One year ago I was in the middle of performing maximum hourly output for a predetermined compensation. I had a set fee per hour for the work I was doing on that project, and the client had set a limited budget per week. By the time the client stopped paying, I found myself in the middle of a project that had the momentum to become more than what it had yet become. What did I have to show for those months I worked on the project?
I mistakenly and naively thought that I had a future partner as a client. But I was on my own. I discovered that I had been alone all along.
On one hand, my project could have a big payoff, and on the other hand it could be a complete dud. The thing is, I can't know. I can't know until I push ahead. I can't assume that this project will fail, because I have not put enough work and effort into it's completion. And I can't assume this project will be a success either, for exactly the same reasons!
I developed a website for my idea, and during development ran into a couple of technical snags here and there. I needed to overcome some technical bumps before I could move forward with the site. My progress slowed, I got busy with other things for several weeks. Today, I am looking at my unfinished website, and looking at the notes which had been written while I was sifting through my big ideas for the project.
I have learned so much from my experience with it that I believe I will only be learning more as I push ahead. Fail or not. And I'm not there yet.
One thing I've learned in the forum is this: keep going. While I can't realistically expect this idea to pay my expenses and be the financial ticket to freedom I'm eventually going to have, neither can I consider it to be a waste of my time.
When I first posted here about my idea, I got one or two encouraging comments about persevering. I also got very good advice about finding a J O B that pays the bills rather than fixating on a vision of glory for my big untested idea.
So my problem seems to be that while I "got busy" for several weeks, I had lost track of what I was doing on the project. I stopped learning... I stopped doing - at least temporarily. I still have the problem of living within my means and the pursuit of expanding my means. But the project still exists. I failed to continue working on it, finding an excuse of some kind. I failed to keep working on the project that kept my head in the game.
This was a project that provided fulfillment because of it's possibilities and potential. It was a self-perpetuating personal inspiration. When I kept a bigger picture in mind, I performed all the required tasks with energy and interest. As long as the bigger picture looks like I haven't got enough information to believe that I can't fail, I must keep working. I must keep going on the project. Keep doing things, keep learning things. Keep overcoming challenges. Keep discovering challenges to overcome. I need to learn if my ideas won't work or if they need changing.
I have developed a desire to push myself until I believe that what I am doing really can't be successful. I have discovered that I am more motivated to FAIL than I am expecting to succeed. Because when I fail, it's the only time I can perceive what other things are possible. I need to get this project out of the way so that I can pursue the next idea which I have not discovered yet. My next big idea will surely surface when I'm busily working on my current idea.
The bottom line is this: I need to keep developing my project further. I need to keep my financial head above water. I need to keep learning from experience. I must keep an open mind. I must keep working on that which I had once imagined could be something of a huge success story in the future. I need to stay inspired. I must never give up.
Pick the torch back up again. There's flame enough to finish this race.
~
I mistakenly and naively thought that I had a future partner as a client. But I was on my own. I discovered that I had been alone all along.
On one hand, my project could have a big payoff, and on the other hand it could be a complete dud. The thing is, I can't know. I can't know until I push ahead. I can't assume that this project will fail, because I have not put enough work and effort into it's completion. And I can't assume this project will be a success either, for exactly the same reasons!
I developed a website for my idea, and during development ran into a couple of technical snags here and there. I needed to overcome some technical bumps before I could move forward with the site. My progress slowed, I got busy with other things for several weeks. Today, I am looking at my unfinished website, and looking at the notes which had been written while I was sifting through my big ideas for the project.
I have learned so much from my experience with it that I believe I will only be learning more as I push ahead. Fail or not. And I'm not there yet.
One thing I've learned in the forum is this: keep going. While I can't realistically expect this idea to pay my expenses and be the financial ticket to freedom I'm eventually going to have, neither can I consider it to be a waste of my time.
When I first posted here about my idea, I got one or two encouraging comments about persevering. I also got very good advice about finding a J O B that pays the bills rather than fixating on a vision of glory for my big untested idea.
So my problem seems to be that while I "got busy" for several weeks, I had lost track of what I was doing on the project. I stopped learning... I stopped doing - at least temporarily. I still have the problem of living within my means and the pursuit of expanding my means. But the project still exists. I failed to continue working on it, finding an excuse of some kind. I failed to keep working on the project that kept my head in the game.
This was a project that provided fulfillment because of it's possibilities and potential. It was a self-perpetuating personal inspiration. When I kept a bigger picture in mind, I performed all the required tasks with energy and interest. As long as the bigger picture looks like I haven't got enough information to believe that I can't fail, I must keep working. I must keep going on the project. Keep doing things, keep learning things. Keep overcoming challenges. Keep discovering challenges to overcome. I need to learn if my ideas won't work or if they need changing.
I have developed a desire to push myself until I believe that what I am doing really can't be successful. I have discovered that I am more motivated to FAIL than I am expecting to succeed. Because when I fail, it's the only time I can perceive what other things are possible. I need to get this project out of the way so that I can pursue the next idea which I have not discovered yet. My next big idea will surely surface when I'm busily working on my current idea.
The bottom line is this: I need to keep developing my project further. I need to keep my financial head above water. I need to keep learning from experience. I must keep an open mind. I must keep working on that which I had once imagined could be something of a huge success story in the future. I need to stay inspired. I must never give up.
Pick the torch back up again. There's flame enough to finish this race.
~
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