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I hear you. I'm in a similar situation but I have been remote in IT ever since 2020. I definitely like it better than the office, get to use my own bathroom, take a break and go on a walk in the woods (I live in the middle of the woods), play with my cats and dog during downtime, grill steaks for lunch. But inspite of all this, the job is still the job, and creates a prison wherever I am, I just have a more comfortable prison now. My FTE came after a slew of events, out of my control, that required large sums of cash and watching my wife cry and fall apart when I knew if I just had more money then she wouldn't have to be in these pits of despair. My actual tipping point came when month after month of sitting in virtual meetings 5-7 hours a day. And I just think to myself, there is no way I can do this for the next 30 years til I die. It got to the point to where, inside i'd want to physically destroy everything around me through my rage or kill myself. It's kind of funny, after I had that episode, that very night I got to the FTE chapter in unscripted . The FTE is like a gate we must past through. Ever since my FTE, I ditched all leisure activities that didnt get me closer to my goals and use my offtime for working out and working toward launching my business. Go full force on unscription, it's all we've got to escape this rat race. Use all the bs feelings that you get going into your job, and turn it into fuel for unscription. Im not able to quit my 9-5 yet, so I still have to sit through hours of mind numbing meetings, it just gives me that much more fuel to attack my goals. Keep working at it!During college, I joined the Fastlane forum and read Millionaire fastlane and Unscripted per suggestion of a mentor at the time. These books rewired my mindset permanently for the better. My routine during college involved trying to get the best grades, hitting the gym, and self improvement, including passionately dreaming of starting my own business. I spent a lot of time thinking of what I could create, testing ideas like web design sales, and learning what I was good at on the side.
However, I graduated in 2020 with a bachelors degree in IT. My goal was to use my degree, try to find a good job and spend all my time on the side building a successful side hustle. When COVID hit, everyone seemed to be sent to work remotely, and it changed the job market as I was applying non stop and couldn't find interviews. I spent so much time tailoring resume and applying, and it took me almost year to secure my first IT position, which initially seemed awesome. MJ DeMarco supported my idea of starting with a job, to at least build income, and I felt that since I had graduated, I might as well capitalize on my degree.
After two years in IT support, my company is transitioning back to the office. Here is where i felt like I had my realization. The drive to the office took extremely long due to traffic jams at 9am. Paying for parking and walking across two streets is going to suck so bad in the winter but even today it sucked as we're not reimbursed for parking. I miss the freedom of logging in from a laptop. Walking into a bathroom stall and both toilets were filled with espresso poops and toilet paper. I just keep thinking of the negatives and how this isn't how I want to live or get my income. Went to the office cafeteria and had a bland fishy tasting fish sandwich in the cafeteria for $11. Add to that the cost of parking and an hour-long drive home, and I've reached my limit. Hence, I'm sharing my "F*ck this" event on the forum, hoping for a fresh perspective and hoping that journaling will help me focus on my long term goals.
I've been spam applying for new remote jobs, but starting to realize that the effort it takes to curate my resume, apply, and move on to the next over and over for the past year has been taking so long that I might as well put my effort into my own thing. I'm sick and tired of being an office slave and needed to vent somewhere.