First. Change your screen name. There's a thread here somewhere on how to do that. If you continue identifying yourself as a loser, you will destine yourself for failure. I am not huge on "think and grow rich" type of psychobabble, but part of what you are about to embark on is attitude, and I want you to start from day one with the attitude of a winner. Start with your screen ID. Don't allow other people to force your identity to be "the dropout."