ManWithABeard

I figured I'd keep a personal blog on here, to keep track of my progress, probably going to write in this thing twice a day, LOL, should be a good therapy as well.
Man, it's crazy how things change. It's even crazier how time flies. I mean, almost a year ago I was miserable sitting in a cubicle, surfing the web when I had stumbled across this forum. Almost a year ago since I started my clothing company and brand. Now almost a year later, I have my first retailer, I've gotten the attention of other brands locally and one from California and one from the UK. Who'd of thunk it?

So now, the man who owns this boutique, who is pretty much the biggest streetwear vendor in the city, has also brought me on board to be one of his go-to designers for his own personal clothing brands he wants to launch. Pretty awesome to be involved. Funny part is, I had just taught myself how to use Illustrator and Photoshop, and here I am, designing tees, sweaters and polos like a pro.

Money's not great yet, and I sure have a hell lot of work to do, but the progress I have made is amazing and I'm just now taking a second to look back at what I've done. No time to celebrate. Time is money.


But my only problem is trust and paranoia. Why does this retailer like me so much? Why does the owner constantly call me for 2 hour long conversations? I mean, it's awesome to be respected and liked so much by a self made millionaire, but I've read so many horror stories about this biz. Letting your wall down and then getting screwed over. f@$k that man. I don't want that to be me. And seeing firsthand how the music business is, still gives me the chills to this day. Ironically, the streetwear business almost parallels the music business in a lot of aspects. I am super paranoid. He's a great dude, but I am not in the business to make friends, though making friends is a bonus.

So now, whenever I have these meetings, I am sitting there with all of my defenses up. Supposedly the owner of the retailer is going to help me learn how to obtain a distribution for my clothing company, which is definitely a goal I am working to obtain within the next year and a half, but even then, I'm thinking in my head "why is he helping me so much? is he trying to get a piece of my biz?". paranoia. I've just been screwed so many times in life that I have this fear that everyone wants to do me in now. It sucks. Now, with me running my first biz, the paranoia and the fear skyrockets. Oh well, I will just have to stay on my ones and twos and keep moving forward with this, I've got the biggest opportunity in the world right now and I'm sure as hell going to take it, but not blindly...