Fear of Failure or Fear of Hurting my Confidence

[Rangermac2]

Hey everyone, came across a conundrum while writing an algorithm for a service. I chose to use Java to challenge myself and have been learning it in college so it would be good for congruence.
When I first started writing the algorithm I made exponential progress, experimenting, testing, and finding new solutions. As it has become more intricate and difficult I noticed I've been less willing to take risks and fail. Right now I see the problems as big obstacles and have decided to avoid trying to find a solution as it's "extra work". So my productivity on it has been decreasing. My schedule is to have the second version done in the next 2 weeks as version one I made nearly 2 weeks ago and took about 3 days to build.

For further context about my action faking, I've got multiple methods built and I need to isolate one part and so for the last week or more I've opened up 2 new files and copy and pasted it in there and then said "I'll fix it later" but I can't continue without fixing this issue.

I recognize that when I fail I get discouraged and am too hard on myself about it. I know that a failed attempt means progress as long as I keep attempting but at the same time I get very unmotivated by these failures. Does anyone else face similar situations where the fear of failing a design, process, or creation has resulted in the lack of action or action faking?

 

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[MJ DeMarco]

You're enduring a process, it is normal. It is what separates quitters and winners. Mediocrity from good.

What's the difference between the version that creates a REAL solution, and the one you want to whip out fast?

 

[Rangermac2]

You're enduring a process, it is normal. It is what separates quitters and winners. Mediocrity from good.

What's the difference between the version that creates a REAL solution, and the one you want to whip out fast?

That makes sense hadn't considered that position. Shows that I'm in a tortoise and the hare situation but I have no one I'm really racing or competing against other than myself and what I can take.

And that's a really good point there, that it's only a "REAL Solution" if done properly and if I don't give up because of the resistance I am facing. Thanks MJ, you have me reflecting right now, regarding my priorities with my product and its potential if I continue down the path of mediocrity instead of following the process and building it correctly.