Christian Parker
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- Apr 12, 2024
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I remember when for months and months on end I just journaled hundreds of pages THINKING and PHILOSOPHIZING about life whilst letting life happen to me. It was the absolute worst period of my life. So much so it manifested into physical symptoms that got me freaking hospitalized. The most advanced level of escapism you could think of! lol
I've recently turned 18. For a few months I've continued this escapism but instead of bouncing between thinking & philosophizing and just full on consumer degenerate mode I went 100% on the latter. So, what did I do. I used up most of my saved up money from my business indulging like an absolute lunatic on all kinds of consumer things, didn't do anything productive.
Until I decided to stop this. I remembered that man, I'm 18 now, I am going to die one day and why the hell would I choose to not do everything in my power to live a life worth dying for? Throughout that painful journaling, I've discovered a few life-changing things. One of them being trusting my intuition and why to trust it. Not once has it failed me. I remember trying to reason EVERYTHING into an endless loop of why, the way I broke that is to stop questioning it so much and start doing as my intuition tells me to, for it has never failed me. (differentiating intuition from impulse/instinct)
I still have cravings, but remembering that I am going to die one day and what a shame it would be not to get the most out of this one life we have (as far as we're aware) whilst trusting my intuition keeps me going. I'm going to suffer either way. I am choosing what to suffer for.
So as you can tell I've spent quite a lot of time and energy developing my mindset around this but I'm sure some of you out here are more experienced than me and perhaps went through this x10!
How can I make sure I keep this going? What have you found really keeps you grounded?
I've recently turned 18. For a few months I've continued this escapism but instead of bouncing between thinking & philosophizing and just full on consumer degenerate mode I went 100% on the latter. So, what did I do. I used up most of my saved up money from my business indulging like an absolute lunatic on all kinds of consumer things, didn't do anything productive.
Until I decided to stop this. I remembered that man, I'm 18 now, I am going to die one day and why the hell would I choose to not do everything in my power to live a life worth dying for? Throughout that painful journaling, I've discovered a few life-changing things. One of them being trusting my intuition and why to trust it. Not once has it failed me. I remember trying to reason EVERYTHING into an endless loop of why, the way I broke that is to stop questioning it so much and start doing as my intuition tells me to, for it has never failed me. (differentiating intuition from impulse/instinct)
I still have cravings, but remembering that I am going to die one day and what a shame it would be not to get the most out of this one life we have (as far as we're aware) whilst trusting my intuition keeps me going. I'm going to suffer either way. I am choosing what to suffer for.
So as you can tell I've spent quite a lot of time and energy developing my mindset around this but I'm sure some of you out here are more experienced than me and perhaps went through this x10!
How can I make sure I keep this going? What have you found really keeps you grounded?
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