You have low self-esteem and don't believe in yourself.
If your self-worth is lower than what you're trying to achieve, then you'll find ways to sabotage yourself so you don't achieve it. Right now your brain's telling you that you don't deserve the fastlane, and so you're sabotaging yourself by not even finishing the book.
Your next step should not just be "finishing the book", but finding a way to improve your self worth.
Change your friend group. Start going to meetups.
Do things that sound as stupid as buying new clothes, shaving, and working out.
You don't believe in yourself, and until you do, you won't achieve anything. The second you realize that and realize that you deserve a better life, and are capable of creating a better life, that's when things will "click" for you.
If your self-worth is lower than what you're trying to achieve, then you'll find ways to sabotage yourself so you don't achieve it. Right now your brain's telling you that you don't deserve the fastlane, and so you're sabotaging yourself by not even finishing the book.
Your next step should not just be "finishing the book", but finding a way to improve your self worth.
Change your friend group. Start going to meetups.
Do things that sound as stupid as buying new clothes, shaving, and working out.
You don't believe in yourself, and until you do, you won't achieve anything. The second you realize that and realize that you deserve a better life, and are capable of creating a better life, that's when things will "click" for you.