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- May 13, 2018
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Scroll to the TL;DR to skip the sob story.
I dropped out of high school due to "existential depression." At the time I didn't even know what it was, I just felt like life was incredibly pointless. We go to school(suffer), college(suffer), work(suffer), retire(still suffer), death. Seems ridiculous. I kept thinking about how stupid this is, I couldn't find the motivation to do anything and just wanted to end my life.
Then I found about entrepreneurship. I thought this is my way out. It's the solution to the ridiculous system. But it was incredibly difficult. I didn't think it was possible for me, so much to learn, didn't even know where to start, so much competition. I gave up. Followed two years of depression and gaming addiction, had a job but didn't save anything.
Now that I reflected on things, it was because I'm incredibly afraid of failure due to my upbringing (parents won't accept anything less than top 3 in class, at one point I was TOP 1 in my entire school and somehow they still weren't satisfied). If I didn't know for 100% certain I would succeed, I don't do it. After a lot of self reflection, I realized I've got to do it. A guaranteed path to success doesn't exist, but there's no other way to live my life. If I don't pursue entrepreneurship, I've failed my life. Therefore any action is better than failure.
TL;DR:
20 y/o, what I really want is start a gaming company and develop a competitive multi-player game. I've been an pretty good gamer my whole life. I know the types of players in a game (i.e., average vs good vs elites), what each type wants, what they would pay for, etc. Most importantly I know how to make players happy and I will be filthy rich. Now I have only a little bit of coding experience, how the heck am I going to:
1. Design a functional and competitive game
2. Build the infrastructure to handle player accounts, buying in game items, handle a massive player base
2. Secure the system to mitigate hacks
I'm aware this is not easy task. My plan is to spend massive amounts of hours learning computer science and software engineering, while working part time to save up so I can later hire developers and graphic designer to help the task. The hardest part about this is the fear: what if I can't learn enough computer science on my own? What if I realize I'm learning too slow and will not get there even in 15 years? Any advice appreciated, thanks.
I dropped out of high school due to "existential depression." At the time I didn't even know what it was, I just felt like life was incredibly pointless. We go to school(suffer), college(suffer), work(suffer), retire(still suffer), death. Seems ridiculous. I kept thinking about how stupid this is, I couldn't find the motivation to do anything and just wanted to end my life.
Then I found about entrepreneurship. I thought this is my way out. It's the solution to the ridiculous system. But it was incredibly difficult. I didn't think it was possible for me, so much to learn, didn't even know where to start, so much competition. I gave up. Followed two years of depression and gaming addiction, had a job but didn't save anything.
Now that I reflected on things, it was because I'm incredibly afraid of failure due to my upbringing (parents won't accept anything less than top 3 in class, at one point I was TOP 1 in my entire school and somehow they still weren't satisfied). If I didn't know for 100% certain I would succeed, I don't do it. After a lot of self reflection, I realized I've got to do it. A guaranteed path to success doesn't exist, but there's no other way to live my life. If I don't pursue entrepreneurship, I've failed my life. Therefore any action is better than failure.
TL;DR:
20 y/o, what I really want is start a gaming company and develop a competitive multi-player game. I've been an pretty good gamer my whole life. I know the types of players in a game (i.e., average vs good vs elites), what each type wants, what they would pay for, etc. Most importantly I know how to make players happy and I will be filthy rich. Now I have only a little bit of coding experience, how the heck am I going to:
1. Design a functional and competitive game
2. Build the infrastructure to handle player accounts, buying in game items, handle a massive player base
2. Secure the system to mitigate hacks
I'm aware this is not easy task. My plan is to spend massive amounts of hours learning computer science and software engineering, while working part time to save up so I can later hire developers and graphic designer to help the task. The hardest part about this is the fear: what if I can't learn enough computer science on my own? What if I realize I'm learning too slow and will not get there even in 15 years? Any advice appreciated, thanks.
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