Fairhill
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- Jun 7, 2018
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After 4 years of hard work, I 'made it'. I don't have to work anymore, at an age of 27. While I can't eat in michelin-star restaurants every day, or buy a lambo in cash, my company generates enough money for me to live very comfortably, and all I do is a weekly meeting with the CEO. 60 minutes of work every week. I am essentially retired. (Although since I haven't sold the company and cashed out yet, the company could crash at any time essentially pulling me out of retirement..)
Instead of feeling awesome, I was hit with the most intense existential crisis and anxiety I have ever experienced in my life. My mind went into full panic mode and started questioning everything. Felt like I was being ripped apart. It's now month 4 since that started and it seems I'm finally coming out of it.
I'm still trying to make sense of it all. Maybe it was accumulated stress and surpressed emotions/thoughts finally being allowed to come out. Maybe it's just genetic predisposition. Maybe the spiritual books I've read over the years planted a seed that finally burst and it's part of a deeper transformation in my identity and worldview. Or maybe a combination of all of those things. I'm still cycling through different emotions, and at times I am filled with a deeper peace than ever before.
In a way these 4 months have been more challenging than the 4 years of hard hard work building my business. I'm excited to see what happens from here.
Instead of feeling awesome, I was hit with the most intense existential crisis and anxiety I have ever experienced in my life. My mind went into full panic mode and started questioning everything. Felt like I was being ripped apart. It's now month 4 since that started and it seems I'm finally coming out of it.
I'm still trying to make sense of it all. Maybe it was accumulated stress and surpressed emotions/thoughts finally being allowed to come out. Maybe it's just genetic predisposition. Maybe the spiritual books I've read over the years planted a seed that finally burst and it's part of a deeper transformation in my identity and worldview. Or maybe a combination of all of those things. I'm still cycling through different emotions, and at times I am filled with a deeper peace than ever before.
In a way these 4 months have been more challenging than the 4 years of hard hard work building my business. I'm excited to see what happens from here.
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