First, I can see how, given the events you've laid out, you could make yourself feel pretty low & that the world might appear to hold few opportunities.
However, I also see you taking action--not just thinking or action faking. You've sold lots of stuff, and you've gotten a ton of cold calling experience. Those are valuable.
Comparing ourselves to others is dangerous. The only person you should compare yourself to is you: are you actions today better than yesterday?
Ah, parents. Yes, we're well-meaning, but we can have a hard time putting ourselves in our kids shoes, hearing what they want, and supporting them as they strive for it. Parents want to protect you from harm. But you're young & have time on your side--there's lots of runway for you to get airborne. If your parents are slowlane but want to support your entrepreneurial path, they might be pushing you to network marketing possibly because its something sorta entrepreneurial (not really) that they're familiar with or heard of; but I doubt it's for you.
Stop beating yourself up about past decisions. We've all made foolish decisions--easy to see in hindsight; the consequences (debt, etc.) are the price of tuition for learning those lessons. What can you learn from those actions & outcomes?
Instead, I'd suggest following @Andy Black's advice: find someone today who you can help. Helping others gets us out of that dark place. Create value for others, and the money will follow.
You can do this.
However, I also see you taking action--not just thinking or action faking. You've sold lots of stuff, and you've gotten a ton of cold calling experience. Those are valuable.
Comparing ourselves to others is dangerous. The only person you should compare yourself to is you: are you actions today better than yesterday?
Ah, parents. Yes, we're well-meaning, but we can have a hard time putting ourselves in our kids shoes, hearing what they want, and supporting them as they strive for it. Parents want to protect you from harm. But you're young & have time on your side--there's lots of runway for you to get airborne. If your parents are slowlane but want to support your entrepreneurial path, they might be pushing you to network marketing possibly because its something sorta entrepreneurial (not really) that they're familiar with or heard of; but I doubt it's for you.
Stop beating yourself up about past decisions. We've all made foolish decisions--easy to see in hindsight; the consequences (debt, etc.) are the price of tuition for learning those lessons. What can you learn from those actions & outcomes?
Instead, I'd suggest following @Andy Black's advice: find someone today who you can help. Helping others gets us out of that dark place. Create value for others, and the money will follow.
You can do this.