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Fear
I realize I look like a total flake, if not a troll (since of the past few threads), but my life took drastic turns yesterday. Fear took over me, and I am never afraid , but yesterday morning when I look at the peeling walls of my bedroom... I thought to myself, "Where shall I go? What shall I do? I am going no where. I am going to be a loser. I haven't earn a steady paycheck in over 6 months... I need money. I shouldn't have to be living like this! I'm too good for this..." My pride for independence/freedom, has resulted me in losing money/time... I am going no where....
I made a few phone calls, pull a few strings, and I landed myself a 2 year contract as a factory worker a few hours later (19k a year; 40 hrs a week... in Dallas)... my father hires people for a company *different last names*, and I am going to live with him, which initially bother me, but then I realize I would consider an in-district student, rent-free, the city he lives in is booming, and I would be 10X better than being in a city collapse by the Recession. I could walk down my street here, houses are burn/broken down, gun shots at night, it's like a war going through here.... while my dad lives in a plush apartment in one of the nicest cities in US
I decided on this,
1. I am going back to college, really starting over but I'm not telling anyone that
2. I am going to save every penny I can. (besides helping with some of the bills)
3. I am going to get a night job as supplemental income (20 hrs on top of my 40)
4. Save 30k a year, at least.
5. Work as hard as I can. (buy another house)
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At first, all these ideas about the fastlane ran through my head, but then I thought.... "insanity is doing the same thing hoping for the same results".... Why should I have to suffer...? Oh, Lawd, I don't want to suffer no more.
So my thread here is about this.....Has anyone here left *temporarily* the fastlane philosophy, for the slowlane, to pursue college/work so you can plan for a better future.
......
This will be my life for at least the next 2 years. (beyond that, who knows)
I realize I look like a total flake, if not a troll (since of the past few threads), but my life took drastic turns yesterday. Fear took over me, and I am never afraid , but yesterday morning when I look at the peeling walls of my bedroom... I thought to myself, "Where shall I go? What shall I do? I am going no where. I am going to be a loser. I haven't earn a steady paycheck in over 6 months... I need money. I shouldn't have to be living like this! I'm too good for this..." My pride for independence/freedom, has resulted me in losing money/time... I am going no where....
I made a few phone calls, pull a few strings, and I landed myself a 2 year contract as a factory worker a few hours later (19k a year; 40 hrs a week... in Dallas)... my father hires people for a company *different last names*, and I am going to live with him, which initially bother me, but then I realize I would consider an in-district student, rent-free, the city he lives in is booming, and I would be 10X better than being in a city collapse by the Recession. I could walk down my street here, houses are burn/broken down, gun shots at night, it's like a war going through here.... while my dad lives in a plush apartment in one of the nicest cities in US
I decided on this,
1. I am going back to college, really starting over but I'm not telling anyone that
2. I am going to save every penny I can. (besides helping with some of the bills)
3. I am going to get a night job as supplemental income (20 hrs on top of my 40)
4. Save 30k a year, at least.
5. Work as hard as I can. (buy another house)
----
At first, all these ideas about the fastlane ran through my head, but then I thought.... "insanity is doing the same thing hoping for the same results".... Why should I have to suffer...? Oh, Lawd, I don't want to suffer no more.
So my thread here is about this.....Has anyone here left *temporarily* the fastlane philosophy, for the slowlane, to pursue college/work so you can plan for a better future.
......
This will be my life for at least the next 2 years. (beyond that, who knows)
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