You sound like a worker. Complaining a lot and making things into a story.
Bosses eliminate drama and get back on track. Workers create drama and need emotional support. You need to read some stoicism.
When a winner is around bad people, he looks at himself and says "this is my fault, I chose to be around them" and corrects course. Or he learns how to manage it and turn it into a winning situation. They certainly do not get butthurt and vent and let things take months and months to get anywhere. It shuts you up real quick when you realize everything in your life, good or bad, is your fault, or at the very least your responsibility.
I don't even know what you are selling or what you do, something coding related I guess....
Lets talk about your actual, tangible goals and lets figure out a plan to get you directly from point A to point B.
Why would you have to 'fight demons' to do work? I love to work. I spend all my time on it, my girlfriend comes walking down the stairs at 1am mad at me because I haven't come to bed yet. What you do should be enjoyable to some degree and have a flow to it, because in whatever space you're in... you'll be competing against some weirdo like me who loves what he's doing.
Bosses eliminate drama and get back on track. Workers create drama and need emotional support. You need to read some stoicism.
When a winner is around bad people, he looks at himself and says "this is my fault, I chose to be around them" and corrects course. Or he learns how to manage it and turn it into a winning situation. They certainly do not get butthurt and vent and let things take months and months to get anywhere. It shuts you up real quick when you realize everything in your life, good or bad, is your fault, or at the very least your responsibility.
I don't even know what you are selling or what you do, something coding related I guess....
Lets talk about your actual, tangible goals and lets figure out a plan to get you directly from point A to point B.
Why would you have to 'fight demons' to do work? I love to work. I spend all my time on it, my girlfriend comes walking down the stairs at 1am mad at me because I haven't come to bed yet. What you do should be enjoyable to some degree and have a flow to it, because in whatever space you're in... you'll be competing against some weirdo like me who loves what he's doing.