Regaining the Fastlane Paradigm and Overcoming Adversity

[TheNectarOfCow]

I'm hoping this reaches someone who has gone through a similar struggle because, in short, I need guidance.

Reading the Millionaire Fastlane back in March 2019 changed my life. I immediately got to work. I learned a massive skillset in a short 9 months, then began developing my first application.

Come January, I was forced to pack up and move to the other side of the planet for visa related reasons. Happy about the move, but the virus hadn't touched our part (Brisbane, AU) throughout this pandemic. Coming home was a huge change.

I'm an extrovert in the way that being isolated drains me, big time. Not in a "Now I cant go get loaded at the bar with my buddies, boo hoo" drain, but more like a "I cant get out of bed because I want to die" drain. I slowly degressed, and my 50% complete application hadn't been touched in 3 months because even booting up linux makes me terrified. To be clear, I LOVED what I was doing 5 months ago, nothing about the work itself changed, but everything else in my life did. I went from exercising 5 times a week to none for 4 months, and I feel awful about it. The burning desire to create this incredible app had become debilitatingly hindered by depression.

I was struggling to regain my footing day after day for months, I was nearly killed in a major bicycle accident (attached photo, sorry for the blood).I sustained a lot of blood loss and a severe concussion which resulted in a diagnosis of BPPD, an intense vertigo so bad I couldnt walk on my own until an angel of a doctor was able to treat me (4 ER visits later). Getting a free nose job on the government's coin is pretty cool though haha.

It's been 3 weeks of recovering, doing better now and can walk on my own, but I'll be damned if I said it hasn't been F*cking hard. The fire is still burning in me, but the obsessive purpose had months ago has been clouded by my mental and physical health, and I find myself banging my head against the wall trying to think my way out of this and I know that's not a solution.

Has anyone else here had to face mental health issues on their journey, and if so, how did you persevere? Thanks!

 

Dislike ads? Become a Fastlane member: Subscribe today and surround yourself with winners and millionaire mentors, not those broke friends who only want to drink beer and play video games. :-)