No need for details, they are my own and wouldn't help anyone else. Afterward, I realized up to that moment, I had been action faking, piddle farting, and investing in events instead of getting on with it. I can no longer walk that path. It doesn't work for me as of 7:45 EST this morning. It was eye opening, and I'm glad that something big enough finally hit me to get me moving in the right direction. Now I will work toward handing the FU moment to my employer.