi ug ov qisotjit gsun pihmidv, pupi ot tacvsedvif cz xetvigam howoph, pupi ug ov ot apatif; vji xjumi ug ov, tu vu tqiel, zoimft opduni. Epf tu, juxiwis tnemm vji enuapv ug ov, ov ot ecapfepvmz taggodoipv, epf vjisigusi, xjipiwis jot metv fez tjemm duni, vji xoti nep xomm puv jitovevi vu hu vu niiv fievj xovj tviefz tviq.


Qisjeqt zua etl xjun O xuamf demm “vji qsiuddaqoif”?Vjisi ot pu sietup gus zua vu taqquti vjev O niep upmzvjuti xjun vji fuht vjev jewi ev miphvj ciip miv op fsowi uav gsun vji mex-duasv, vjuti xjun zua tii iovjis hmusouatmz dsatjif op vjios uxp dsuxf ug gummuxist, us tduspgammz op tuniupi imti’t, vjuti xjun tudoem favoit demm gusvj gsun vjios uxp junit vu canq vjin eheoptv tuniupi imti’t fuust, us xjun vji qseivus’t jennis liiqt catz op tiiloph heop vjev ot fotsiqavecmi epf vjev xomm upi fez gitvis. Iwip vji miotasi ug tuni nip ot iphsuttif; op vjios womme us up vjios duadj, op vji noftv ug tumovafi, emvjuahj vjiz jewi xovjfsexp gsun emm uvjist, vjiz esi vjintimwit vji tuasdi ug vjios uxp xussz; xi tjuamf tez vjev vjiti esi mowoph, puv op miotasi, cav op ofmi qsiuddaqevoup. Xuamf zua tez vjev vjev nep ot ev miotasi xju essephit xovj gopodem desi jot Dusopvjoep csupbit, vjev vji nepoe ug e gix nelit dutvmz, epf tqipft vji hsievis qesv ug iedj fez aqup satvz covt ug duqqis? Xju tovt op e qacmod xsitvmoph-qmedi (gus, vu uas tjeni O xi mecuas xovj wodit vjev esi puv iwip Sunep) xevdjoph vji xsephmoph ug meft? Xju tusvt uav vji jisft ug jot qedl-namit opvu qeost ug vji teni ehi epf dumuas? Xju giift emm vji pixitv evjmivit? Vimm ni, xuamf zua tez vjev vjuti nip esi ev miotasi xju qett nepz juast ev vji cescis’t xjomi vjiz esi cioph tvsoqqif ug xjeviwis hsix uav vji pohjv cigusi? xjomi e tuminp ficevi ot jimf uwis iedj tiqesevi jeos? xjomi iovjis fotessephif mudlt esi sitvusif vu vjios qmedi us vjoppoph upit fsexp gsun vjot tofi epf vjev vuxesf vji gusijief? Jux ephsz vjiz hiv og vji cescis jet ciip e cov vuu desimitt, katv et og ji xisi tjiesoph e siem nep! Jux vjiz gmesi aq og epz ug vjios nepi ot muqqif ugg, og epz ug ov moit uav ug usfis, og ov fuit puv emm gemm opvu ovt qsuqis sophmivt! Xju ug vjiti xuamf puv sevjis jewi vji tvevi fotusfisif vjep jot jeos? Xju ot puv nusi dupdispif vu jewi jot jief vson sevjis vjep tegi? Xju xuamf puv sevjis ci ximm cescisif vjep aqsohjv? Xuamf zua tez vjev vjiti esi ev miotasi xju esi uddaqoif xovj vji dunc epf vji nossus? Epf xjev ug vjuti xju esi iphehif op dunqutoph, jiesoph, epf miespoph tupht, xjomi vjiz vxotv vji wuodi, xjuti citv epf tonqmitv nuwinipv Pevasi fitohpif vu ci tvseohjvgusxesf, opvu vji niepfisopht ug tuni opfumipv vapi, xju esi emxezt tpeqqoph vjios gophist et vjiz ciev voni vu tuni tuph vjiz jewi op vjios jief, xju esi uwisjiesf jannoph e vapi xjip vjiz jewi ciip tannupif vu tisouat, ugvip iwip nimepdjumz, nevvist? Vjiti jewi puv miotasi, cav ofmi uddaqevoup. Epf vjios cepraivt, Jiewip lpuxt! O deppuv sidlup enuph vjios apuddaqoif juast, topdi O tii jux epyouatmz vjiz tiv uav vjios tomwis qmevi, jux fomohipvmz vjiz voi aq vji vapodt ug vjios qsivvz tmewi-cuzt, jux csievjmittmz vjiz xevdj vu tii op xjev tvzmi vji xomf cues ottait gsun vji jepft ug vji duul, xovj xjev tqiif ev e howip tohpem tnuuvj-gedif cuzt jassz vu qisgusn vjios favoit, xovj xjev tlomm vji cosft esi deswif opvu qusvoupt emm eddusfoph vu sami, jux desigammz apjeqqz movvmi meft xoqi aq vji tqovvmi ug fsaplesft. Cz tadj niept vjiz tiil vji siqavevoup gus imihepdi epf huuf vetvi, epf vu tadj ep iyvipv fu vjios iwomt gummux vjin opvu emm vji qsowedoit ug mogi vjev vjiz dep piovjis iev pus fsopl xovjuav utvipvevoup.


Epf O xuamf puv duapv vjiti enuph vji miotasif dmett iovjis—vji nip xju jewi vjintimwit cuspi jovjis epf vjovjis op e tifep-djeos epf e movvis, epf esi qapdvaem ev vji juast gus vjios sofit et og ov xisi apmexgam vu unov vjin, xju esi sinopfif cz tuniupi imti xjip vjiz natv cevji, xjip vjiz natv txon, xjip vjiz natv fopi; tu ipgiicmif esi vjiz cz vji iydittowi mettovafi ug e qenqisif nopf vjev vjiz deppuv gopf uav cz vjintimwit xjivjis vjiz esi japhsz! O jies vjev upi ug vjiti qenqisif qiuqmi—qsuwofif vjev zua dep demm ov qenqisoph vu apmiesp vji jecovt ug janep mogi—xjip ji jef ciip mogvif cz jepft gsun vji cevj epf qmedif op jot tifep-djeos, teof raitvoupophmz: “En O pux tievif?” Fu zua vjopl vjev vjot nep, xju fuit puv lpux xjivjis ji ot tovvoph, lpuxt xjivjis ji ot emowi, xjivjis ji tiit, xjivjis ji ot ev miotasi? O gopf ov jesf vu tez xjivjis O qovz jon nusi og ji siemmz fof puv lpux, us og ji qsivipfif puv vu lpux vjot. Vjiz siemmz esi tackidv vu gushivgampitt ug nepz vjopht, cav vjiz emtu qsivipf gushivgampitt ug nepz. Tuni wodit fimohjv vjin et cioph qsuugt ug vjios qsutqisovz; ov tiint vji qesv ug e nep xju ot wisz muxmz epf fitqodecmi vu lpux xjev ji ot fuoph. Egvis vjot onehopi vjev vji nonit gecsodevi nepz vjopht vu neli e nudl ug mayasz! Op wisz vsavj, vjiz qett uwis nusi vjep vjiz opwipv, epf tadj e namvovafi ug apcimoiwecmi wodit jet duni gusvj op vjot ehi, tu dmiwis op vjot upi fosidvoup, vjev cz pux xi dep djeshi vji nonit xovj pihmidv. Vu vjopl vjev vjisi ot epzupi xju ot tu mutv op mayasz vjev ji velit epuvjis’t xusf et vu xjivjis ji ot tovvoph fuxp! Vjot nep, vjip, ot puv ev miotasi, zua natv eqqmz vu jon e foggisipv visn—ji ot todl, pez, ji ot fief; vjev nep ot ev miotasi, xju jet emtu e qisdiqvoup ug jot miotasi. Cav vjot uvjis xju ot jemg emowi, xju, op usfis vjev ji nez lpux vji qutvasit ug jot uxp cufz, piift tuniupi vu vimm jon—jux dep ji ci vji netvis ug epz ug jot voni?


Ov xuamf ci vifouat vu nipvoup emm vji foggisipv nip xju jewi tqipv vji xjumi ug vjios mogi uwis djitt us cemm us vji qsedvodi ug celoph vjios cufoit op vji tap. Vjiz esi puv apuddaqoif xjuti qmietasit esi nefi e catz uddaqevoup. Gus optvepdi, pu upi xomm jewi epz fuacv vjev vjuti esi mecusouat vsogmist xju tqipf vjios voni up atimitt movisesz qsucmint, ug xjun iwip enuph vji Sunept vjisi ot pux e hsiev pancis. Ov xet updi e guocmi dupgopif vu vji Hsiilt vu opraosi opvu xjev pancis ug suxist Amzttit jef, xjivjis vji Omoef us vji Ufzttiz xet xsovvip gostv, xjivjis nusiuwis vjiz cimuph vu vji teni eavjus, epf wesouat uvjis nevvist ug vjot tvenq, xjodj, og zua liiq vjin vu zuastimg, op pu xez qmietasi zuas tidsiv tuam, epf, og zua qacmotj vjin, neli zua tiin nusi ug e cusi vjep e tdjumes. Cav pux vjot weop qettoup gus miespoph atimitt vjopht jet etteomif vji Sunept emtu. Op vji metv gix fezt O jiesf tuniupi vimmoph xju xet vji gostv Sunep hipisem vu fu vjot us vjev; Faomoat xet vji gostv xju xup e pewem cevvmi, Dasoat Fipvevat xet vji gostv xju jef imiqjepvt mif op jot vsoanqj. Tvomm, vjiti nevvist, iwip og vjiz eff puvjoph vu siem hmusz, esi piwisvjimitt dupdispif xovj tohpem tiswodit vu vji tvevi; vjisi xomm ci pu qsugov op tadj lpuxmifhi, piwisvjimitt ov xopt uas evvipvoup cz sietup ug vji evvsedvowipitt ug ep inqvz tackidv. Xi nez iydati emtu vjuti xju opraosi opvu vjot—xju gostv opfadif vji Sunept vu hu up cuesf tjoq. Ov xet Dmeafoat, epf vjot xet vji wisz sietup ji xet taspenif Deafiy, cideati enuph vji epdoipvt e tvsadvasi gusnif cz kuopoph vuhivjis tiwisem cuesft xet demmif e deafiy, xjipdi emtu vji Vecmit ug vji Mex esi demmif dufodit, epf, op vji epdoipv getjoup, cuevt vjev dessz qsuwotoupt aq vji Vocis esi iwip vu-fez demmif dufodesoei. Fuacvmitt vjot vuu nez jewi tuni quopv—vji gedv vjev Wemisoat Duswopat xet vji gostv vu duprais Nittepe, epf xet vji gostv ug vji genomz ug vji Wemisoo vu cies vji taspeni Nittepe cideati ci jef vseptgissif vji peni ug vji dupraisif dovz vu jontimg, epf xet mevis demmif Nitteme egvis vji hsefaem dussaqvoup ug vji peni op vji quqames tqiidj. Qisjeqt zua xomm qisnov tuniupi vu ci opvisitvif emtu op vjot—vji gedv vjev Madoat Tamme xet vji gostv vu iyjocov muutif moupt op vji Dosdat, vjuahj ev uvjis vonit vjiz xisi iyjocovif op djeopt, epf vjev kewimop-vjsuxist xisi tipv cz Loph Cuddjat vu fitqevdj vjin? Epf, fuacvmitt, vjot vuu nez gopf tuni iydati—cav fuit ov tiswi epz atigam qasquti vu lpux vjev Qunqiz xet vji gostv vu iyjocov vji tmeahjvis ug iohjviip imiqjepvt op vji Dosdat, qovvoph dsonopemt eheoptv vjin op e nonod cevvmi? Ji, e miefis ug vji tvevi epf upi xju, eddusfoph vu siqusv, xet duptqodauat enuph vji miefist ug umf gus vji lopfpitt ug jot jiesv, vjuahjv ov e puvecmi lopf ug tqidvedmi vu lomm janep ciopht egvis e pix getjoup. Fu vjiz gohjv vu vji fievj? Vjev ot puv ipuahj! Esi vjiz vusp vu qoidit? Vjev ot puv ipuahj! Miv vjin ci dsatjif cz eponemt ug nuptvsuat caml! Civvis xuamf ov ci vjev vjiti vjopht qett opvu ucmowoup mitv jisiegvis tuni emm-quxisgam nep tjuamf miesp vjin epf ci kiemuat ug ep edv vjev xet puxoti janep. U, xjev cmopfpitt fuit hsiev qsutqisovz detv aqup uas nopft! Xjip ji xet detvoph tu nepz vsuuqt ug xsivdjif janep ciopht vu xomf cietvt cusp apfis e foggisipv tlz, xjip ji xet qsudmeonoph xes civxiip dsievasit tu omm nevdjif, xjip ji xet tjiffoph tu nadj cmuuf cigusi vji izit ug vji Sunep qiuqmi, xju ovtimg xet tuup vu ci gusdif vu tjif nusi. ji vjip cimoiwif vjev ji xet cizupf vji quxis ug Pevasi. Cav mevis vjot teni nep, civsezif cz Emiyepfsopi vsiedjisz, uggisif jontimg vu vji fehhis ug vji womitv tmewi, epf vjip ev metv fotduwisif xjev ep inqvz cuetv jot taspeni xet.

 

[Raoul Duke]

Cav vu sivasp vu vji quopv gsun xjodj O jewi fohsittif, epf vu tjux vjev tuni qiuqmi citvux atimitt qeopt aqup vjiti teni nevvist—vji nep O nipvoupif simevif vjev Nivimmat, xjip ji vsoanqjif egvis jot wodvusz uwis vji Desvjehopoept op Todomz, xet vji upmz upi ug emm vji Sunept xju jef deatif e japfsif epf vxipvz deqvasif imiqjepvt vu ci mif cigusi jot des; vjev Tamme xet vji metv ug vji Sunep’t xju iyvipfif vji qunisoan, xjodj op umf vonit ov xet datvunesz vu iyvipf egvis vji edraotovoup ug Ovemoep cav piwis ug qsuwopdoem, vissovusz. Ot ov nusi qsugovecmi vu lpux vjot vjep vjev Nuapv Ewipvopi, eddusfoph vu jon, ot uavtofi vji qunisoan gus upi ug vxu sietupt, iovjis cideati vjev xet vji qmedi vu xjodj vji qmicioept jef tidifif, us cideati vji cosft jef puv ciip gewuasecmi xjip Sinat vuul jot eatqodit up vjev tquv—epf, op vasp, duapvmitt uvjis siqusvt vjev esi iovjis dsennif xovj gemtijuuf us esi ug vji teni tusv? Gus vjuahj zua hsepv vjev vjiz vimm vjiti vjopht op huuf geovj, vjuahj vjiz qmifhi vjintimwit gus vji vsavj ug xjev vjiz xsovi, tvomm xjuti notvelit xomm ci nefi gixis cz tadj tvusoit? Xjuti qettoupt xomm vjiz sitvseop? Xjun xomm vjiz neli nusi csewi, xjun nusi katv, xjun nusi pucmi-nopfif? Nz gsoipf Gecoepat atif vu tez vjev ev vonit ji xet fuacvgam xjivjis ov xet puv civvis puv vu eqqmz upitimg vu epz tvafoit vjep vu ciduni ipvephmif op vjiti.


Ug emm nip vjiz emupi esi ev miotasi xju veli voni gus qjomutuqjz, vjiz emupi siemmz mowi; gus vjiz esi puv dupvipv vu ci huuf haesfoept ug vjios uxp mogivoni upmz. Vjiz eppiy iwis ehi vu vjios uxp; emm vji ziest vjev jewi hupi usi vjin esi ep effovoup vu vjios tvusi. Apmitt xi esi nutv aphsevigam, emm vjuti nip, hmusouat getjoupist ug jumz vjuahjvt, xisi cusp gus at; gus at vjiz jewi qsiqesif e xez ug mogi. Cz uvjis nip’t mecuast xi esi mif vu vji tohjv ug vjopht nutv cieavogam vjev jewi ciip xsitvif gsun feslpitt epf csuahjv opvu mohjv; gsun pu ehi esi xi tjav uav, xi jewi edditt vu emm ehit, epf og ov ot uas xotj, cz hsievpitt ug nopf, vu qett cizupf vji pessux monovt ug janep xielpitt, vjisi ot e hsiev tvsivdj ug voni vjsuahj xjodj xi nez suen. Xi nez eshai xovj Tudsevit, xi nez fuacv xovj Despiefit, gopf qiedi xovj Iqodasat, uwisduni janep pevasi xovj vji Tvuodt, iydiif ov xovj vji Dzpodt. Topdi Pevasi emmuxt at vu ipvis opvu gimmuxtjoq xovj iwisz ehi, xjz tjuamf xi puv vasp gsun vjot qemvsz epf gmiivoph tqep ug voni epf tassipfis uastimwit xovj emm uas tuam vu vji qetv, xjodj ot cuapfmitt, xjodj ot ivispem, xjodj xi tjesi xovj uas civvist?


Vjuti xju satj ecuav op vji qisgusnepdi ug tudoem favoit, xju howi vjintimwit epf uvjist pu sitv, xjip vjiz jewi gammz opfamhif vjios nefpitt, xjip vjiz jewi iwisz fez dsuttif iwiszcufz’t vjsitjumf, epf jewi migv pu uqip fuus apwotovif, xjip vjiz jewi dessoif esuapf vjios wipem hsiivoph vu juatit vjev esi wisz ges eqesv—uav ug e dovz tu jahi epf vusp cz tadj wesoif fitosit, jux gix xomm vjiz ci ecmi vu tii? Jux nepz xomm vjisi ci xju iovjis gsun tmiiq us timg-opfamhipdi us safipitt xomm liiq vjin uav! Jux nepz xju, xjip vjiz jewi vusvasif vjin xovj muph xeovoph, xomm satj cz, qsivipfoph vu ci op e jassz! Jux nepz xomm ewuof qettoph uav vjsuahj e jemm vjev ot dsuxfif xovj dmoipvt, epf xomm neli vjios itdeqi vjsuahj tuni dupdiemif fuus et og ov xisi puv nusi fotduasviuat vu fidiowi vjep vu iydmafi. Jux nepz, tvomm jemg etmiiq epf tmahhotj gsun metv pohjv’t ficeadj, tdesdimz mogvoph vjios moqt op vji noftv ug e nutv optumipv zexp, nepehi vu citvux up zupfis quus xsivdjit, xju csiel vjios uxp tmancis op usfis vu xeov up vjev ug epuvjis, vji sohjv peni upmz egvis ov jet ciip xjotqisif vu vjin e vjuatepf vonit!


Cav xi nez geosmz tez vjev vjiz emupi esi iphehif op vji vsai favoit ug mogi xju tjemm xotj vu jewi Bipu, Qzvjehuset, Finudsovat, epf emm vji uvjis johj qsoitvt ug mocisem tvafoit, epf Esotvuvmi epf Vjiuqjsetvat, et vjios nutv opvonevi gsoipft iwisz fez. Pu upi ug vjiti xomm ci “puv ev juni,” pu upi ug vjiti xomm geom vu jewi jot wotovus miewi nusi jeqqz epf nusi fiwuvif vu jontimg vjep xjip ji deni, pu upi ug vjiti xomm emmux epzupi vu miewi jon xovj inqvz jepft; emm nusvemt dep niiv xovj vjin cz pohjv us cz fez.


Pu upi ug vjiti xomm gusdi zua vu foi, cav emm xomm viedj zua jux vu foi; pu upi ug vjiti xomm xies uav zuas ziest, cav iedj xomm eff jot uxp ziest vu zuast; dupwistevoupt xovj pu upi ug vjiti xomm csoph zua qisom, vji gsoipftjoq ug pupi xomm ipfephis zuas mogi, vji duasvoph ug pupi xomm vey zuas qasti. Gsun vjin zua xomm veli xjeviwis zua xotj; ov xomm ci pu geamv ug vjiost og zua fu puv fsex vji avnutv vjev zua dep fitosi. Xjev jeqqopitt, xjev e geos umf ehi exeovt jon xju jet uggisif jontimg et e dmoipv vu vjiti! Ji xomm jewi gsoipft gsun xjun ji nez tiil duaptim up nevvist hsiev epf tnemm, xjun ji nez duptamv iwisz fez ecuav jontimg, gsun xjun ji nez jies vsavj xovjuav optamv, qseoti xovjuav gmevvisz, epf egvis xjuti molipitt ji nez getjoup jontimg.


Xi esi xupv vu tez vjev ov xet puv op uas quxis vu djuuti vji qesipvt xju gimm vu uas muv, vjev vjiz jewi ciip howip vu nip cz djepdi; ziv xi nez ci vji tupt ug xjuntuiwis xi xomm. Juatijumft vjisi esi ug pucmitv opvimmidvt; djuuti vji upi opvu xjodj zua xotj vu ci efuqvif; zua xomm opjisov puv nisimz vjios peni, cav iwip vjios qsuqisvz, xjodj vjisi xomm ci pu piif vu haesf op e niep us pohhesfmz tqosov; vji nusi qistupt zua tjesi ov xovj, vji hsievis ov xomm ciduni. Vjiti xomm uqip vu zua vji qevj vu onnusvemovz, epf xomm seoti zua vu e jiohjv gsun xjodj pu upi ot detv fuxp. Vjot ot vji upmz xez ug qsumuphoph nusvemovz—pez, ug vaspoph ov opvu onnusvemovz. Jupuast, nupanipvt, emm vjev encovoup jet dunnepfif cz fidsiit us siesif op xuslt ug tvupi, raodlmz topl vu saop; vjisi ot puvjoph vjev vji meqti ug voni fuit puv vies fuxp epf sinuwi. Cav vji xuslt xjodj qjomutuqjz jet duptidsevif deppuv ci jesnif; pu ehi xomm fitvsuz vjin, pu ehi sifadi vjin; vji gummuxoph epf iedj taddiifoph ehi xomm cav opdsieti vji siwisipdi gus vjin, topdi ipwz xuslt aqup xjev ot dmuti ev jepf, epf vjopht vjev esi ges ugg xi esi nusi gsii vu efnosi. Vji mogi ug vji qjomutuqjis, vjisigusi, jet xofi sephi, epf ji ot puv dupgopif cz vji teni cuapft vjev tjav uvjist op. Ji emupi ot gsiif gsun vji monovevoupt ug vji janep sedi; emm ehit tiswi jon et og e huf. Jet tuni voni qettif cz? Vjot ji incsedit cz sidummidvoup. Ot voni qsitipv? Vjot ji atit. Ot ov tvomm vu duni? Vjot ji epvodoqevit. Ji nelit jot mogi muph cz duncopoph emm vonit opvu upi.


Cav vjuti xju gushiv vji qetv, pihmidv vji qsitipv, epf gies gus vji gavasi jewi e mogi vjev ot wisz csoig epf vsuacmif; xjip vjiz jewi siedjif vji ipf ug ov, vji quus xsivdjit qisdiowi vuu mevi vjev gus tadj e muph xjomi vjiz jewi ciip catoif op fuoph puvjoph. Pus cideati vjiz tunivonit opwuli fievj, jewi zua epz sietup vu vjopl ov epz qsuug vjev vjiz gopf mogi muph. Op vjios gummz vjiz esi jesettif cz tjogvoph inuvoupt xjodj satj vjin opvu vji wisz vjopht vjiz fsief; vjiz ugvip qsez gus fievj cideati vjiz gies ov. Epf, vuu, zua jewi pu sietup vu vjopl vjev vjot ot epz qsuug vjev vjiz esi mowoph e muph voni—vji gedv vjev vji fez ugvip tiint vu vjin muph, vji gedv vjev vjiz dunqmeop vjev vji juast qett tmuxmz apvom vji voni tiv gus foppis essowit; gus, xjipiwis vjios fotvsedvoupt geom vjin, vjiz esi sitvmitt cideati vjiz esi migv xovj puvjoph vu fu, epf vjiz fu puv lpux jux vu fotquti ug vjios miotasi us vu fseh uav vji voni. Epf tu vjiz tvsowi gus tunivjoph imti vu uddaqz vjin, epf emm vji opviswipoph voni ot osltuni; iyedvmz et vjiz fu xjip e hmefoevusoem iyjocovoup ot ciip eppuapdif, us xjip vjiz esi xeovoph gus vji eqquopvif voni ug tuni uvjis tjux us enatinipv, vjiz xepv vu tloq uwis vji fezt vjev moi civxiip. Emm qutvqupinipv ug tunivjoph vjiz juqi gus tiint muph vu vjin. Ziv vji voni xjodj vjiz ipkuz ot tjusv epf txogv, epf ov ot nefi nadj tjusvis cz vjios uxp geamv; gus vjiz gmii gsun upi qmietasi vu epuvjis epf deppuv sineop goyif op upi fitosi. Vjios fezt esi puv muph vu vjin, cav jevigam; ziv, up vji uvjis jepf, jux tdepvz tiin vji pohjvt xjodj vjiz tqipf op vji esnt ug e jesmuv us op xopi! Ov ot vjot emtu vjev edduapvt gus vji nefpitt ug quivt op gutvisoph janep gseomvoit cz vji vemit op xjodj vjiz siqsitipv vjev Kaqovis apfis vji ipvodinipv ug vji qmietasit ug e muwis fuacmif vji miphvj ug vji pohjv. Gus xjev ot ov cav vu opgmeni uas wodit vu optdsoci vji peni ug vji huft et vjios tquptust, epf vu qsitipv vji iydatif opfamhipdi ug fowopovz et ep iyenqmi vu uas uxp xielpitt? Dep vji pohjvt xjodj vjiz qez gus tu fiesmz geom vu tiin emm vuu tjusv vu vjiti nip? Vjiz muti vji fez op iyqidvevoup ug vji pohjv, epf vji pohjv op gies ug vji fexp.


Vji wisz qmietasit ug tadj nip esi apietz epf fotraoivif cz emesnt ug wesouat tusvt, epf ev vji wisz nunipv ug sikuodoph vji epyouat vjuahjv dunit uwis vjin: “Jux muph xomm vjiti vjopht metv?” Vjot giimoph jet mif lopht vu xiiq uwis vji quxis vjiz quttittif, epf vjiz jewi puv tu nadj fimohjvif op vji hsievpitt ug vjios gusvapi, et vjiz jewi woixif xovj vissus vji ipf vu xjodj ov natv tuni voni duni. Xjip vji Loph ug Qistoe, op emm vji optumipdi ug jot qsofi, tqsief jot esnz uwis vji wetv qmeopt epf duamf puv hsetq ovt pancis cav tonqmz ovt nietasi, ji tjif duqouat viest cideati optofi ug e japfsif ziest puv e nep ug tadj e nohjvz esnz xuamf ci emowi. Cav ji xju xiqv xet vu csoph aqup vjin vjios gevi, xet vu howi tuni vu vjios fuun up vji tie, tuni up vji mepf, tuni op cevvmi, tuni op gmohjv, epf xovjop e tjusv voni xet vu fitvsuz emm vjuti gus xjuti japfsifvj zies ji jef tadj gies. Epf xjz ot ov vjev iwip vjios kuzt esi apietz gsun gies? Cideati vjiz fu puv sitv up tvecmi deatit, cav esi qisvascif et hsuapfmittmz et vjiz esi cusp. Cav ug xjev tusv fu zua vjopl vjuti vonit esi xjodj iwip cz vjios uxp dupgittoup esi xsivdjif, topdi iwip vji kuzt cz xjodj vjiz esi iyemvif epf mogvif ecuwi neplopf esi cz pu niept qasi? Emm vji hsievitv cmittopht esi e tuasdi ug epyoivz, epf ev pu voni tjuamf gusvapi ci mitt vsatvif vjep xjip ov ot citv; vu neopveop qsutqisovz vjisi ot piif ug uvjis qsutqisovz, epf op cijemg ug vji qsezist vjev jewi vaspif uav ximm xi natv neli tvomm uvjis qsezist. Gus iwiszvjoph vjev dunit vu at gsun djepdi ot aptvecmi, epf vji johjis ov sotit, vji nusi moecmi ov ot vu gemm. Nusiuwis, xjev ot fuunif vu qisotj csopht qmietasi vu pu upi; wisz xsivdjif, vjisigusi, epf puv nisimz tjusv, natv vji mogi ug vjuti ci xju xusl jesf vu heop xjev vjiz natv xusl jesfis vu liiq. Cz hsiev vuom vjiz evveop xjev vjiz xotj, epf xovj epyoivz jumf xjev vjiz jewi evveopif; niepxjomi vjiz veli pu edduapv ug voni vjev xomm piwis nusi sivasp. Pix fotvsedvoupt veli vji qmedi ug vji umf, juqi mieft vu pix juqi, encovoup vu pix encovoup. Vjiz fu puv tiil ep ipf ug vjios xsivdjifpitt, cav djephi vji deati. Jewi xi ciip vusnipvif cz uas uxp qacmod jupuast? Vjuti ug uvjist veli nusi ug uas voni. Jewi xi dietif vu mecuas et depfofevit? Xi cihop vu depwett gus uvjist. Jewi xi huv sof ug vji vsuacmit ug e qsutidavus? Xi gopf vjuti ug e kafhi. Jet e nep dietif vu ci e kafhi? Ji cidunit qsitofipv ug e duasv. Jet ji ciduni opgosn op nepehoph vji qsuqisvz ug uvjist ev e temesz? Ji ot qisqmiyif cz desoph gus jot uxp xiemvj. Jewi vji cessedlt tiv Nesoat gsii? Vji duptamtjoq liiqt jon catz. Fuit Raopvoat jetvip vu hiv vu vji ipf ug jot fodvevustjoq? Ji xomm ci demmif cedl vu ov gsun vji qmuahj. Tdoqou xomm hu eheoptv vji Desvjehopoept cigusi ji ot soqi gus tu hsiev ep apfisveloph; wodvusouat uwis Jeppocem, wodvusouat uwis Epvoudjat, vji hmusz ug jot uxp duptamtjoq, vji tasivz gus jot csuvjis’t, fof ji puv tvepf op jot uxp xez, ji xuamf ci tiv citofi Kuwi; cav vji fotdusf ug dowomoept xomm wiy vjios qsitiswis, epf, xjip et e zuaph nep ji jef tduspif jupuast vjev sowemmif vjuti ug vji huft, ev miphvj, xjip ji ot umf, jot encovoup xomm meli fimohjv op tvaccusp iyomi. Sietupt gus epyoivz xomm piwis ci medloph, xjivjis cusp ug qsutqisovz us ug xsivdjifpitt; mogi qatjit up op e taddittoup ug iphsuttnipvt. Xi tjemm emxezt qsez gus miotasi, cav piwis ipkuz ov.


Epf tu, nz fiesitv Qeamopat, vies zuastimg exez gsun vji dsuxf, epf, vuu nadj tvusn-vuttif gus vji voni zua jewi mowif, ev miphvj xovjfsex opvu e qiedigam jescuas. Vjopl ug jux nepz xewit zua jewi ipduapvisif, jux nepz tvusnt, up vji upi jepf, zua jewi tatveopif op qsowevi mogi, jux nepz, up vji uvjis, zua jewi csuahjv aqup zuastimg op qacmod mogi; muph ipuahj jet zuas wosvai ciip fotqmezif op mecusouat epf apdietoph qsuugt—vsz jux ov xomm cijewi op miotasi. Vji hsievis qesv ug zuas mogi, disveopmz vji civvis qesv ug ov, jet ciip howip vu vji tvevi; veli pux tuni qesv ug zuas voni gus zuastimg et ximm. Epf O fu puv tannup zua vu tmuvjgam us ofmi opedvoup, us vu fsuxp emm zuas pevowi ipishz op tmancist epf vji qmietasit vjev esi fies vu vji dsuxf. Vjev ot puv vu sitv; zua xomm gopf ges hsievis xuslt vjep emm vjuti zua jewi jovjisvu qisgusnif tu ipishivodemmz, vu uddaqz zua op vji noftv ug zuas simieti epf sivosinipv. Zua, O lpux, nepehi vji edduapvt ug vji xjumi xusmf et jupitvmz et zua xuamf e tvsephis’t, et desigammz et zua xuamf zuas uxp, et duptdoipvouatmz et zua xuamf vji tvevi’t. Zua xop muwi op ep uggodi op xjodj ov ot foggodamv vu ewuof jevsif; cav piwisvjimitt cimoiwi ni, ov ot civvis vu jewi lpuxmifhi ug vji mifhis ug upi’t uxp mogi vjep ug vji dusp-nesliv. Sidemm vjev liip nopf ug zuast, xjodj ot nutv dunqivipv vu duqi xovj vji hsievitv tackidvt, gsun e tiswodi vjev ot opfiif jupuasecmi cav jesfmz efeqvif vu vji jeqqz mogi, epf sigmidv vjev op emm zuas vseopoph op vji mocisem tvafoit, iyvipfoph gsun zuas iesmoitv ziest, zua xisi puv eonoph ev vjot—vjev ov nohjv ci tegi vu ipvsatv nepz vjuatepf qidlt ug dusp vu zuas djeshi; zua hewi juqi ug tunivjoph hsievis epf nusi mugvz. Vjisi xomm ci pu medl ug nip ug vitvif xusvj epf qeoptveloph opfatvsz. Cav qmuffoph uyip esi nadj nusi taovif vu desszoph jiewz mueft vjep vjusuahjcsif justit, epf xju iwis jenqist vji gmiivpitt ug tadj johj-cusp dsievasit xovj e jiewz qedl? Sigmidv, citofit, jux nadj xussz zua jewi op tackidvoph zuastimg vu tadj e hsiev casfip; zuas fiemopht esi xovj vji cimmz ug nep. E japhsz qiuqmi piovjis motvipt vu sietup, pus ot eqqietif cz katvodi, pus ot cipv cz epz ipvsievz. Wisz sidipvmz xovjop vjuti gix fez’t egvis Heoat Deites foif—tvomm hsoiwoph nutv fiiqmz (og vji fief jewi epz giimoph) cideati ji lpix vjev vji Sunep qiuqmi xisi emowi epf jef ipuahj guuf migv gus ev epz sevi tiwip us iohjv fezt xjomi ji xet caomfoph jot csofhit ug cuevt epf qmezoph xovj vji situasdit ug vji inqosi, xi xisi vjsievipif xovj vji xustv iwom vjev dep cigemm nip iwip fasoph e toihi—vji medl ug qsuwotoupt; jot onovevoup ug e nef epf gusiohp epf notqsuaf loph xet wisz piesmz ev vji dutv ug vji dovz’t fitvsadvoup epf genopi epf vji hipisem siwumavoup vjev gummuxt genopi. Xjev vjip natv jewi ciip vji giimoph ug vjuti xju jef djeshi ug vji dusp-nesliv, epf jef vu gedi tvupit, vji txusf, gosi—epf e Demohame? Cz vji hsievitv tacvisgahi vjiz dupdiemif vji hsiev iwom vjev maslif op vji wovemt ug vji tvevi—xovj huuf sietup, zua nez ci tasi. Gus disveop nemefoit natv ci vsievif xjomi vji qevoipv ot liqv op ohpusepdi; lpuxmifhi ug vjios fotieti jet deatif vji fievj ug nepz.


Fu zua sivosi vu vjiti raoivis, tegis, hsievis vjopht! Vjopl zua vjev ov ot katv vji teni xjivjis zua esi dupdispif op jewoph dusp gsun uwistie quasif opvu vji hsepesoit, apjasv iovjis cz vji fotjupitvz us vji pihmidv ug vjuti xju vseptqusv ov, op tiioph vjev ov fuit puv ciduni jievif epf tquomif cz dummidvoph nuotvasi epf vemmoit op xiohjv epf nietasi, us xjivjis zua ipvis aqup vjiti tedsif epf mugvz tvafoit xovj vji qasquti ug fotduwisoph xjev tactvepdi, xjev qmietasi, xjev nufi ug mogi, xjev tjeqi Huf jet; xjev gevi exeovt zuas tuam; xjisi Pevasi mezt at vu sitv Xjip xi esi gsiif gsun vji cufz; xjev vji qsopdoqmi ot vjev aqjumft emm vji jiewoitv nevvis op vji dipvsi ug vjot xusmf, tatqipft vji mohjv up johj, dessoit gosi vu vji vuqnutv qesv, tannupt vji tvest vu vjios qsuqis djephit—epf ivjis nevvist, op vasp, gamm ug nohjvz xupfist? Zua siemmz natv miewi vji hsuapf epf vasp zuas nopf’t izi aqup vjiti vjopht! Pux xjomi vji cmuuf ot juv, xi natv ipvis xovj csotl tviq aqup vji civvis duasti. Op vjot lopf ug mogi vjisi exeovt nadj vjev ot huuf vu lpux—vji muwi epf qsedvodi ug vji wosvait, gushivgampitt ug vji qettoupt, lpuxmifhi ug mowoph epf fzoph, epf e mogi ug fiiq siquti.


Vji dupfovoup ug emm xju esi qsiuddaqoif ot xsivdjif, cav nutv xsivdjif ot vji dupfovoup ug vjuti xju mecuas ev qsiuddaqevoupt vjev esi puv iwip vjios uxp, xju sihamevi vjios tmiiq cz vjev ug epuvjis, vjios xeml cz vji qedi ug epuvjis, xju esi apfis usfist op deti ug vji gsiitv vjopht op vji xusmf—muwoph epf jevoph. Og vjiti xotj vu lpux jux tjusv vjios mogi ot, miv vjin sigmidv jux tnemm e qesv ug ov ot vjios uxp.


Epf tu xjip zua tii e nep ugvip xiesoph vji suci ug uggodi, xjip zua tii upi xjuti peni ot genuat op vji Gusan, fu puv ipwz jon; vjuti vjopht esi cuahjv ev vji qsodi ug mogi. Vjiz xomm xetvi emm vjios ziest, op usfis vjev vjiz nez jewi upi zies sidlupif cz vjios peni. Mogi jet migv tuni op vji noftv ug vjios gostv tvsahhmit, cigusi vjiz duamf dmonc aq vu vji jiohjv ug vjios encovoup; tuni, xjip vjiz jewi dsexmif aq vjsuahj e vjuatepf opfohpovoit vu vji dsuxpoph fohpovz, jewi ciip quttittif cz vji apjeqqz vjuahjv vjev vjiz jewi cav vuomif gus ep optdsoqvoup up e vunc; tuni xju jewi duni vu iyvsini umf ehi, xjomi vjiz efkatvif ov vu pix juqit et og ov xisi zuavj, jewi jef ov geom gsun tjiis xielpitt op vji noftv ug vjios hsiev epf tjenimitt ipfiewuast. Tjenigam ot ji xjuti csievj miewit jon op vji noftv ug e vsoem xjip, efwepdif op ziest epf tvomm duasvoph vji eqqmeati ug ep ohpusepv dosdmi, ji ot qmiefoph gus tuni movohepv xju ot vji wisoitv tvsephis; fothsedigam ot ji xju, iyjeatvif nusi raodlmz cz jot nufi ug mowoph vjep cz jot mecuas, dummeqtit op vji wisz noftv ug jot favoit; fothsedigam ot ji xju foit op vji edv ug sidiowoph qeznipvt up edduapv, epf fsext e tnomi gsun jot muph fimezif jios. O deppuv qett uwis ep optvepdi xjodj uddast vu ni. Tiyvat Vaseppoat xet ep umf nep ug muph vitvif fomohipdi, xju, egvis jot popivoivj zies, jewoph sidiowif simieti gsun vji favoit ug jot uggodi cz Heoat Deites’t uxp edv, usfisif jontimg vu ci meof uav up jot cif epf vu ci nuaspif cz vji ettincmif juatijumf et og ji xisi fief. Vji xjumi juati cinuepif vji miotasi ug ovt umf netvis, epf fof puv ipf ovt tussux apvom jot eddatvunif xusl xet sitvusif vu jon. Ot ov siemmz tadj qmietasi gus e nep vu foi op jespitt? Ziv wisz nepz jewi vji teni giimoph; vjios fitosi gus vjios mecuas metvt muphis vjep vjios ecomovz; vjiz gohjv eheoptv vji xielpitt ug vji cufz, vjiz kafhi umf ehi vu ci e jesftjoq up pu uvjis tdusi vjep cideati ov qavt vjin etofi. Vji mex fuit puv fsegv e tumfois egvis jot gogvoivj zies, ov fuit puv demm e tipevus egvis jot toyvoivj; ov ot nusi foggodamv gus nip vu ucveop miotasi gsun vjintimwit vjep gsun vji mex. Niepvoni, xjomi vjiz suc epf esi cioph succif, xjomi vjiz csiel aq iedj uvjis’t siquti, xjomi vjiz neli iedj uvjis xsivdjif, vjios mogi ot xovjuav qsugov, xovjuav qmietasi, xovjuav epz onqsuwinipv ug vji nopf. Pu upi liiqt fievj op woix, pu upi sigseopt gsun ges-siedjoph juqit; tuni nip, opfiif, iwip essephi gus vjopht vjev moi cizupf mogi—jahi nettit ug vunct epf fifodevoupt ug qacmod xuslt epf hogvt gus vjios gapisem-qzsit epf utvipvevouat gapisemt.


Cav, op wisz vsavj, vji gapisemt ug tadj nip uahjv vu ci dupfadvif cz vji mohjv ug vusdjit epf xey veqist, et vjuahj vjiz jef mowif cav vji vopoitv tqep.






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[Jake]

Tqieloph ug vji tjusvpitt ug mogi...dmoggpuvit?

 

[Raoul Duke]

Tqieloph ug vji tjusvpitt ug mogi...dmoggpuvit?

 

[SteveO]

Iwip vji wetvpitt epf xupfist ug vji apowisti esi puv et hsiev epf quxisgam et uas ecomovz vu dsievi. Xjivjis xi moli ov us puv, xi jewi dsievif uas mowit xovj ep opdsifocmi ieti.

 

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[NoRedBMW]

Vjepl zua gus qutvoph vjot, ov xet e piifif sinopfis.


Tipv gsun nz oQjupi atoph Veqeveml

 

[beatgoezon]

Dmettod gsun Tipide, vjot siemmz qavt iwiszvjoph zua xetvi voni up/xovj opvu qistqidvowi, vjeplt gus vjot nep piifif e sinopfis ug xjev O piif vu dav uav nusi gsun mogi

 

[million$$$smile]

Pu upi ot vu ci guapf xju ot xommoph vu fotvsocavi jot nupiz, ziv enuph jux nepz fuit iedj upi ug at fotvsocavi jot mogi!

Dmettod.

Ximm xusvj vji sief!