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I could've asked a thousand questions about what to do. So I'm just going to tell you the story for your own sake
My first year of computer science went OK. At the beginning it was struggling, but definitely improved after that.
But I wasn't happy. So I choose to stay at my intern and work at the company and go to school 1 day per week.
And after hitting the plateau of not learning fast enough because again I'm not happy, I'm going through the exact same now as last time.
Even though I made steps, I still feel I won't come any closer to what I REALLY want.
Now the question is, what do I really want to do?
Make my own stuff! That's the exact reason why I chose that path; to create what I want to create.
Not to escape any responsibilities. But to make my own.
At my job they sort-of ditched me with programming and made me do web-development. What I like more because they let me create in my own way because it are more "side-projects" for clients and not the main software what they sell.
They probably think I am bad at programming (certainly I'm not a expert with my 1.5 year experience).
Also are probably inpatient with me. While I am VERY patient.
I could do it safe, continue doing my school, make a little career change, but in that way I will just fool myself.
Now I should ask myself, what should I do next!
Same thing I did before; learn!
Learn the things I need to learn, not the things school wants me to learn what I don't need in real life.
Not the things my work wants me to learn, but what I knowledge I need to make the things I want to create.
And why do I want to do it without all of this?
Well my boss has seen that I have a passion for what I do, but they don't really see it in the results.
And only at the times when they say "Just make this and do it your way" you can see it in the results (and my happy face) that I enjoy coming up with my own ideas and making them come true.
Why can't I just work at a company I would enjoy, is the next question.
Why can't I just make my own company that I would enjoy, is the answer
While it may looks like I am stubborn: I am.
If I can't be I can't be myself.
I just have too many ideas what I want to work on.
I just don't see a reason to get a degree if I don't need a degree.
Funny thing is when my boss didn't really see much outcome, he asked me if I was sure I took the right career choice. He didn't really see me expressing my passion.
And after telling what my real passions are with creating what I want he told me that few people make it.
I told him I will be like those few. I'm not a quitter. And even though I 100% understand what he said, I just find it funny to first encourage me and then discourage me to follow my passion
I got either 2 options, let's start with the most boring one first:
Option 1
Continue with school, it's a little more then a year left. Maybe I have to change from ''application development" to "web development"(better at front-end) and if not change jobs if I cannot continue with the side-projects.
After that I can find a job. Then start doing my own things, but the later I start working at my dream the more responsibilities I have.
In short: Having a job would have quit or have a very nice company that let's me work on my own projects. After that I'll have to quit if my own projects go well. If not I have to continue with my job.
Option 2
Quit school, start going to code boot camps that are 12-weeks long (almost impossible with college and work). During/after that I am going to work on my own stuff.
I will begin freelancing. Already working on my own site where people can ask for their own site for a reasonable price. My own webshop, have some ideas for Virtual Reality; My programming is good enough to make a prototype. If investors are interested I can make it much bigger.
In short: Freelancing to make a buffer to have time to make my products and go to coding-bootcamps.
I can always go back to college.
I know well there will be a lot of challenges, trail and (stack overflow)errors.
But that's exactly why I want to quit with college, college is no challenge for me, just a burden.
Even though my heart already knows what it wants, I have to analyze it a little bit further.
Advice/humbleness is always appreciated
My first year of computer science went OK. At the beginning it was struggling, but definitely improved after that.
But I wasn't happy. So I choose to stay at my intern and work at the company and go to school 1 day per week.
And after hitting the plateau of not learning fast enough because again I'm not happy, I'm going through the exact same now as last time.
Even though I made steps, I still feel I won't come any closer to what I REALLY want.
Now the question is, what do I really want to do?
Make my own stuff! That's the exact reason why I chose that path; to create what I want to create.
Not to escape any responsibilities. But to make my own.
At my job they sort-of ditched me with programming and made me do web-development. What I like more because they let me create in my own way because it are more "side-projects" for clients and not the main software what they sell.
They probably think I am bad at programming (certainly I'm not a expert with my 1.5 year experience).
Also are probably inpatient with me. While I am VERY patient.
I could do it safe, continue doing my school, make a little career change, but in that way I will just fool myself.
Now I should ask myself, what should I do next!
Same thing I did before; learn!
Learn the things I need to learn, not the things school wants me to learn what I don't need in real life.
Not the things my work wants me to learn, but what I knowledge I need to make the things I want to create.
And why do I want to do it without all of this?
Well my boss has seen that I have a passion for what I do, but they don't really see it in the results.
And only at the times when they say "Just make this and do it your way" you can see it in the results (and my happy face) that I enjoy coming up with my own ideas and making them come true.
Why can't I just work at a company I would enjoy, is the next question.
Why can't I just make my own company that I would enjoy, is the answer
While it may looks like I am stubborn: I am.
If I can't be I can't be myself.
I just have too many ideas what I want to work on.
I just don't see a reason to get a degree if I don't need a degree.
Funny thing is when my boss didn't really see much outcome, he asked me if I was sure I took the right career choice. He didn't really see me expressing my passion.
And after telling what my real passions are with creating what I want he told me that few people make it.
I told him I will be like those few. I'm not a quitter. And even though I 100% understand what he said, I just find it funny to first encourage me and then discourage me to follow my passion
I got either 2 options, let's start with the most boring one first:
Option 1
Continue with school, it's a little more then a year left. Maybe I have to change from ''application development" to "web development"(better at front-end) and if not change jobs if I cannot continue with the side-projects.
After that I can find a job. Then start doing my own things, but the later I start working at my dream the more responsibilities I have.
In short: Having a job would have quit or have a very nice company that let's me work on my own projects. After that I'll have to quit if my own projects go well. If not I have to continue with my job.
Option 2
Quit school, start going to code boot camps that are 12-weeks long (almost impossible with college and work). During/after that I am going to work on my own stuff.
I will begin freelancing. Already working on my own site where people can ask for their own site for a reasonable price. My own webshop, have some ideas for Virtual Reality; My programming is good enough to make a prototype. If investors are interested I can make it much bigger.
In short: Freelancing to make a buffer to have time to make my products and go to coding-bootcamps.
I can always go back to college.
I know well there will be a lot of challenges, trail and (stack overflow)errors.
But that's exactly why I want to quit with college, college is no challenge for me, just a burden.
Even though my heart already knows what it wants, I have to analyze it a little bit further.
Advice/humbleness is always appreciated
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