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Hi, can i rant?
Well... either way i can't hear you so let's proceed.
[Warning, VERY long post ahead]
INTRO
My first post on this forum was May 2023 and back then i was working on a project which was put into a freezer due to the inability to release this product without any sort of bigger prior investment.
I drifted through my life and walked the slowlane and sidewalk because i had no idea what to do in life i tried many different things but nothing fully worked out due to reasons*
*could never dedicate fully because i was doubting myself all the time
In 2022 i stumbled upon a self-improvement YouTuber called Hamza and through him i discovered the fastlane entrepreneurship and by extension the Millionaire Fastlane .
And that's where the story begins...
CHAPTER 1 – THE REIGNITION
I mentioned that i drifted through life without any specific goal and that is true... to an extent.
I always had big dreams and goals but no idea how to execute on them and my mind was swarmed with limiting believes implanted into my mind by a toxic environment.
To those who don't fully understand. Mind that i was born in the 90's in the post-soviet era Poland, eastern europe.
The mentality of people here at that time was that if someone is rich it's either a politician or a criminal/scammer, because those were the only ways to become rich during communism.
And my family was the same.
My parents became "middle class-rich"due to immigrating to france and working on a grey market (so nothing illegal, just outside of the gov. watch so they paid zero taxes half their life's because of that).
Obviously hard construction work for 20 years or going to university was the only advice i heard from my parents and I was always a rebel so obviously i didn't want any of that.
Fast forward and i am in my 20's and i abandoned university and did... nothing. I worked here and there but had a very boring life wasting my time with video games, junk food etc.
However I always had a great passion for stories.
Storytelling was very close to my heart because i lived in a abusive household and movies/tv shows/cartoons and games were my escapism and they kinda built my personality during my youth.
But then covid came and my life spiraled to oblivion i gained a lot of weight, lost my girlfriend, was more alone than ever and more broke than ever.
It is a different story on it's own but then i found Hamza and his self-improvement which helped with my mental and physical health and i also found the idea of fastlane entrepreneurship.
This sparked a long lost flame of passion and hope for the future. I hated my 9-5 job and i hated my current state of life. This however made me passionate about my life again.
So i started working.
CHAPTER 2 – TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS
Almost as if by fate a friend of mine contacted me that he and another friend would like to work on a big project, starting small.
Creating a fictional universe as a marketing property. They knew that i was working as a hobby on my own fictional universe so they invited me, since they didn't want to start with nothing.
Of course I agreed, it was a non-brainer tbh.
So we started, we brainstormed ideas how to start.
The idea was – a board game.
What board game? Well we wanted to make something that would sell so we decided to go with a wargame-boardgame (if you are not in the niche i know it might be confusing but bear with me).
I used to play a lot of tabletop wargames with figurines and such and i know for sure (since i was in the community for some years) that there is a market for a cheap wargame that is ready to play out of the box.
I don't know how many people i met that said that they would love to try wargaming but the plastic figures are too expensive and even if they would buy them they are not passionate about painting them. They would like to just play.
And with that idea we went working on it.
It took us one-one and a half years, we polished the mechanics to be a balance of "complicated enough to be challenging" but not too complex to overwhelm the player.
We had around 50-60 tests with us and other people. They all loved it, we also loved it.
A huge green flag was the fact that during longer breaks, both we the creators and our testing subjects wanted to just play... for fun. (and still to this day i got questions about just playing it)
But then we hit a wall.
First - one of those friend that i worked with had a massive lawsuit with his previous firm that he worked on and opted out of the project because court cases are straining on mental health.
The other one was that we didn't know how to actually release it. We consulted a veteran of the industry and we got a massive blackpill:
-Either we needed to have a publisher who would sponsor us but... First – they would take a big cut
Second – wargames are a niche and without a portfolio of previous games publishers would just not accept us
Or
-Publish it via kickstarter or other crowdfunding place.
The issue here was... it's impossible to make it without prior investment. People buy with their eyeballs and we had no concept arts, we didn't have the money to hire an artist and we would also need to print a couple of boxes to send to reviewers... and that would also cost some money.
For people who earn 3-5k$+ a month that would not be a problem but we didn't have that much money.
With that blackpill we tried another tabletop game but this time simpler and easier... however knowing that it would take another 1-2 years probably and with zero hopes we kinda froze the project due to this reason.
CHAPTER 3 – THE VALLEY OF DESPAIR
During all of this I started my YouTube channel i started making content about storytelling and worldbuilding, hoping that if i manage to break on YT i would have enough fans to sponsor this project with passion alone.
Also i always wanted to make a community where i help people with their writing, both in terms of quality but also the mindset as the YouTube niche of writing is... it's so bad.
Like seriously when i did the market research the vast majority of big channels just repeat boring general advice that is either bad or just so simple and useless that it pains my eyes.
The issue was that those stupid "writing advice" videos that had zero value got hundreds of thousands if not MILIONS of views.
My channel however... it seems like youtube created a hard line where my videos are not allowed to break 13k views.
I have 2k subscribers now and i know that the quality of my videos are not super amazing, but i constantly get comments and DM's on how amazing and unique my channel is, how it feels like a breath of fresh air because i don't repeat the exact same thing as the bagilions of writing channels do and how i actually helped some people (one person even called me his "guru"xD )
I even set up a course product but... no sales for now.
But then the crash hit.
I lost my job. And i couldn't find another for almost 7 months.
I burned ALL of my savings and spiraled into debt.
I was living with my parents through this time and it was a very bad environment to be in. My productivity fell and i got into arguments almost on a daily basis.
I did work from time to time in different places but they paid very little compared to my previous job.
Finally in June/July this year i manage to find a well paid 9-5. It's a rat's cage but at least it's better than being broke and with a very toxic environment.
So now, halfway of October i finally stabilized my situation.
OUTRO – THE CURRENT STATE
But the issue is... i feel like i achieved NOTHING in those 2 years.
I only gained my YouTube channel with it's 2k subscribers but i haven't posted in awhile and i cannot seem to break the algorithm, the quality is getting better but... without any hopes of a breakthrough my energy is starting to leak.
I gained weight during this extremely stressful time where i lost my job. In the mean time my relation with my family plummeted.
A very close childhood friend of mine also committed suicide.
Those 7 months were extremely taxing on my mental health and general attitude.
Now after 2 years from starting this journey i feel a bit hopeless.
Yeah, sure i have the YouTube channel but i earned literally ZERO $ in those 2 years from all of my projects.
I sacrificed a lot of my friendships, relationships, my mental health got worse and i took holidays just to work more on my entrepreneurship journey.
I feel like time is slipping by, i see my receding hairline and all of my gym gains were lost during those 7 months of stress and i gained 8kg during that time.
Also I spotted my first grey hair and i have no vision of a wife and a kid in any future since i committed myself so much to this journey.
I feel lost and out of hope. There is the ember, the fire inside me, i know that.
But i desperately need a win. ANY win to rekindle it.
Just literally 1 sale.
My dream is to explode on YouTube and start a SKOOL community, sponsor my tabletop wargame and the fictional universe i am so passionate about. Help people with their writing, support other great creators and writers (as we desperately need good writing in this era of hollywood garbage). And if i would manage to gain enough money and reputation i would like to create a non-profit organisation that help aspiring writers as i hate the stereotype of the "broke artist".
There is even one podcast in my niche i would love to hop on it's called EFAP and before you ask - no it's NOT "electronic fapping" xD
I am writing this post because audible gave me a deal of 0.99$ for 4 months so i bought the last MJ De Marco book i haven't read/listened to – "The Great Rat Race Escape ".
What i would ask is an advice. Some help with the direction i should take because i feel like all my energy that i invested got nothing in return and in the same time i feel like life is slipping away. I want a loving family and a successful passionate entrepreneurship based on the thing i know about.
Thank you for reading if you manage to reach this point.
[TL;DR after wasting my 20's i started my entrepreneurship journey, after 2 years of relentless work i got no result and a personal crisis shattered a lot of my energy and enthusiasm, i need some advice to get out of the situation i'm in, thanks for help]
Well... either way i can't hear you so let's proceed.
[Warning, VERY long post ahead]
INTRO
My first post on this forum was May 2023 and back then i was working on a project which was put into a freezer due to the inability to release this product without any sort of bigger prior investment.
I drifted through my life and walked the slowlane and sidewalk because i had no idea what to do in life i tried many different things but nothing fully worked out due to reasons*
*could never dedicate fully because i was doubting myself all the time
In 2022 i stumbled upon a self-improvement YouTuber called Hamza and through him i discovered the fastlane entrepreneurship and by extension the Millionaire Fastlane .
And that's where the story begins...
CHAPTER 1 – THE REIGNITION
I mentioned that i drifted through life without any specific goal and that is true... to an extent.
I always had big dreams and goals but no idea how to execute on them and my mind was swarmed with limiting believes implanted into my mind by a toxic environment.
To those who don't fully understand. Mind that i was born in the 90's in the post-soviet era Poland, eastern europe.
The mentality of people here at that time was that if someone is rich it's either a politician or a criminal/scammer, because those were the only ways to become rich during communism.
And my family was the same.
My parents became "middle class-rich"due to immigrating to france and working on a grey market (so nothing illegal, just outside of the gov. watch so they paid zero taxes half their life's because of that).
Obviously hard construction work for 20 years or going to university was the only advice i heard from my parents and I was always a rebel so obviously i didn't want any of that.
Fast forward and i am in my 20's and i abandoned university and did... nothing. I worked here and there but had a very boring life wasting my time with video games, junk food etc.
However I always had a great passion for stories.
Storytelling was very close to my heart because i lived in a abusive household and movies/tv shows/cartoons and games were my escapism and they kinda built my personality during my youth.
But then covid came and my life spiraled to oblivion i gained a lot of weight, lost my girlfriend, was more alone than ever and more broke than ever.
It is a different story on it's own but then i found Hamza and his self-improvement which helped with my mental and physical health and i also found the idea of fastlane entrepreneurship.
This sparked a long lost flame of passion and hope for the future. I hated my 9-5 job and i hated my current state of life. This however made me passionate about my life again.
So i started working.
CHAPTER 2 – TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS
Almost as if by fate a friend of mine contacted me that he and another friend would like to work on a big project, starting small.
Creating a fictional universe as a marketing property. They knew that i was working as a hobby on my own fictional universe so they invited me, since they didn't want to start with nothing.
Of course I agreed, it was a non-brainer tbh.
So we started, we brainstormed ideas how to start.
The idea was – a board game.
What board game? Well we wanted to make something that would sell so we decided to go with a wargame-boardgame (if you are not in the niche i know it might be confusing but bear with me).
I used to play a lot of tabletop wargames with figurines and such and i know for sure (since i was in the community for some years) that there is a market for a cheap wargame that is ready to play out of the box.
I don't know how many people i met that said that they would love to try wargaming but the plastic figures are too expensive and even if they would buy them they are not passionate about painting them. They would like to just play.
And with that idea we went working on it.
It took us one-one and a half years, we polished the mechanics to be a balance of "complicated enough to be challenging" but not too complex to overwhelm the player.
We had around 50-60 tests with us and other people. They all loved it, we also loved it.
A huge green flag was the fact that during longer breaks, both we the creators and our testing subjects wanted to just play... for fun. (and still to this day i got questions about just playing it)
But then we hit a wall.
First - one of those friend that i worked with had a massive lawsuit with his previous firm that he worked on and opted out of the project because court cases are straining on mental health.
The other one was that we didn't know how to actually release it. We consulted a veteran of the industry and we got a massive blackpill:
-Either we needed to have a publisher who would sponsor us but... First – they would take a big cut
Second – wargames are a niche and without a portfolio of previous games publishers would just not accept us
Or
-Publish it via kickstarter or other crowdfunding place.
The issue here was... it's impossible to make it without prior investment. People buy with their eyeballs and we had no concept arts, we didn't have the money to hire an artist and we would also need to print a couple of boxes to send to reviewers... and that would also cost some money.
For people who earn 3-5k$+ a month that would not be a problem but we didn't have that much money.
With that blackpill we tried another tabletop game but this time simpler and easier... however knowing that it would take another 1-2 years probably and with zero hopes we kinda froze the project due to this reason.
CHAPTER 3 – THE VALLEY OF DESPAIR
During all of this I started my YouTube channel i started making content about storytelling and worldbuilding, hoping that if i manage to break on YT i would have enough fans to sponsor this project with passion alone.
Also i always wanted to make a community where i help people with their writing, both in terms of quality but also the mindset as the YouTube niche of writing is... it's so bad.
Like seriously when i did the market research the vast majority of big channels just repeat boring general advice that is either bad or just so simple and useless that it pains my eyes.
The issue was that those stupid "writing advice" videos that had zero value got hundreds of thousands if not MILIONS of views.
My channel however... it seems like youtube created a hard line where my videos are not allowed to break 13k views.
I have 2k subscribers now and i know that the quality of my videos are not super amazing, but i constantly get comments and DM's on how amazing and unique my channel is, how it feels like a breath of fresh air because i don't repeat the exact same thing as the bagilions of writing channels do and how i actually helped some people (one person even called me his "guru"xD )
I even set up a course product but... no sales for now.
But then the crash hit.
I lost my job. And i couldn't find another for almost 7 months.
I burned ALL of my savings and spiraled into debt.
I was living with my parents through this time and it was a very bad environment to be in. My productivity fell and i got into arguments almost on a daily basis.
I did work from time to time in different places but they paid very little compared to my previous job.
Finally in June/July this year i manage to find a well paid 9-5. It's a rat's cage but at least it's better than being broke and with a very toxic environment.
So now, halfway of October i finally stabilized my situation.
OUTRO – THE CURRENT STATE
But the issue is... i feel like i achieved NOTHING in those 2 years.
I only gained my YouTube channel with it's 2k subscribers but i haven't posted in awhile and i cannot seem to break the algorithm, the quality is getting better but... without any hopes of a breakthrough my energy is starting to leak.
I gained weight during this extremely stressful time where i lost my job. In the mean time my relation with my family plummeted.
A very close childhood friend of mine also committed suicide.
Those 7 months were extremely taxing on my mental health and general attitude.
Now after 2 years from starting this journey i feel a bit hopeless.
Yeah, sure i have the YouTube channel but i earned literally ZERO $ in those 2 years from all of my projects.
I sacrificed a lot of my friendships, relationships, my mental health got worse and i took holidays just to work more on my entrepreneurship journey.
I feel like time is slipping by, i see my receding hairline and all of my gym gains were lost during those 7 months of stress and i gained 8kg during that time.
Also I spotted my first grey hair and i have no vision of a wife and a kid in any future since i committed myself so much to this journey.
I feel lost and out of hope. There is the ember, the fire inside me, i know that.
But i desperately need a win. ANY win to rekindle it.
Just literally 1 sale.
My dream is to explode on YouTube and start a SKOOL community, sponsor my tabletop wargame and the fictional universe i am so passionate about. Help people with their writing, support other great creators and writers (as we desperately need good writing in this era of hollywood garbage). And if i would manage to gain enough money and reputation i would like to create a non-profit organisation that help aspiring writers as i hate the stereotype of the "broke artist".
There is even one podcast in my niche i would love to hop on it's called EFAP and before you ask - no it's NOT "electronic fapping" xD
I am writing this post because audible gave me a deal of 0.99$ for 4 months so i bought the last MJ De Marco book i haven't read/listened to – "The Great Rat Race Escape ".
What i would ask is an advice. Some help with the direction i should take because i feel like all my energy that i invested got nothing in return and in the same time i feel like life is slipping away. I want a loving family and a successful passionate entrepreneurship based on the thing i know about.
Thank you for reading if you manage to reach this point.
[TL;DR after wasting my 20's i started my entrepreneurship journey, after 2 years of relentless work i got no result and a personal crisis shattered a lot of my energy and enthusiasm, i need some advice to get out of the situation i'm in, thanks for help]
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