Thread: I'm Losing My Mind..... Please Help Me Keep My Sanity

Originally Posted by Sasha

I HATE my job!

I hate it with a fiery passion that burns deep within my soul and cannot be quelled. It's so bad, I only have 3 weeks until I go on vacation and I.Just.Can't.

I can't find the motivation to show up.
I can't find the energy to do the required work.
And I can't stop thinking about setting the place on fire and cackling like a crazy, deranged individual , then and asking "Who's bad?" as I watch it burn to the ground.

I'm miserable & cranky, losing out on much needed commissions as a result, and I swear I hear telling me downtown Dallas could use a new piece of leveled, smoking hot real estate on the market.



I'm beginning to think the voices are right and I fear the worse... I've found myself unconsciously arson how to manuals, and have recently developed the urge to drown puppies and strangle strangers "because they look so darn happy".



Right now, what I'm brewing is the fastlane to orange jumpers and while I don't know anyone who's familiar with the prison system, I have an inkling that me + jail =/= a good match... especially since I have fastlane aspirations. So please, PLEASE, PLEASE good fellows of the fastlane forum, inundate me with your stories of horrible times at the job and how you pushed through (misery loves company and all that jazz), and perhaps some stories of how awesome being a fastlane success is (so my dubious thoughts don't make it to fruition).

Quit your job. You live in America, it's not that hard to get an entry level job at your age. Stop acting/talking crazy.

-.- I'll remember not to be so colorful in my storytelling and to not give backstory that has the potential to overshadow the focal point of my op..... moving on.

Crimson: I have a loosely defined end date for my current gig.

I intend to keep working until the end of next year or until the time spent at my job would be better spent working my fastlane biz (which ever comes first). However, if I can't secure a contract somewhere else, it's going to be June 1st rain or shine... Perhaps figuring out which outcome is most likely will help?

Vigilante: Lol, my long term plan is most definitely not to die there.

I find knowing I have an exit date (more like time frame) does help, but it's not enough for me right now. The problem isn't the job itself, it's doing my job where I'm currently stationed. I will actively try to secure a contract with another company once I return from vacation though. If I manage to be successful, it will go a long way to making things better. The right working environment will make knowing I won't have the job forever enough to put a smile on my face when the going gets tough... Right now that thought does nothing for me.

ZDS: I don't have any friends or family where I'm at. That's why my vacation 3 weeks from today is so important. I'll finally get to spend some time with my family and friends which I know will do wonders. Burn out is no joke when you can't even have a good time with family and/or friends.

Real OG: Fret not, puppies, strangers, and even the company I work for is safe. I just took some creative license with my storytelling to make my rant more bearable to read. The only people I really want to sometimes abuse are the clientele and, considering the company I work for clearly markets to them and I already knew that's not a crowd I do well with, it's all on me for putting myself in such a situation. Also, I am focusing on the positives, and they are many of them. Like I said, I don't really hate my job, I just hate how it's done here. My currently line of work I can see totally benefiting me in my fastlane journey and, even working at this company that I don't mesh well with has taught me thing or two. It's mostly of the what not to do variety, but knowing that is very valuable as well.

Lastly, my fastlane plan is being finalized as I work towards my launch date of Monday January 27th. No interning here, I'm ready to jump right in.

Robre: You, me, boat... grab a paddle.

DeSeingalt: Due to the details I've already given, the list of possible places I work would be too short for comfort if I said what I did. Also, I'm pretty sure I know the root of the problem... While the company culture is one I'm not used to, it's the people we cater to that is a problem for me. I went from working at companies that target middle class and above clientele that expect to spend and make decisions based mostly on quality, not price, to a company that caters to those with a more modest and even laughable budget who are the definition of bargain shoppers. And as someone whose income is heavily commission based, that sucks. Not so much because sales in general are less frequent and of a lower dollar value, because that gets offset by their large customer base, it sucks because I don't get the mentality of the people we cater to so I have a hard time speaking their language so I can close them.

Russ: "OK, but you're not gonna like my advice." You're right.

I don't feel as if what you said was necessary since I'm just looking for stories of how people pushed through a hard time on the job, not advice about my job and what do. Why? Because I already know I'm being whiny. The first half was, after all, a rant. And, besides already having a plan to remedy the situation in place, I know the problem's me. Where I work is great for a lot of people, just *not me*.

Lastly, IMO, quitting in this case wouldn't be a cop out. Every other place I've worked at has suited me just fine, it's just this one place that doesn't mesh well with me sooo I think it's safe to say I'm not a good match at my current company and need to find a different one. The job works fine for me, I just can't work it the way it needs to be done at my current gig. Also, I'm not trying to make my current job a career. I got it for a specific purpose which will be fully served by the end of this year the latest. That being the case, I see no reason to stick around and learn how to work under the conditions currently given because making money is more important to me than professional growth in my field.

*shrugs* You gave me something to think about nonetheless, and I do need to "grow up"... I just don't think this is a situation that calls for the "grow up" response.

Okay, so I (wo)manned up at work last week and tried really hard to make the best of it.

Before going back in I made a list of all the reasons I think my job is awesome sauce, and a list of reasons why learning how to make it work at the company I'm at is worth it for me as an entrepreneur (career wise didn't work b/c I have no intention of making my job a career).

Then I did some envisioning exercises of everything from me in the process of dominating at work, to me reaping the benefits of said domination.... Reread this thread.... Lingered on the story about Wade's brother... Told myself to stop being a cry baby... Envisioned some more... Treated myself to sugar biscuits & a pepsi... And finally went to work.

I'm glad to say that while it's been slow this past week and everyone's been having a hard time making sales and dealing with the clientele, I've managed to not really be bothered that much and my earnings
have actually been at or above average instead of taking a nose dive off a precipitous hill like it was the week prior.

It's still a work in progress, but I think I'm turning a new leaf and I'm committed to making sure I turn things around... I sooo DO NOT like losing in mind over matter situations.

Good for you.. Good Luck..

LOL! I love it. You certainly have passion, which is great! Esp when you can focus it on your own purpose. I felt the same way about my job (liability claims adjuster with one of the biggest and worst insurance companies). I eventually got myself fired for political reasons, which hallowed me to collect unemployment for a while while I began creating what I am doing now. Stark broke, working constantly and loving it!

I can relate to how you feel. I recently stumbled upon this forum and MJs book and it came at just the right time for me. I have been on this path for a couple years now, but I was locked into my job, had a mortgage, the "perks" helped keep me enslaved (Profit sharing [eliminated the year I left], health insurance, company car, bla, bla), but I felt like a slave and was miserable and depressed.

Your post is hilarious, but I understand the seriousness of your rant. Here's to you finding your purpose and freeing yourself of the chains of the "slow lane" life style, the subjectification, the dullness and dreary, etc.

Been there . . . It sucks!

Good luck and find your freedom - you CAN do it! Believe, fight - make it happen!

-R

I hear ya, Sacha!

Yes, we are where we are because of choices, and we always have a choice.

Sometimes though, as long as it is mildly tolerable, staying put is the best option because a) it reminds us of why we are trying to go Fastlane, b) it will take more energy to job-hunt and learn a new job, taking time and focus away from building a Fastlane biz and c) the new place might be crappier than the last.

It might not even be that bad of a job in the first place, but because your heart lies in the Fastlane, it feels like Slowlane prison.

I'm at that same spot now. At my level and industry, jobs come around only a few times a year. I tried for THREE YEARS to find a new job (I came in "a close second" too often for words), until one day I decided it was easier to stay in a job I knew and use my free time and extra energy working on my Fastlane business. That was all fine and good, until Labour Day hit and we've been tsunamied with work while understaffed. I watched my usual free time go *poof*, suddenly making my job unbearable because I haven't been able to "balance" it with my Fastlane efforts.

Have faith, things will turn around!

First of all, take a deep breath and calm down, you are really bursting out. See so many people have arrived to help you!