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Hi, my name is Jerry and I live in Europe.
This might turn out to be a long post..please forgive me!
When I was in high school I had this thoughts of going to the university, getting a decent degree, finding well-paid job and I thought that it would make me happy.
I've always been interested in computer science, programming and things related to it.
My goal back in high school was just to get hired as a software developer and I thought that spending the rest of my life this way would make me happy.
Years passed and eventually I found my first job. It was a regular 9-5 job. My first job ever, heh.
I was thinking to myself: "Wow, so awesome! You've got a job now. You are an adult! You will have your own money!". And so I started - I became "an adult". The first week was weird, because I had to adjust myself to waking up early and spending my entire day at the company. At first it didn't seem quite right, but I was thinking to myself: "Hey, if 99% of the people in the country do it, then it is probably a normal thing and you just need to give yourself some time". And so I did. Weeks passed and I still couldn't make it. Waking up became easier, however spending my entire day at the company..? I couldn't do it. Before I got hired I would spend entire days doing things I liked, hanging out with friends and family. When I got hired I just couldn't do it anymore so often. I was thinking to myself: "Is it normal? Maybe I'm not normal..? Somehow people manage to work from 9 to 5 every day, so why can't I?". I couldn't hold this any longer, so I quit. At that point I thought that perhaps the job itself wasn't quite right.
Couple of months later I got hired again. The company was better, the working conditions were really nice. We had super nice computers, a great team of co-workers.. Everything was just super cool. I got to do things I liked doing..So what more could I need?
And so it begun again. Working everyday from 9 to 5. I would spend my entire day at the company and at the end of the day I woud always be just exhausted..I had 0 energy to go out, see friends and do stuff I liked. Each day I felt worse. I felt like a rat in a cage. I was lacking my freedom, my friends, my normal life I had before the 9-5 lifestyle. I tried to force myself to think that it was a normal thing, that having a 9-5 job was what everybody had to do.
Seriously, I thought that there was something wrong with me. The worst thing was, I tried to talk to my friends and they would say that eventually I would feel better about my job.
But I didn't feel better at all. So I quit - again. At that point I knew that 9-5 life is not for me. But was there any alternative..?
The worst thing is, I almost totally don't get support from my friends and family. All of them are in this "9-5" trap and all of them think that this is what normal people should do.
"Get your degree, get a job, get a mortgage for a house" - yeah.. and be trapped in this for the rest of your life.
I just don't understand it guys.. How can people live this way? Being in this 9-5 trap and not being able to follow your dreams, passion..? How can people sell their souls and their time in exchange for money? Isn't there anything more to life than just working from 9-5 until you are old? Am I not normal? I just can't stand this idea!
Currently I still work 9-5. Well I have to pay the bills and stuff. But I'm trying to figure my way out of this. The worst thing is that I have thousands of different thoughts and business ideas and I can't just follow one direction - perhaps I'm too scared to make any move.. But maybe eventually I will find my thing.
That's all guys. I just wanted to share this.. I've been kind of depressed lately because nobody can understand me. Things I'm saying to my friends and family seem strange to them and I don't get much support unfortunately. But I shouldn't care..I should just follow my beliefs and get myself out of this 9-5 trap.
Thank you,
J
This might turn out to be a long post..please forgive me!
When I was in high school I had this thoughts of going to the university, getting a decent degree, finding well-paid job and I thought that it would make me happy.
I've always been interested in computer science, programming and things related to it.
My goal back in high school was just to get hired as a software developer and I thought that spending the rest of my life this way would make me happy.
Years passed and eventually I found my first job. It was a regular 9-5 job. My first job ever, heh.
I was thinking to myself: "Wow, so awesome! You've got a job now. You are an adult! You will have your own money!". And so I started - I became "an adult". The first week was weird, because I had to adjust myself to waking up early and spending my entire day at the company. At first it didn't seem quite right, but I was thinking to myself: "Hey, if 99% of the people in the country do it, then it is probably a normal thing and you just need to give yourself some time". And so I did. Weeks passed and I still couldn't make it. Waking up became easier, however spending my entire day at the company..? I couldn't do it. Before I got hired I would spend entire days doing things I liked, hanging out with friends and family. When I got hired I just couldn't do it anymore so often. I was thinking to myself: "Is it normal? Maybe I'm not normal..? Somehow people manage to work from 9 to 5 every day, so why can't I?". I couldn't hold this any longer, so I quit. At that point I thought that perhaps the job itself wasn't quite right.
Couple of months later I got hired again. The company was better, the working conditions were really nice. We had super nice computers, a great team of co-workers.. Everything was just super cool. I got to do things I liked doing..So what more could I need?
And so it begun again. Working everyday from 9 to 5. I would spend my entire day at the company and at the end of the day I woud always be just exhausted..I had 0 energy to go out, see friends and do stuff I liked. Each day I felt worse. I felt like a rat in a cage. I was lacking my freedom, my friends, my normal life I had before the 9-5 lifestyle. I tried to force myself to think that it was a normal thing, that having a 9-5 job was what everybody had to do.
Seriously, I thought that there was something wrong with me. The worst thing was, I tried to talk to my friends and they would say that eventually I would feel better about my job.
But I didn't feel better at all. So I quit - again. At that point I knew that 9-5 life is not for me. But was there any alternative..?
The worst thing is, I almost totally don't get support from my friends and family. All of them are in this "9-5" trap and all of them think that this is what normal people should do.
"Get your degree, get a job, get a mortgage for a house" - yeah.. and be trapped in this for the rest of your life.
I just don't understand it guys.. How can people live this way? Being in this 9-5 trap and not being able to follow your dreams, passion..? How can people sell their souls and their time in exchange for money? Isn't there anything more to life than just working from 9-5 until you are old? Am I not normal? I just can't stand this idea!
Currently I still work 9-5. Well I have to pay the bills and stuff. But I'm trying to figure my way out of this. The worst thing is that I have thousands of different thoughts and business ideas and I can't just follow one direction - perhaps I'm too scared to make any move.. But maybe eventually I will find my thing.
That's all guys. I just wanted to share this.. I've been kind of depressed lately because nobody can understand me. Things I'm saying to my friends and family seem strange to them and I don't get much support unfortunately. But I shouldn't care..I should just follow my beliefs and get myself out of this 9-5 trap.
Thank you,
J
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