Hi guys!
I haven't been active for a while. Why? It's quite simple actually - I had been fighting my demons for more than a year. I had been critically depressed. Depression was so serious that I was contemplating suicide at least 5 times a week. Why?
Take my glasses and let's go for a ride...
Long story short, I am quite established guy, but all cool stuff ended when my first business crashed. I fell into very deep depression. I tried to lift myself up once, twice....again and again...only to fall deeper into depression. I created a mental jail where I was an inmate and vicious security guard who did a pretty good job for a long time...
For entire two years I couldn't lift myself up. I turned into fat tart, started smoking weed to release some mental pain and was contemplating suicide and usually falling asleep while still crying in my pillow...crying, because pain was so severe and I was so lost that suicide seemed to be the only answer...
Nobody seemed to care about me. Apart of guys who needed my brain power to come with solutions to solve their problems. As soon as I solved them 'friends' left me and I fell into deep depression once again...
I tried to stand on my feet like 20 times, if not more. Most people gave up on me. To some extent even my mother, who is the only family member I have. But I didn't fully gave up on myself, which is the reason why I am still alive and sharing this story with you all...
I had created multiple threads on forum about my plan for a recovery. All of them gathering dust in archives. I made many plans, which have never been executed to this day... I failed at all of them, again, again, again and damn again!
It seemed like I was possessed by some entity. For entire two years I couldn't pick myself up. I was coming up with various reasons to not work on my business. I was spending hours sitting in a sitting room, pretending to watch a TV while drowning in my own thoughts...I couldn't hear TV, I couldn't hear what people were talking in the room... I was somewhere deep down inside myself. This usually ended up by going upstairs in my room and crying myself to sleep.
It was a f*cked up moment. I have never felt anything close to this...
Until one day... literally three weeks ago something changed...
Couple of months ago I had plans to start 1-3 businesses, which are verified and waiting to be implemented. I decided to start from the very easiest one and take one step at a time.
Now... I will get many angry looks for this, but what I did is this....
I've created a damn Facebook account for my CV and Cover Letter writing services and offered to write a CV and Cover Letter for group members for 2 weeks for free. Yes, for damn free. The only thing I asked them is to like my page and write a review...
So... I started killing my keyboard. I started receiving lovely messages from people who appreciated my effort. I started receiving messages from random people thanking me for my generosity... Likes started growing... reviews began climbing up...
I don't know what the F happened, but after like 1-2 days I felt like turning from a sick guy into a healthy human being I once was. Depression disappeared. It felt like a priest kicked out ugly demon out of me. It was like seeing sun for the first time after two years - all clouds disappeared.
I was like WTF...don't know what's this, but I am hooked. I continued writing... likes continued climbing, reviews growing...
It's now third week, I have 500 likes and 80 five star reviews from people who wrote entire paragraphs how great my service is and how professional my works are...
Plus, I got 4 paying customers, which is not much, but healing process is worth more than $100'000s. I am finally looking forward to future, lost damn 16 kilograms, started eating healthy, going to gym, waking up in the morning, stopped smoking weed entirely and am a lot less negative...plus my reputation among group members is insanely good, for instance... I posted a post yesterday about my CV and Cover Letter writing services and got like 150 likes and many shares - yeah, you gonna scream "F*ck your likes when you have 0 conversion rate!" - but this is not the point, the point is that people are appreciating what I do and I am damn hooked on that.
My plan is now to stop writing for free and slowly merge into different lane, a lane of monetizing my services, creating marketing and automation strategy and letting my bird fly high, high into the blue sky...
I know, some of you will say my happiness is built on bullshit. Others will say that depression will crawl back... others will probably point out that I will fail, because my current conversion rate is minimal...blah blah... I don't give a damn about this, you know why? Because this strategy has literally saved me from a suicide and I've made a damn huge amount of people happy...3 of my customers even got jobs due to my CV and Cover Letter - one of them is Italian female aged 35 who got a job today and asked me to meet for a coffee...and maybe even more? Lol.
So yeah, this post is geared towards those people who are depressed and paralyzed like I once was. You're not alone and instead of crying yourself into the pillow, go out and do something for free. Just do something. Don't think about making millions and kicking MJ off his throne - I hope my joke is understood properly, lol.
I am finally back to the family - The Fastlane Forum
Love you guys!
I haven't been active for a while. Why? It's quite simple actually - I had been fighting my demons for more than a year. I had been critically depressed. Depression was so serious that I was contemplating suicide at least 5 times a week. Why?
Take my glasses and let's go for a ride...
Long story short, I am quite established guy, but all cool stuff ended when my first business crashed. I fell into very deep depression. I tried to lift myself up once, twice....again and again...only to fall deeper into depression. I created a mental jail where I was an inmate and vicious security guard who did a pretty good job for a long time...
For entire two years I couldn't lift myself up. I turned into fat tart, started smoking weed to release some mental pain and was contemplating suicide and usually falling asleep while still crying in my pillow...crying, because pain was so severe and I was so lost that suicide seemed to be the only answer...
Nobody seemed to care about me. Apart of guys who needed my brain power to come with solutions to solve their problems. As soon as I solved them 'friends' left me and I fell into deep depression once again...
I tried to stand on my feet like 20 times, if not more. Most people gave up on me. To some extent even my mother, who is the only family member I have. But I didn't fully gave up on myself, which is the reason why I am still alive and sharing this story with you all...
I had created multiple threads on forum about my plan for a recovery. All of them gathering dust in archives. I made many plans, which have never been executed to this day... I failed at all of them, again, again, again and damn again!
It seemed like I was possessed by some entity. For entire two years I couldn't pick myself up. I was coming up with various reasons to not work on my business. I was spending hours sitting in a sitting room, pretending to watch a TV while drowning in my own thoughts...I couldn't hear TV, I couldn't hear what people were talking in the room... I was somewhere deep down inside myself. This usually ended up by going upstairs in my room and crying myself to sleep.
It was a f*cked up moment. I have never felt anything close to this...
Until one day... literally three weeks ago something changed...
Couple of months ago I had plans to start 1-3 businesses, which are verified and waiting to be implemented. I decided to start from the very easiest one and take one step at a time.
Now... I will get many angry looks for this, but what I did is this....
I've created a damn Facebook account for my CV and Cover Letter writing services and offered to write a CV and Cover Letter for group members for 2 weeks for free. Yes, for damn free. The only thing I asked them is to like my page and write a review...
So... I started killing my keyboard. I started receiving lovely messages from people who appreciated my effort. I started receiving messages from random people thanking me for my generosity... Likes started growing... reviews began climbing up...
I don't know what the F happened, but after like 1-2 days I felt like turning from a sick guy into a healthy human being I once was. Depression disappeared. It felt like a priest kicked out ugly demon out of me. It was like seeing sun for the first time after two years - all clouds disappeared.
I was like WTF...don't know what's this, but I am hooked. I continued writing... likes continued climbing, reviews growing...
It's now third week, I have 500 likes and 80 five star reviews from people who wrote entire paragraphs how great my service is and how professional my works are...
Plus, I got 4 paying customers, which is not much, but healing process is worth more than $100'000s. I am finally looking forward to future, lost damn 16 kilograms, started eating healthy, going to gym, waking up in the morning, stopped smoking weed entirely and am a lot less negative...plus my reputation among group members is insanely good, for instance... I posted a post yesterday about my CV and Cover Letter writing services and got like 150 likes and many shares - yeah, you gonna scream "F*ck your likes when you have 0 conversion rate!" - but this is not the point, the point is that people are appreciating what I do and I am damn hooked on that.
My plan is now to stop writing for free and slowly merge into different lane, a lane of monetizing my services, creating marketing and automation strategy and letting my bird fly high, high into the blue sky...
I know, some of you will say my happiness is built on bullshit. Others will say that depression will crawl back... others will probably point out that I will fail, because my current conversion rate is minimal...blah blah... I don't give a damn about this, you know why? Because this strategy has literally saved me from a suicide and I've made a damn huge amount of people happy...3 of my customers even got jobs due to my CV and Cover Letter - one of them is Italian female aged 35 who got a job today and asked me to meet for a coffee...and maybe even more? Lol.
So yeah, this post is geared towards those people who are depressed and paralyzed like I once was. You're not alone and instead of crying yourself into the pillow, go out and do something for free. Just do something. Don't think about making millions and kicking MJ off his throne - I hope my joke is understood properly, lol.
I am finally back to the family - The Fastlane Forum

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