My name is Lars and I turned 25 a few weeks back. During these strange times I never felt more insecure about how 'unsafe' having a job is.
I work in aviation and almost half of work is gone, all passenger flights are cancelled. My contract is ending in September and I'm not sure if it will get extended. Therefore I'm scared of not being able to pay for my house (where I dreamt of, finally living on my own terms).
I don't want to dwell on my past but I've been that guy who's known for 'job hopping', the longest I stayed in a job is 1,5 year. My main reason for leaving so many jobs is I wasn't enjoying it, it didn't inspire me and feeling drained end of the day. Besides that I'm an HSP (High Sensitive Person) which allows me to live on my own perfectly fine without others, I don't connect to much with other human beings.
Reading this you might think I'm a loner and socially awkward but in contrast; I would love to connect with others, I'm a very good listener (thanks HSP). Currently my life is far from exciting; work, chill, eat, sleep and repeat. Which is okay for me some days. But it's getting worse now these strange times has appeared and I'm feeling chased by insecurities, money and not knowing what the future will bring. I wouldn't say I hate my life but it's not amazing either, it's satisfying (and frustrating at the same time).
How do I deal with;
1. Not knowing what truly inspires me/making me feel alive
2. Finding out what I am capable of and what amazing things a human being can do
3. Finding it hard to connect with others
Thank you so much for taking the time to read this and I would love to see your reply!
~ Lars
I work in aviation and almost half of work is gone, all passenger flights are cancelled. My contract is ending in September and I'm not sure if it will get extended. Therefore I'm scared of not being able to pay for my house (where I dreamt of, finally living on my own terms).
I don't want to dwell on my past but I've been that guy who's known for 'job hopping', the longest I stayed in a job is 1,5 year. My main reason for leaving so many jobs is I wasn't enjoying it, it didn't inspire me and feeling drained end of the day. Besides that I'm an HSP (High Sensitive Person) which allows me to live on my own perfectly fine without others, I don't connect to much with other human beings.
Reading this you might think I'm a loner and socially awkward but in contrast; I would love to connect with others, I'm a very good listener (thanks HSP). Currently my life is far from exciting; work, chill, eat, sleep and repeat. Which is okay for me some days. But it's getting worse now these strange times has appeared and I'm feeling chased by insecurities, money and not knowing what the future will bring. I wouldn't say I hate my life but it's not amazing either, it's satisfying (and frustrating at the same time).
How do I deal with;
1. Not knowing what truly inspires me/making me feel alive
2. Finding out what I am capable of and what amazing things a human being can do
3. Finding it hard to connect with others
Thank you so much for taking the time to read this and I would love to see your reply!
~ Lars
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