For the last 2 years I've almost felt some sense of depression working at my regular day job, I'm currently working 2 jobs but before I was working 2 jobs I thought to myself because the job itself is a dead end place "what's the point anymore?" it just lost purpose for me to work hard, as a result my work ethic started slowly going down the drain because I didn't see the point in performing my best, my reasons usually were "why should i work hard then person X is doing nothing", or "why should i look stupid doing everything when they are getting away with it", it's also caused me to become more bitter. My work ethic has increased again and I've been doing pretty well, but I immediately lose motivation when I get micro managed (it's not just me it's everyone) and I think, "if this is the way its going to be then screw it what incentive do I have?".
Does anyone else experience this at work? It's a crappy feeling, I want to be my former self but as mentioned I've lost purpose. Before the issues I was fine, I'd work hard and it felt fine but come across different experiences and different people, I chose to change my attitude and it seems it's easier on me, but for the state of mind I feel worse. I guess one of my biggest challenges is that I feel that I will be used if I perform well.
Even if you were to look at me while im speaking i have a "i dont give a f" face. You will look at me like i dont care what you have to say but it's not true. I've just stopped caring in general. It has gotten to the point I'm no longer nervous in social situations or job interviews.
Does anyone else experience this at work? It's a crappy feeling, I want to be my former self but as mentioned I've lost purpose. Before the issues I was fine, I'd work hard and it felt fine but come across different experiences and different people, I chose to change my attitude and it seems it's easier on me, but for the state of mind I feel worse. I guess one of my biggest challenges is that I feel that I will be used if I perform well.
Even if you were to look at me while im speaking i have a "i dont give a f" face. You will look at me like i dont care what you have to say but it's not true. I've just stopped caring in general. It has gotten to the point I'm no longer nervous in social situations or job interviews.
Dislike ads? Remove them and support the forum:
Subscribe to Fastlane Insiders.
Last edited: