Hi everyone, my first post here (yes first strong post right here hehe) I'm a 18 years old argentinian been lurking on the forum for a few weeks. I have been living alone since my 17's and I am med student also. Last 2 month I'm having a mild depression, things that happened are affect me to much, I though it was weird or not.
For a long time, I was the "I don't give a F*ck about anything kind of kid", yeah, " so badass", but now thinking about it, I was not. I was to absorbed into playing MMO'S 8 hours a day, fapping myself multiple times a day, a being an arrogant phrick. "Hey I can talk 2 languages (espanish as native, english 2d language) being only 16" Ha, I wished I write like a 6th grader. Though everything has changed since the beggining of this year when I entered into med school. I started reading Victor Pride blog, (Who took me here) Stop fapping, stop watching TV and drinking, I haven't smoke weed in more than a year. I started lifting, and being obssesive, all this stuff got me to the 5th place of GPA, at my med school where 1800 students are attending regularly. I was already lifting, but I started getting knowledge on the subject.
Now that's good, but right now that I'm more into real life and less into fantasy.(I haven't played video games in llike a year)Everything nice to this point, but I started getting depressed as F*ck when I fail. Tried to lost my virginity with this girl, my dick went full limp (Never fappened again or watched porn, that was 3 months a go). I went on a cut, as I tought I would right now sitting comfortably at 10%, I'm struggling to get to 12% though, I'm not as muscular as I tought, loosing over 20 pounds. A lot of frustation going on, tried 1 more time to have sex and failed miserably. I get girls cause I know how to look like an alpha, but since during my early teen years I failed with girls and was bullied, those insecutirities when it comes to social skills, are still there.
Right now I get more angry, furius I would say and obviously less tolerant to bullshit, I am way more sensitive to what people say also, hell break lose on my head when people attack me verbally, when I look like a I don't give F*ck. I'm having my last exam on 5th of december, Monday 7th, I'm gonna start writting my first book.
I'm having a freaking rollerCoster of emotions like I am a preteen girl, I want to have stable mind with possitive thoughts most of the time.
If you have any tips to help or anything, I would gladly accept them, I'm 18 years old, but I'm quite new to living life. My eyes are wide open now, I totally committed to succeed, and I will, but some help on the experienced one would help.
Long post sorry.
For a long time, I was the "I don't give a F*ck about anything kind of kid", yeah, " so badass", but now thinking about it, I was not. I was to absorbed into playing MMO'S 8 hours a day, fapping myself multiple times a day, a being an arrogant phrick. "Hey I can talk 2 languages (espanish as native, english 2d language) being only 16" Ha, I wished I write like a 6th grader. Though everything has changed since the beggining of this year when I entered into med school. I started reading Victor Pride blog, (Who took me here) Stop fapping, stop watching TV and drinking, I haven't smoke weed in more than a year. I started lifting, and being obssesive, all this stuff got me to the 5th place of GPA, at my med school where 1800 students are attending regularly. I was already lifting, but I started getting knowledge on the subject.
Now that's good, but right now that I'm more into real life and less into fantasy.(I haven't played video games in llike a year)Everything nice to this point, but I started getting depressed as F*ck when I fail. Tried to lost my virginity with this girl, my dick went full limp (Never fappened again or watched porn, that was 3 months a go). I went on a cut, as I tought I would right now sitting comfortably at 10%, I'm struggling to get to 12% though, I'm not as muscular as I tought, loosing over 20 pounds. A lot of frustation going on, tried 1 more time to have sex and failed miserably. I get girls cause I know how to look like an alpha, but since during my early teen years I failed with girls and was bullied, those insecutirities when it comes to social skills, are still there.
Right now I get more angry, furius I would say and obviously less tolerant to bullshit, I am way more sensitive to what people say also, hell break lose on my head when people attack me verbally, when I look like a I don't give F*ck. I'm having my last exam on 5th of december, Monday 7th, I'm gonna start writting my first book.
I'm having a freaking rollerCoster of emotions like I am a preteen girl, I want to have stable mind with possitive thoughts most of the time.
If you have any tips to help or anything, I would gladly accept them, I'm 18 years old, but I'm quite new to living life. My eyes are wide open now, I totally committed to succeed, and I will, but some help on the experienced one would help.
Long post sorry.
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