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Hello Fastlaners,
First of all please forgive my rough English, I live in Belgium and speak French, and writing this thread take me a lot of focus.
[EDIT]
Initially I planned to do a very long, multi-part post to explain my life in details, but Lex's genuine interest for my present issues remind me that this is not a psychiatrists forum, but an entreprenneur's one, so I'll for a shorter version.
So it’s been 3.5 years since I read TMF and considering the present situation, it’s time for me to properly introduce myself and ask for some advices. Didn’t do it sooner because there’s so much to tell and I’m not really proud of my life until now. Maybe I was afraid and waited to get some results, finding excuses, but I have the feeling that I’m at a crossroad so it’s now or never. I must engage with the community and take action in order to get feedbacks. This is also a way to bring value on TFF, for now. Maybe someone will be inspired by my story, wich I believe is full of resilience.
In short, I'm a 33 years old, ultra-sensitive guy, living back with his mother since 2 years. Despite being in the 2.5% top IQ (military tests) and my teachers high hopes, I've failed my bio-engineering studies several times when I was younger (because freedom, weed addiction and lies to myself). This and girlfriends ruptures made me dive in a slow but sure depression and developing heavy weed and video games addiction. I've worked incredibly shitty jobs in my 20' (gas station casher, turning night shift, violents clients etc...). Despite the death of my father, in the middle of a shift, I've done them perfectly, being congratulated by my bosses. All for the sake of taking back my studies, in pure engineering, what I've do at 28, living with a girl at the capital. I have learned advanced math entry examination all by myself without any classes or teacher and nailedt it. But when my dream was about to become true, I realized that university as became a shitty place full of monkeys, and working 90hours/week without proper support made me do an explosive burnout, followed by 6 months of total terrifying depression. I began to had suicidal thoughts and some of my hair turned white.
Then (after reading Rich Dad who was... meh) I discover TMF /TFF and I get my FTE. I don't fear to tell MJ saved my life. I was suffocating, he brought me air. I felt blocked, he brought me ways. In short, MJ gave me what I no longer had: HOPE, and the realization that I can do whatever I want with my live, even at 30. It was 3 years ago and I began to slowly bounce back. Today entreprenneurship keeps me alive. It made me begin to question and work on myself, day after day.
So 3 years ago I needed to go with anything for the sake of having a purpose. I find projects about Digital Signage on TFF and began to learn linux networking, bashing, graphic design, eventually developing my own embedded chip, worldwide manageable, again all by myself with internet classes. It felt good to do something. I even learned a third language (Netherlands) in formation. But then came the COVID and with my total lack of marketing skills, I wasn't able to make it profitable. Eventually I breaked up with my girlfriend and came back at my mom's to get time to focus on my business. Nonetheless I get my feet wet and begin to do things I have never imagined I will do in my life, like prospecting large group and obtaining meeting with marketing directors.
1.5 years ago I switched project and begin to do webdesign, following the thread and youtube channel of Fox. I get few results, beginning with websites for friends and eventually sell one for 1000eu to a 25 years long self-employed accountant. All of them was very pleased with my work.
But, prospection is very hard for me. Calling 30 personn a day like some people do is something I can't do yet. So, realising I was blocked by incredible perfectionnism (excuses), delusionnal dreams and doing action-faking for a very long time, I began to take hard decision a few months ago, like giving up on my unemployement benefits, getting full self-employed (with taxes) and putting me in real financial stress in order to delete all excuses.
It worked in some way, pushing me forward, and in the last 3-4 weeks I had several realizations, like the importance of network, and the fact that I must sell strategies instead of just websites. I began to full my agenda and unlock project for next summer. But I'm in a bad financial state right now (3000eu in debt) and I need money now.
So there it is. I have never learned and growed so much as in the last 3 years, and entrepreneurship is what's preventing me to fall appart. I feel at a crossroad and I need to engage with TFF community in order to get support and advices. I bounced back from mediocrity and pain a lot of times in my life, I know what hard work and resilience is. But my action faking and lack of results have slowly eroded my motivation, the desert begin to seems very long.
Webmarketing is complicated, I have difficulties defining my USP (websites ? funnels ? email ? socials ads ?), bringing true results (other than a pretty websites) and my persona. Also phoning is very hard for me. I see the progress and that I become stronger everyday, but I need to go faster, I've lost enough time.
I'm daily fighting my depression and addiction, recently I started to manage to quit smoking weed and drink alcohol (I try since almost 2 years, I was an heavy smoker for 10+ years) and to do sport again. I see the progress in myself since 3 years, people begin to see me differently, but I feel like I'm digging in granit with a spoon.
Nonetheless I'm nowhere near to abandon entrepreneurship for it is the reason I get up in the morning.
To answer your question Lex, what advice do I need ? I don't know, sometime I begin to feel like a loser (I have the tendency to compare myself to other) but I feel like I already know what I'm doing wrong. I must focus on one product that bring results to my clients, and prospect more and more. I hesitate to take a part time job because financial stress, but I can't get over the feeling that this time should be employed for something way more profitable, like the copywriting you do. For the moment I try to sell graphic design (I'm pretty good with photoshop now) but this feel like a waste of time compared to websites and clients are annoying and pay badly.
I know I can do it, I have the feeling that I am close get real results, I work well, I evolve and question myself, but I begin to feel thirsty, of money, of live, because currently I have nothing but my health and a few friends. Maybe I just needed someone like you telling me that I can get up once f*** again. (like you just did)
First of all please forgive my rough English, I live in Belgium and speak French, and writing this thread take me a lot of focus.
[EDIT]
Initially I planned to do a very long, multi-part post to explain my life in details, but Lex's genuine interest for my present issues remind me that this is not a psychiatrists forum, but an entreprenneur's one, so I'll for a shorter version.
So it’s been 3.5 years since I read TMF and considering the present situation, it’s time for me to properly introduce myself and ask for some advices. Didn’t do it sooner because there’s so much to tell and I’m not really proud of my life until now. Maybe I was afraid and waited to get some results, finding excuses, but I have the feeling that I’m at a crossroad so it’s now or never. I must engage with the community and take action in order to get feedbacks. This is also a way to bring value on TFF, for now. Maybe someone will be inspired by my story, wich I believe is full of resilience.
In short, I'm a 33 years old, ultra-sensitive guy, living back with his mother since 2 years. Despite being in the 2.5% top IQ (military tests) and my teachers high hopes, I've failed my bio-engineering studies several times when I was younger (because freedom, weed addiction and lies to myself). This and girlfriends ruptures made me dive in a slow but sure depression and developing heavy weed and video games addiction. I've worked incredibly shitty jobs in my 20' (gas station casher, turning night shift, violents clients etc...). Despite the death of my father, in the middle of a shift, I've done them perfectly, being congratulated by my bosses. All for the sake of taking back my studies, in pure engineering, what I've do at 28, living with a girl at the capital. I have learned advanced math entry examination all by myself without any classes or teacher and nailedt it. But when my dream was about to become true, I realized that university as became a shitty place full of monkeys, and working 90hours/week without proper support made me do an explosive burnout, followed by 6 months of total terrifying depression. I began to had suicidal thoughts and some of my hair turned white.
Then (after reading Rich Dad who was... meh) I discover TMF /TFF and I get my FTE. I don't fear to tell MJ saved my life. I was suffocating, he brought me air. I felt blocked, he brought me ways. In short, MJ gave me what I no longer had: HOPE, and the realization that I can do whatever I want with my live, even at 30. It was 3 years ago and I began to slowly bounce back. Today entreprenneurship keeps me alive. It made me begin to question and work on myself, day after day.
So 3 years ago I needed to go with anything for the sake of having a purpose. I find projects about Digital Signage on TFF and began to learn linux networking, bashing, graphic design, eventually developing my own embedded chip, worldwide manageable, again all by myself with internet classes. It felt good to do something. I even learned a third language (Netherlands) in formation. But then came the COVID and with my total lack of marketing skills, I wasn't able to make it profitable. Eventually I breaked up with my girlfriend and came back at my mom's to get time to focus on my business. Nonetheless I get my feet wet and begin to do things I have never imagined I will do in my life, like prospecting large group and obtaining meeting with marketing directors.
1.5 years ago I switched project and begin to do webdesign, following the thread and youtube channel of Fox. I get few results, beginning with websites for friends and eventually sell one for 1000eu to a 25 years long self-employed accountant. All of them was very pleased with my work.
But, prospection is very hard for me. Calling 30 personn a day like some people do is something I can't do yet. So, realising I was blocked by incredible perfectionnism (excuses), delusionnal dreams and doing action-faking for a very long time, I began to take hard decision a few months ago, like giving up on my unemployement benefits, getting full self-employed (with taxes) and putting me in real financial stress in order to delete all excuses.
It worked in some way, pushing me forward, and in the last 3-4 weeks I had several realizations, like the importance of network, and the fact that I must sell strategies instead of just websites. I began to full my agenda and unlock project for next summer. But I'm in a bad financial state right now (3000eu in debt) and I need money now.
So there it is. I have never learned and growed so much as in the last 3 years, and entrepreneurship is what's preventing me to fall appart. I feel at a crossroad and I need to engage with TFF community in order to get support and advices. I bounced back from mediocrity and pain a lot of times in my life, I know what hard work and resilience is. But my action faking and lack of results have slowly eroded my motivation, the desert begin to seems very long.
Webmarketing is complicated, I have difficulties defining my USP (websites ? funnels ? email ? socials ads ?), bringing true results (other than a pretty websites) and my persona. Also phoning is very hard for me. I see the progress and that I become stronger everyday, but I need to go faster, I've lost enough time.
I'm daily fighting my depression and addiction, recently I started to manage to quit smoking weed and drink alcohol (I try since almost 2 years, I was an heavy smoker for 10+ years) and to do sport again. I see the progress in myself since 3 years, people begin to see me differently, but I feel like I'm digging in granit with a spoon.
Nonetheless I'm nowhere near to abandon entrepreneurship for it is the reason I get up in the morning.
To answer your question Lex, what advice do I need ? I don't know, sometime I begin to feel like a loser (I have the tendency to compare myself to other) but I feel like I already know what I'm doing wrong. I must focus on one product that bring results to my clients, and prospect more and more. I hesitate to take a part time job because financial stress, but I can't get over the feeling that this time should be employed for something way more profitable, like the copywriting you do. For the moment I try to sell graphic design (I'm pretty good with photoshop now) but this feel like a waste of time compared to websites and clients are annoying and pay badly.
I know I can do it, I have the feeling that I am close get real results, I work well, I evolve and question myself, but I begin to feel thirsty, of money, of live, because currently I have nothing but my health and a few friends. Maybe I just needed someone like you telling me that I can get up once f*** again. (like you just did)
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