I am betrayed and want to kill myself

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That's it? People said some things about you?

Learn to grow thick skin and get over it. Let people talk shit... hustle and reach your goals. Have the last laugh in their face (if you want).

 

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Hey fastlaners. In my second year of college wanted to kill myself. Fortunately my friend convinced me to come down and attend therapy sessions. After some I attended so therapy session and it sounded like my parents were ok with it. However when I went back to my college. My college is ranked seriously high. Well it was until flunked out. I had to sign a document from the school that I could not enter the campus. Instead of going back home, I went straight to my friend's house. He was the guy who convinced me to come down from the building I was on. The next the police arrested me for trespassing. My dad spent $2,000 to hire a lawyer to expunge my criminal record. After my record was cleared, I contacted the Dean of Student Affairs, and they told me that they will not be able to return to my college. I felt like shit. What was all my hard work in high school for. I was going to have transfer to public city college. I was so depressed. But, after a few months, I got over it and decided to finish my degree in 3 years.

But today I was betrayed. My parents told all their bengali friends that I
1) Flunked out of great university (This doesn't really bother my, they should have told the truth from the beginning)
2) Have mental illnesses and had to attend therapy

They told their friends at a party. Then the friends talked shit about me, making jokes about mental health and claiming that I would amount to nothing. They called me a vegetable. They said was weak. They compared me to their own children boasting about amazing they were and how, I in contrast, was a loser. I feel like I lost all my trust in my parents. I am absolutely ashamed of myself and now loath Bengali people (including myself).

I just want to end it, man. I have no support, no one. No friends, no family. It is just me and right now, it feels like I am never going to live a good life. Can you all help me figure out what I should?

I'm the process of going through The Odin Project, so I can learn how to program and perhaps make my own app.

One of my friends is Bengali.I never understood why their family matters are so serious.

 

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