I visualize sidwalkers and slowlaners who have rejected me, or who have held me back as flesh eating zombies... like those in the walking dead. If I don't outdo myself every single day, I imagine they catch up to me.
Then they spew their bullshit all over me and I get reinfected with the script. (You've gotta save so you retire. Do what you love. College is an experience. Don't work too hard. Enjoy having no responsibility, you're young. Treat yourself with some junk food and a night of Tv. I'm fifty and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up, etc.) Of course they don't stop there, they also tear my life apart piece by piece.
Then I have to go through all the pain and struggle of getting out again. The reason I do that is avoiding pain is very potent as a reward. And this is like a runner's high for me once I knock out an objective. I think of it as a reboot for my kernel.
Then they spew their bullshit all over me and I get reinfected with the script. (You've gotta save so you retire. Do what you love. College is an experience. Don't work too hard. Enjoy having no responsibility, you're young. Treat yourself with some junk food and a night of Tv. I'm fifty and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up, etc.) Of course they don't stop there, they also tear my life apart piece by piece.
Then I have to go through all the pain and struggle of getting out again. The reason I do that is avoiding pain is very potent as a reward. And this is like a runner's high for me once I knock out an objective. I think of it as a reboot for my kernel.
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