So basically you haven't done anything REAL except think about a lot of stuff. While you could have taken advantage of the time you've already been at your grandparents..... you tried something.... it didn't work..... you slept, ate, slept, ate, slept, ate..... How many days have you been at your grandparents that you haven't really done anything? ...... Since this might not be clear for you, what makes you think you will do anything different if you move out on your own? You've had all these days and haven't really busted a grape and you've had FREE room, board & food! I'm not busting your chops.... I did the same thing when I was young.... just wondering what would be different tomorrow if you moved out?