Hello my name is Otis. I am an eighteen-year-old first-year student in the university. I have been lurking in the forum for several months now always consuming in the background and never providing anything of value. And I really want to change all that. I read all of MJ's books (every last one) last year during the long University strike(1 year) in my country (Nigeria). I discovered MJ's books through a YouTube video "The Untold Truth About Money" from there I read Unscripted and TMF . Unscripted is and will always be the best book I've ever read in my life. It exposed the financial lie, the conventional path go to school, graduate, get a good job. It changed the way I think and also opened my mind to multiple possibilities, what I didn't know was possible for me finally were, so as my dream of becoming a billionaire creating a legacy and living in Los Angeles, California. THANK YOU MJ FOR THOSE PRECIOUS BOOKS. Now I wish to give the reason for my lurking. During that year(2022) after reading all of MJ's books I started reading more and more books (mostly ebooks). I would read them for hours (9 hours on average) every day and I perform this routine for weeks. I would read slowly and aggressively trying to consume every single line of text I could. After all that I developed an eye movement problem/oculomotor dysfunction. I could no longer read as smooth and seamless as before and it made comprehending what I read very hard. I visited two optometrists but all they did was prescribe drugs, artificial tear drops and glasses which didn't solve the problem. I researched the problem and found out that the solution would be vision therapy but most clinics in my country don't offer it. I found out on the internet only one clinic offered it and that's in the country's capital, which is very far from where I reside but I can't go get treatment there because my family fears of the risk of a terrorist attack when traveling that far(and also because of the lack of funds). So I left the problem alone and started my first semester at the university in December. After five months in the university I didn't really accomplish anything significant. All I did was become a lazy person, procrastinate on my goals and not progress any way I can. All i did was was binge watch YouTube videos and not do anything meaningful with my time.My grades also suffered. At the time I thought it was my reading problem that stopped me from progressing but now I think I just used it as an excuse. Last month I visited a third optometrist and they still couldn't solve the problem. This time they advocated some "unorthodox treatments". The second semester just started and I'm trying to improve myself despite the problem but I just can't get that "push" to do the hard things I'm supposed to do. Everyday i feel tired and unmotivated. Whenever I try to do something productive with my time I feel like giving up after a few minutes of work. I am also a very introverted person as I have almost no friends, talking to people scares me, the only people I see more often are the ones who wants to take/get things for me. I also notice i care way too much of what others think of me. I think some of these problems i'm facing were as a result of my (very loving mother) doing lots of things for me while in secondary school(High School) and not allowing me to stand up for myself enough/face challenging situations. High school has shaped me in way that hinders my ability to achieve success. I am also always in fear of failure which makes me have a mental breakdown whenever something/situation doesn't go my way. I want to get fully started on my entrepreneurial journey but my perfectionist mind rules and I always imagine the perfect day when I finally start a business. Now I'm considering the idea of selling Digital products (an idea i got from lex DeVille's thread) so i could raise some value vouchers to fix my problem(vision-related). Okay i'm done talking about my problems. I hope to turn all this around and also to contribute and write value-adding content. And also one day I could write my own Unscripted story. Thank you for Reading
Dislike ads? Remove them and support the forum:
Subscribe to Fastlane Insiders.
Last edited: