So tomorrow is one my close family members funeral. And so I work currently for a contract i.t. position. And I just found out today that I DO NOT have PTO for a funeral in my family. So basically I gotta work not just because of that but because I have to save money for an apartment I'm moving into in less than 11 days. So ya. That is the icing on the cake for me. I've been having F#@k that moments on just getting up for work period and missing occasions and get togethers with family. This is my big f@#k this moment. Because I could have time to go mourn my lose at the funeral but can't because of the consequences it'll have on me and my fiance moving into the apartments financially. It is just garbage. Rant over. Just really down about it. I let both the good and the bad fuel me to get to the faslane at this point. Everyday was motivation but that motivation is turning into discipline.