There is nothing of value in this post. Just being frustrated.
by, Feb 1st, 2011 at 06:02 AM (376 Views)
I just need to metapysically butt my head against the wall here
Before you read on, fair warning. There's really no point in it.
But if you are reading this, I do owe you a bit of an explanation. I'm working on a website, what I expected to be a fun little side project to spend a couple weeks on, then sort of move on. It's more of an experiment than anything else.
If you can get into the speedway, read the postings about canned meat to know what I'm talking about. Otherwise, don't worry about it too much. Just move on.
I just find it funly frustrating to write up 12 little articles, pick out four more topics, and then be completely dissatisfied with the 'feel' of the whole thing.
But the 'funly' part comes from the dissatisfaction stemming from a better understanding of what I do want, rather than the plague of insecurity.
Which is a good thing. That insecurity does pop up, whispering sweet little words like "You could just make a few introductory paragraphs, and then link to someone elses work... It's more their words than yours, and they have more credibility."
But I can't do that. It would just cheapen what I'm trying to do, even if the above points are true. Could one really expect someone to visit their site, find a bunch of links, and then go through them all and actually come back?
I highly doubt it. If I'm not willing to put any heart into it, why the hell should I expect the visitors to? So instead, I'm stuck having to rewrite everything to better fit the goal- The impact I'm striving for.
Man, that wikipedia synopsis of outliers' statement that after 10,000 hours of practice you become a master at something is such a lie. I've spent far more than that practicing writing, and yes, even practicing writing it with the intention of drawing out a specific reaction, and still suck at it.
Well ok, maybe only 2-3,000 of those hours were meant to draw out specific reactions. Most of it is just communication.