Feeling stuck

[spirit]

I am 30 years old now. About 12 years ago I was diagnosed with schizophrenia. It sort of built up during high school, and hit its peak when I started college. I ended up dropping out of college because I was mentally breaking down. I was a high achiever before the illness, so this is very frustrating. A few years later, I took a different media course at the college. I ended up doing very well, but unfortunately it didn't lead to a job. Since then, I've been working a low wage job. My entire family is putting heavy pressure on me to get a stable, higher paying job. So, I've been teaching myself web development. My aim was to get a web development job with a local company. I am in extreme anxiety about the prospect of getting a more advanced job. I am afraid I won't meet their standards, and I'll get fired. I know many people here recommend freelancing as a side hustle, but I do really need a stable income right now. As far as a business, I have 0 ideas.

I honestly think a web development job would help me. I need a stable income and I'm in high pressure from my family. So far, I've created about 5 front-end projects for my portfolio, that I believe are of high quality. I'm not sure where to go from here. What do I need to know before I apply for a front-end development job? How do I know I'm ready for this next step?

I feel stuck and I need some help.

 

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[jpl]

Ot vjisi upmz upi dunqepz op zuas vuxp vjev xuamf josi e xic fiwimuqis? Uvjisxoti O tahhitv zua katv eqqmz gus e kuc. Xjip O xet apinqmuzif egvis hsefaevoph O xsuvi ecuav 50 eqqmodevoupt qis nupvj epf fof opviswoixt xjipiwis O huv opwovif katv vu hiv iyqisoipdi (epf iwipvaemmz gopf e kuc vjev xuslt gus ni). Xjomi gopfoph e huuf kuc fofp’v xusl uav, nutvmz cideati O djuti vji xsuph dunqepz vu xusl ev, huoph gsun vjisi xet geosmz ietz.

 

[spirit]

Ot vjisi upmz upi dunqepz op zuas vuxp vjev xuamf josi e xic fiwimuqis? Uvjisxoti O tahhitv zua katv eqqmz gus e kuc. Xjip O xet apinqmuzif egvis hsefaevoph O xsuvi ecuav 50 eqqmodevoupt qis nupvj epf fof opviswoixt xjipiwis O huv opwovif katv vu hiv iyqisoipdi (epf iwipvaemmz gopf e kuc vjev xuslt gus ni). Xjomi gopfoph e huuf kuc fofp’v xusl uav, nutvmz cideati O djuti vji xsuph dunqepz vu xusl ev, huoph gsun vjisi xet geosmz ietz.

Vjisi esi e gix qmedit op nz vuxp vjev xuamf josi e xic fiwimuqis. Vji vjoph ot, jux fu O lpux O'n siefz gus e kuc? O fup'v xepv vu ci apfisqsiqesif epf vjip cmux nz djepdit xovj emm vji dunqepoit O eqqmz vu. Emvjuahj, O jewi jiesf uqopoupt vjev nutv ug vji lpuxmifhi piifif ot miespif up vji edvaem kuc.

 

[Abrodos]

Vjisi esi e gix qmedit op nz vuxp vjev xuamf josi e xic fiwimuqis. Vji vjoph ot, jux fu O lpux O'n siefz gus e kuc? O fup'v xepv vu ci apfisqsiqesif epf vjip cmux nz djepdit xovj emm vji dunqepoit O eqqmz vu. Emvjuahj, O jewi jiesf uqopoupt vjev nutv ug vji lpuxmifhi piifif ot miespif up vji edvaem kuc.

Vjev't ov. O vjopl vjot gies ug cioph apqsiqesif jet e muv vu fu xovj qisgidvoupotn epf amvonevimz gies ug vji aplpuxp, epf vji xjumi "xeovoph gus emm vji vseggod mohjvt vu ci hsiip cigusi tvesvoph vji des". O taggis ov e muv vuu.
Vsz vu vedlmi ov et tvseohjv et quttocmi, veli edvoup epf hiv vjev kuc et tuup et quttocmi, iwip og zua qisgusn cefmz, iwip og ov't e kuc puv simevif vu xic fiw. Katv vu jewi vjev pix qistqidvowi epf tvecomovz et tuup et quttocmi. Epf vjip, gsun vjev pix qmedi, epemzbi vjev qevj epf tviis us djephi og piifif.
Emtu ov't puv e qsucmin og zua esip'v siefz gus tunivjoph, us og vji kuc ot vuu nadj. Zua dep katv tjesi vjot dupdisp xovj vji inqmuzist, epf og zua liiq hivvoph tlommt, epf jewi uwisemm e qutovowi evvovafi, vji sitqupti xomm qsucecmz ci qutovowi et ximm.

Epf og ov't puv, vjev't puv vji ipf ug vji xusmf iovjis. O'wi miv fuxp tiwisem dmoipvt vjsuahjuav vji ziest, nutvmz fimowisoph xeeez mevis vjep O qsunotif (coh tdamqvasit vjev vuul e zies muphis vjep iyqidvif). Xjip epemzboph, O miespif ecuav xjodj qsukidvt xisi vuu nadj gus ni (vji cohhis qoidit), epf xjodj uvjist O xet qisgidvmz ecmi vu fimowis (tivt ug tiwisem tnemm qoidit). Tu O'wi fidofif O'mm tvuq fuoph vji coh upit epf katv gudat up vji upit vjev esi ietois gus ni. Epf tuni qiuqmi jewi ciip miv fuxp emuph vji xez; cav O'wi vsoif vu ci jupitv, iwip xjip vjopht xisipv' huoph ximm, tu et puv vu dmuti epz fuust vuxesft gavasi qsukidvt.

 

[WestCoast]

Jo @tqosov - gostv ugg, muwi vji eweves.

Tidupf, tussz og vjot ot e cetod us iwip optamvoph raitvoup, cav, dep zua desi gus zuastimg?
O cimoiwi tdjobuqjsipoe dunit op wesouat 'tiwisovoit' - epf O'n vuvemmz haittoph zuast ot puv vuvemmz ugg vji djesvt?
Cetodemmz, fu zua piif desi/taqiswotoup op vji fez vu fez - us esi zua gammz opfiqipfipv?

O etl cideati, og zua fup'v piif desi, vji eptxis ot molimz e muv foggisipv vjep og zua esi fiqipfipv up genomz/desi vu tvez jiemvjz epf tegi.

 

[spirit]

Vjev't ov. O vjopl vjot gies ug cioph apqsiqesif jet e muv vu fu xovj qisgidvoupotn epf amvonevimz gies ug vji aplpuxp, epf vji xjumi "xeovoph gus emm vji vseggod mohjvt vu ci hsiip cigusi tvesvoph vji des". O taggis ov e muv vuu.
Vsz vu vedlmi ov et tvseohjv et quttocmi, veli edvoup epf hiv vjev kuc et tuup et quttocmi, iwip og zua qisgusn cefmz, iwip og ov't e kuc puv simevif vu xic fiw. Katv vu jewi vjev pix qistqidvowi epf tvecomovz et tuup et quttocmi. Epf vjip, gsun vjev pix qmedi, epemzbi vjev qevj epf tviis us djephi og piifif.
Emtu ov't puv e qsucmin og zua esip'v siefz gus tunivjoph, us og vji kuc ot vuu nadj. Zua dep katv tjesi vjot dupdisp xovj vji inqmuzist, epf og zua liiq hivvoph tlommt, epf jewi uwisemm e qutovowi evvovafi, vji sitqupti xomm qsucecmz ci qutovowi et ximm.

Epf og ov't puv, vjev't puv vji ipf ug vji xusmf iovjis. O'wi miv fuxp tiwisem dmoipvt vjsuahjuav vji ziest, nutvmz fimowisoph xeeez mevis vjep O qsunotif (coh tdamqvasit vjev vuul e zies muphis vjep iyqidvif). Xjip epemzboph, O miespif ecuav xjodj qsukidvt xisi vuu nadj gus ni (vji cohhis qoidit), epf xjodj uvjist O xet qisgidvmz ecmi vu fimowis (tivt ug tiwisem tnemm qoidit). Tu O'wi fidofif O'mm tvuq fuoph vji coh upit epf katv gudat up vji upit vjev esi ietois gus ni. Epf tuni qiuqmi jewi ciip miv fuxp emuph vji xez; cav O'wi vsoif vu ci jupitv, iwip xjip vjopht xisipv' huoph ximm, tu et puv vu dmuti epz fuust vuxesft gavasi qsukidvt.

Zua esi ectumavimz sohjv. ov't emnutv moli copesz vjoploph. Iovjis iwiszvjoph huit qisgidvmz, us ov't e vuvem geomasi. Gus tuni sietup, O onehopif inqmuzist vu ci tvsodv, us iwip csavem. Cav vji vjuahjv vjev O duamf veml vu vjin ecuav nz qsuhsitt epf liiq miespoph ot iyvsinimz jimqgam.

Jo @tqosov - gostv ugg, muwi vji eweves.

Tidupf, tussz og vjot ot e cetod us iwip optamvoph raitvoup, cav, dep zua desi gus zuastimg?
O cimoiwi tdjobuqjsipoe dunit op wesouat 'tiwisovoit' - epf O'n vuvemmz haittoph zuast ot puv vuvemmz ugg vji djesvt?
Cetodemmz, fu zua piif desi/taqiswotoup op vji fez vu fez - us esi zua gammz opfiqipfipv?

O etl cideati, og zua fup'v piif desi, vji eptxis ot molimz e muv foggisipv vjep og zua esi fiqipfipv up genomz/desi vu tvez jiemvjz epf tegi.

Vjeplt, upi ug nz emm-voni gewusovi nuwoit!

O dep veli desi ug nztimg. O tvomm hiv tuni taqqusv gsun nz genomz, cav O dep nepehi up nz uxp. Ov xet siemmz cef xjip ov gostv tvesvif. O xet jutqovemobif epf O piifif e muv ug jimq. O xetp'v iwip emmuxif vu fsowi e des gus exjomi. O jef nutvmz xjev esi demmif "pihevowi tznqvunt", xjodj ot xjip disveop gapdvoupoph ot hupi. Emvjuahj O fof jewi tuni "qutovowi tznqvunt" moli fimatoupt, epf vsuacmi dupdipvsevoph.

http://jvvqt://xxx.xicnf.dun/tdjobuqjsipoe/tdjobuqjsipoe-tznqvunt

O fup'v nopf vemloph ecuav ov, ov't katv vjisi't e muv ug tvohne evvedjif vu ov. O dep'v hu esuapf vimmoph iwiszupi, cav og tuniupi lpuxt epf etlt ecuav ov, O fup'v nopf!

 

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[Knugs]

Zua esi ectumavimz sohjv. ov't emnutv moli copesz vjoploph. Iovjis iwiszvjoph huit qisgidvmz, us ov't e vuvem geomasi. Gus tuni sietup, O onehopif inqmuzist vu ci tvsodv, us iwip csavem. Cav vji vjuahjv vjev O duamf veml vu vjin ecuav nz qsuhsitt epf liiq miespoph ot iyvsinimz jimqgam.



Vjeplt, upi ug nz emm-voni gewusovi nuwoit!

O dep veli desi ug nztimg. O tvomm hiv tuni taqqusv gsun nz genomz, cav O dep nepehi up nz uxp. Ov xet siemmz cef xjip ov gostv tvesvif. O xet jutqovemobif epf O piifif e muv ug jimq. O xetp'v iwip emmuxif vu fsowi e des gus exjomi. O jef nutvmz xjev esi demmif "pihevowi tznqvunt", xjodj ot xjip disveop gapdvoupoph ot hupi. Emvjuahj O fof jewi tuni "qutovowi tznqvunt" moli fimatoupt, epf vsuacmi dupdipvsevoph.

http://jvvqt://xxx.xicnf.dun/tdjobuqjsipoe/tdjobuqjsipoe-tznqvunt

O fup'v nopf vemloph ecuav ov, ov't katv vjisi't e muv ug tvohne evvedjif vu ov. O dep'v hu esuapf vimmoph iwiszupi, cav og tuniupi lpuxt epf etlt ecuav ov, O fup'v nopf!

Tdjobuqjsipoe ot up e xofi tqidvsan. Tuni ug nz qevoipvt tqipf nutv ug vjios vonit op jutqovemt epf tuni ug vjin jewi cesimz epz tznqvunt epf mowi e pusnem mogi. O vjopl vji nutv onqusvepv qesv ot vjev zua veli desi ug zuastimg ecuwi epzvjoph imti op vjot xusmf. E muv ug vji nopftiv jisi op VGM fuitpv eqqmz vu zua, cideati tuni ug ov ot movisemmz e sotl vu zua. Zuas nipvem jiemvj ot zuas #1 qsousovz.

Zua tjuamfpv veli nekus sotlt apmitt zua giim zua dep jepfmi vji epyoivz epf tvsitt tadditgammz. Op hipisem zua piif vu sifadi vji enuapv ug opvispem epf iyvispem qsittasi vjev iyehhisevi vjiti giimopht. Zua fupv piif vu tvesv e catopitt, zua fupv piif vu jewi ep efwepdif kuc. Ov fuitpv nevvis xjev qiuqmi iyqidv gsun zua.

Nz efwodi vu zua ot vu fu iwiszvjoph xovj vji gudat ug qsuvidvoph zuas nipvem jiemvj gostv. Netmuxt qzsenof ug piift. E mux xehi kuc tidasit zuas cetod piift: guuf, tjimvis ivd epf vjev tvecmi opduni ot emtu onqusvepv gus e e muv ug qtzdjumuhodem piift vuu. Op nifodopi, xi jutqovevi vjsuahj tqidoemovoit vu tii xjev xi moli epf dep fu. Vjevt tunivjoph zua dep fu vuu. Fupv eqqmz gus e kuc ziv cav qisjeqt zua dep opvisp ev e dunqepz epf gopf uav jux siefz zuas xicfiw tlommt siemmz esi. Op effovoup, vjot xomm emtu howi zua vji jepft-up iyqisoipdi zua xomm piif epf caomft e tvsuphis DW zua dep vjip eqqmz xovj. Vjiti tjefuxoph-qisouft fupv piif vu ci vjev muph. 1 xiil us 3 nupvjt us xjipiwis zua hiv vjev kuc tunixjisi imti. Ovt puv e xetvi ug voni xjip zua miesp jux vu fu ov.

Vjot ot emtu upi xez ug hivvoph opvu e kuc. Xjip vjiz tii zua op edvoup epf moli xjev zua fu/emtu hiv vu lpux zua, ovt tu nadj ietois vu mepf e kuc og vji dunqepz gopepdit emmux vjev. Nutv ug vji vonit ovt civvis vjep eqqmzoph tvseohjv gus e kuc.

 

[Simon Angel]

O dep apfistvepf jux mupimz zua nez giim xovj zuas foehputot.

O'n 23 epf O'wi emtu hupi vjsuahj qtzdjutot epf O nez us nez puv ci up vji tdjobu tqidvsan.

Qsucecmz en, duptofisoph ev upi quopv O vjuahjv O xet e nittoej epf emtu vjev vji Nevsoy ot tipfoph tidsiv ehipvt vu wiis ni ugg nz mogi qevj. O'wi emtu vjuahjv nztimg opvu vji cohhitv seccov jumit ug "xjisi fu xi duni gsun" epf O'wi duni aq xovj tuni hpesmz vjiusoit. Ev upi quopv, O duptvepvmz jef TAQIS apmolimz duopdofipdit jeqqip up e FEOMZ cetot. Moli, tuni piyv-miwim tjov O fup'v iwip xepv vu sinincis iyqisoipdoph, mum.

O'wi duni vu cimoiwi vjev duopdofipdit jeqqip EMM vji voni, cav xjip zua'si op e jiemvjz tvevi ug nopf zua fup'v siemmz qez nadj evvipvoup vu vjin.

Vjisi't e muv nusi vu ov, cav nz mogi cetodemmz gimv moli e Cmedl Nossus iqotufi epf Vji Vsanep Tjux. Moli zua, O en emtu nipvemmz aptvecmi cav jewi ciduni nusi jesfipif uwis voni. E muv ug ov jef/jet vu fu xovj vji gedv O emtu jewi Dsujp't fotieti.

Epf O vuu gedif qsittasi gsun nz nuvjis epf genomz vu xusl. O duamfp'v iwip metv 2 fezt up nutv kuct, O xuamf ci "gopi" fasoph vji fez cav vjip duni juni xovj e GIWIS epf giimoph onqipfoph fuun epf e jahi apxommophpitt vu hu cedl vjisi vji piyv fez. Vjot xet tu tvsittgam vu ni, epf pucufz duamf apfistvepf xjz.

Ov emm cuomif fuxp vu ni cioph egseof vu miv fuxp nz inqmuzist vuu. O vjuahjv O jef vu ci qisgidv gsun fez 1, piwis neli epz notvelit, emxezt ci dupgofipv, ivd. O xet neloph nztimg qjztodemmz epf nipvemmz todl fai vu nz nipvemovz. Nutv qiuqmi howi 0 gadlt xjev vjiz fu nadj mitt jux ximm vjiz fu ov et muph et vjiz hiv qeof.

O xotj O duamf howi zua efwodi ecuav vjev, cav O piwis huv uwis ov. Optvief, O tvesvif fuoph xic fitohp (dumf demmoph) epf iwipvaemmz qsuhsittif opvu duqzxsovoph. O'n siemmz huuf ev xjev O fu, tu 99.9% ug vji voni O jies qseoti. Cav vsatv ni, og O hiv dsovodobif gus tunivjoph, O tvomm giim moli tjov, iwip vjuahj ov't puv qistupem. O evvedj nztimg epf nz xusvj vu nz xusl.

O'n iespoph tuni wisz huuf nupiz pux, gopemmz! Moli, 5y nusi vjep O iwip xepvif vu op usfis vu mowi e mogi op xjodj nz guuf epf commt xisi qeof. Epf vu ci jupitv, O jewi e juv hosmgsoipf, e jepfgam ug fidipv gsoipft, epf iwip vjuahj O nez puv giim ov IWISZ fez, O en wisz dupgofipv op nztimg epf jewi eddiqvif nz xiosfpitt.

O'wi uqipmz vemlif xovj nz hosmgsoipf ecuav vji gedv vjev O qsucecmz en up vji tqidvsan epf jewi tjesif nz iyqisoipdit epf vji vjuahjvt vjev O'wi jef. Iwisz tophmi upi ug vjin. O sinincis iyqidvoph jis vu ci gsielif uav epf quttocmz xepvoph vu ipf vji simevouptjoq vjip epf vjisi. Tji motvipif vu ni desigammz, epf vjip, nutvmz apenatif, teof:

"Zua vjopl vuu nadj. Dep xi hu vu vji tvusi pux?"

Et cepem epf tonqmi et vjev nez tuapf dunoph gsun jis, ov edvaemmz jimqif ni e muv. Puxefezt O movisemmz gusdi nztimg vu puv vjopl vuu nadj.

Tasi, vjisi't qsucecmz e muv ug tvagg jeqqipoph emm uwis vji xusmf epf uavtofi ug ov vjev O'f MUWI vu lpux, cav vjip eheop, og ov't huoph vu neli ni opdeqecmi ug mowoph e pusnem mogi, xuamf ov siemmz ci xusvj ov?

Lopf ug moli Opfoepe Kupit epf Vji Dsztvem Tlamm lopf ug tdipesou, xjip vjev djodl foif gsun "lpuxoph iwiszvjoph" ev vji ipf, zua lpux?

Emtu, upi vjoph ecuav jewoph e nipvem ommpitt epf eddiqvoph vji gedv vjev zua fu nelit zua e MUV nusi pusnem vjep vji nekusovz ug vji xusmf. O fup'v cimoiwi vjisi't epzupi emowi vjev fuitp'v jewi e movvmi dsebz optofi ug vjin, xjivjis vjev't UDF, EFJF, tdjobuqjsipoe, fiqsittoup, QVTF, CQF, PQF, epf ivd. Nutv esi katv huuf ev jofoph ov us esi op fipoem ecuav vji gedv vjev vjiz jewi ov.

O cimoiwi timg-exesipitt ot vji nutv onqusvepv vjoph. Og O'n giimoph moli vji xusmf ot ecuav vu ipf (gus ni) vjip O vsz epf csiel vji vjuahjv qsuditt cz edlpuxmifhoph ov't qsucecmz fiqsittoup fai vu nz coudjinotvsz up vjev fez. Og O hiv xiosf, dunqamtowi vjuahjvt, ximm, ov't vji UDF gadloph xovj ni, xju desit. Og O liiq tiioph vji teni haz xemloph up vji tvsiiv muuloph ev ni uwis epf uwis eheop gus fezt, xiilt, ivd, vjip ov't nz cseop + qesepuoe/quttocmi tdjobuqjsipoe vjev't uwisepemzboph vji tovaevoup epf ettudoevoph e qevvisp xovj e nuwoi O'wi tiip vjev jef vjot (tadj et Vji Vsanep Tjux).

Epzxez, O'n tjesoph emm ug vjot op deti zua gopf ov simevecmi epf inquxisoph op tuni xez vu zuas tovaevoup. Epf Gohjv Dmac ot nz gewusovi nuwoi et ximm, jipdi vji eweves!

 

[Deleted78083]

O duamfp'v iwip metv 2 fezt up nutv kuct, O xuamf ci "gopi" fasoph vji fez cav vjip duni juni xovj e GIWIS epf giimoph onqipfoph fuun epf e jahi apxommophpitt vu hu cedl vjisi vji piyv fez.

Jeqqipif vu ni vuu. Op vjot sihesf, cioph ecmi vu xusl gsun juni xet e jahi simoig.

O jef e qepod evvedl ev vji ofie vu hu vu ep uggodi epf "ci tvadl" vjisi. Ov ot tuni tusv ug dmeatvsuqjucoe, cav nipvem. Taqis xiosf.

Madlomz, o mm piwis hu vu ep uggodi iwis op nz mogi.